See my self
Going crazy
I know you
See it too

I know what you're all thinking
You are holding on just trying to be cool

But know that come tomorrow
All your worries will be gone (along with me)

A creature
Clad in tatters of dead joy
Bleeding
The red of the holly berries

And crowned
With their spiky leaves
By the light of the sun
I'm running through
Failing my search

When did my strength fail?
Seeing the sun die
Year after year
There's nothing new

Get's ready now
To terrorize
So pure I am
Where I bleed

Shreds of fate
Given life
By my fierce scream
I am mad

I am truth
But it's killing me
Mankind cannot bear too much
But I am a man and the truth is all I can bear
And the lies and lies and lies are killing me

Great deceptions
You talk the talk
But are you there?

False receptions
The ultimate
In failure and fear

Lies and lies and lies and lies
I'm so fucked in the head
It's not funny
And the love of my life
Can't save me
Because
I have to save myself first

My son
We must prevail
Go get daddy's gun
We'll make a call for hell

Not for me
While I stare at the cold moon
Ironic
That something so clean
For the staining blood
That will splat at me
For the secret that it is

The voices inside my head
Drives me insane
Say hello
To my little friend

And we are living in it

I want to tear my skin

Tonight it all ends
The bullet hit my brain
Blew it up to pieces
Look at the mess I've made

Say hello to my little friend
The world is so ugly

Grieving
I stand before the gravestone
I say my last goodbye

Self righteous indignation lies
Behind the mask of apathy

Seduction
To an
Artificial thrill

Dionysus
Takes her hold
As I embrace

I
Choose
To
Make
A Stand

But to be a martyr first you have to die

So, why didn't I see you coming?
In my breath, In my walk, In my eyes
You have been there for long and long
I saw you and recognized you

For what you were
Screamed at
Run from

And I thought I had accepted that
And it's only someone that I've fought with
For these many years
Always there
Always waiting

We have our differences
Death and me
But we are so similar
So very alike

Two stiffs in a village
Always comes to blows
But you're here now
And come between me
Me and my life

Many, many years ago on a distant shore
Men did gather secretly beyond a hidden door
They travelled long and travelled far
Darkness through the night
Yes, this is the place they've chosen
To build another site

Congregation rises, starts to chant a hymn
Of evil, lust and hatred, the roots of every sin
The crazies stand before them while the others wait
Why they worship metal gods each and every day

All the evil things we do, the secrets that we keep

Metal church, unholy, can't you be the sacrifice
Metal church, the only, don't you know the time is right
Metal church will find you, comes from very far
Metal church inside you, knows just who you are

No use in speaking out against anything we do

Now the story starts again, all the time is lost
Metal Church begins to do...
Watch the souls become lost

Metal church, unholy, can't you be the sacrifice
Metal church, the only, don't you know the time is right
Metal church will find you, comes from very far
Metal church inside you, knows just who you are

The metal church!

Kept inside
Where to turn?
Bottled up
When to burn?

Eating away
Filled with hate

No more cheeks to turn

Red river flowing
Wounds tearing open
The blade of a knife
Release my cares from me
Knife now blood stained...

Not a care no more
Tragic life
Meaningless times
I lost it all

"Hey Wait"
You say
"That looks like blood"
But no! It's the pain inside
Finally released
Let go, to leave this place
To play at someone else
Not me! No more

The perfect world
Out of reach
Except one way
The way it's true

Look inside your soul
And find the blackest part
Unfeeling and uncaring and cold
Then you have a feeling of my soul

I embraced darkness
As soon as I was born
Pushing out love
Inside my soul

My eyes see red
From heartbreak and pain
And painful visions
Inside my head

Pain takes the place of pleasure
Inside me is anger
No place for pleasure
Awaiting revenge at any measure