In my melancholic asylum
I embrace the things to come
Betray the world with my solitude

Despair is my middle name
I'm the one who's to blame
Wear disguises of sorrow

Hide beneath the clouded sky
Dry the tears in my eye
Await the shroud
Of relief

Silence thy lullabies
Look behind the disguise
Envision
A pity entity

Don't try to remember
But longings are stronger
The tangled ghosts
Taking shape in my mind

A veil lower over me
I try to slide through
Threaten to suffocate
Still I am strong

Sweet spittle fulfill your mouth
Flew down the throat
Became liquid lead
Frozen in your soul
It took a fragment
And left a gaped wound behind

Distant memories
Hurting in my mind
I look for a course
To your poisoned soul

A veil lowers over me
I try to slide through
Threaten to suffocate
Weakness spreads in me

Gedanken kreisen wild in meinem Kopf
Doch Ideen für die Ewigkeit berühren mich nicht
Ich kann in deine Augen sehen und doch
Begreife ich nicht den sinn, der sich darin versteckt
Wie gegen Mauern zu laufen komm ich mir vor
Geh nur im Kreis, denn mein Weg führt nur zurück

Ich schwimme wie auf einem großen See
Umkreise einen Strudel, der mich verschlingen will
Ein dünner Grad zwischen Glauben und Verzweiflung
Auf dem Berg der Ängste schwimme ich

Ich kann in deine Augen sehen und weiß
Die Kraft der Gefühle unterschätzt man so leicht
Einsamkeit und Leid erwarten mich
Und nur die Legenden kennen die Qual
Es war wie vor einer Ewigkeit
Die Gipfel des Lebens standen mir bevor
Träume bestimmten alle meine Taten
Und der Weg lag fast klar im Licht
Doch dann war Dunkelheit
Der Sog schwoll an
Zog mich in seinen gnadenlosen Bann
Verstrickt in diesen Zyklus voller Pein
Verlor ich fast die Sinne
Sie schwanden mir
Ich war hilflos wie ein Blatt im Wind
Augen sie öffneten sich langsam doch
Licht konnte ich durch Täler voller Tränen nun sehen
Der Sog verlor an Kraft und mit Mühen
Streifte ich seinen Einfluss endgültig ab

Ich kann in deine Augen sehen und weiß
Die Gefühle vergessen sind sie niemals mehr

Doch liegen sie nun weit hinter mir zurück
Ein neues Lied verdrängte allen Schmerz

The sole disciple
Of a forgotten faith
Buries the last survivor
In a fading soil

Bleeding black, I'm bleeding black
Wounded
A hope is falling apart
Beneath the sacred surface

Cracks in the eggshell
Called life
Still feasting on this solemn moment
Descending... to a narrow place

Fevered dreams
Inside this immortal asylum
Eternal yearning
And petrified emotions

What I hoped for
Disbaned in haze
Looking out for a sign in maze
A leap in the dark

What I believed
What I believed
Illusions in time

A beam of light
Which was in sight
Determined in mourning

What I hoped for
Disbaned in haze
Looking out for a sign in maze
A leap in the dark

What I sought
In my mind
A wall in my head

I swim
In a sea
Of uncertainty

What I hoped for
Disbaned in haze
Looking out for a sign in maze
A leap in the dark

My eyes
My tired eyes
Frozen in the sky

I see
A way again
A neverending circle

What I hoped for
Disbaned in haze
Looking out for a sign in maze
A leap in the dark

Probably lost, all alone, I stand beside me
Hearing bizarre voices, echoing in my brain
Impaled eyes staring from above
I creep away in my silent cry

Anger, rage burst out of my fragile soul
Eager for an answer which relieve my mind
Caught in this dreams of misery
A neverending whirlpool of suffering

Feelings and emotions without control
Surround me in an impervious swarm
No escape from this scary nightmare
I propel to my aimless destiny

Bleeding orchids growing from my ceiling
Immaterial clowns dancing on my grave
Caught in this dreams of misery
A neverending whirlpool of suffering

An observation, a thought, I'm overcome by fear
Like a sign in her face I'm not able to ask

Like a growing river of jealousy inside me
Rising out of nothing eating into my thinking

I know
I'm overcome by these feelings
It's easy to get into such a whirlpool
Like a trap slowly built up by itself

Soon these are the only feelings that control me
Probably wrong conclusions are buzzing inside my head

I see
How I'm slowly losing my self-control
Slipping through my spread-out fingers like sand
It's wrong to regard these things like that

I know what I wanna do now
What there is to do
But it's just a load
Burdened by myself

You only know you are guilty
He is able to understand me

I think to know what eyes tell
Your miserable thoughts are growing

Now I'm looking back and realize
That everything was unfounded and nothing

But sometimes pain is like water
Rising out of nothing and getting out of hand

A burning bridge in the wake of silence
Crossing the rivers of liquid ice
The spiral virtue sentenced with the virus
Led by temptation and the echoing words

A final reflection the firestarter's on the run
Playing hide and seek inside this maze of oblivion
A vultures' feast on the doorsteps to serenity
Tiny streams of magma dripping through the shallow graves

Gifted with the pawns of nothingness
The void's embrace a fatal delight
A leaden fly on the way to the moon
On the rise yet drowning
Entangled in this infinite trawl

Floating the deserted oceans
Sanctified is this irregular quest
And I dream of dying
Alone I wait for my bride
Now I cannot explain
These words of pain
To you my dying friend