Tracks

01. Beyond The Eyelids
02. Rainbow Box
03. 02 Panic Room
04. Schizophrenic Prayer
05. Parasomnia
06. Through The Other Side
07. Embryonic
08. Cybernetic Pillow
09. Ultimate Trip
10. Behind The Eyelids
12. 02 Panic Room



01. Beyond The Eyelids

Music by Riverside
Lyrics by Mariusz Duda
We are none of us...

If I still believed in me
I would lie
If I had another chance I would try
If I lost my dreams I would blame myself again
If I were myself I would be someone else

If I didn't want to feel
I would stay
If I were myself I would be someone else

Cause I can
See the truth in the photograph
And with all that's mine
I need to look back inside

And this day
New life raced through my mind
So with all that's mine
I need to look back inside


02. Rainbow Box

Music by Riverside
Lyrics by Mariusz Duda
Medication Time
My favorite part
Hello Rainbow Box
Need you to survive

White is for my health
Blue for happiness
Thanks to Red I live
With a shade of smile on my face

Alpha waves appeared
I've crossed a line
Sea of memories
Feel I'm going down

Achromatic day
Got choked by colored pills
I thought that I could
But the icy water closed over me

You know
Want to feel alive
Need you more
Anytime

You know
Want to feel alive
Need you more
Anytime


03. 02 Panic Room

Music by Riverside
Lyrics by Mariusz Duda
Used to be my Panic Room
The other side of me
Where I slept and woke by turns
And nothing seemed real

I was feeding on your life
Peering through the hole
And it scared me out
Someday
You would knock on my door

Sweet shelter of mine
I'm freezing without
Sweet shelter of mine
I'm dying without

Cover up my twisted thoughts
Shattered all around
Muffled sounds
Recurring dreams
Melatonin smile

Used to be my 302
The other side of light
Trap of my own
That helped me deal
With what I lost inside

Sweet shelter of mine
I'm freezing without
Sweet shelter of mine
I'm dying without
Sweet shelter of mine

***

I've tried to make self-portraits before
But they always turn out so contrived
I've spent too much time
Correcting light and shade
Hiding wrinkles
Blurring scars

I've tried to make self-portraits before
Through my eyes
Just see myself
Now I know
I'm not in denial
That I need someone else
To see me


04. Schizophrenic Prayer

Music by Riverside
Lyrics by Mariusz Duda
So afraid of rejection
Hide inside ourselves
Acting like strangers to avoid the pain

We collect our phobias
Our sicknesses
Feel so good only when we can complain

In your arms
Feels like a better us
In your arms

Dancing around the fire
Getting drunk with the night
Nobody is ever who they seem to be

Hypnos give us your hand
We so tire of this life
Need to rest and finally disappear

In your arms
Feels like a better us
In your arms


05. Parasomnia

Music by Riverside
Lyrics by Mariusz Duda
Lying here on the floor
Starting to come around
What you did Mr. Hyde
What you got me into this time

There's blood on my hands
Emptiness in my mind
I don't remember my name
Don't recall who I am

What's wrong with me now
I'm shying from the light
I start to realize
Feel I'm falling down
Every inch of my skin
Feel the pain I saw
The self - I was running away from - just back!

Lost the light of day
Lost my picture of you
This nightmare I was afraid of
Just becoming the truth

Oh no
What have I done
Can't just put it all behind me
Can't afford to lose my mind

Oh no
What have I done
You don't know how much I need to
Find a way to bring you back

Lying here on the floor
Starting to come around
What you did Mr. Hyde
What you got me into this time

Drugged from sleep
In front of the mirror
Shrugging off the darkest fear
Keep asking myself the same question
When did I turn to this side of me
When did I turn to this side

I need to find a way
To bring you back again...


06. Through The Other Side

Music by Riverside
Lyrics by Mariusz Duda
So welcome to the No Man's Land
Where you can finally face yourself
Fear of feeling something real
Is your friend now
There's no need to run

So welcome to the No Man's Land
Where nothing is as it seems
Mysteries hidden from you
Six feet under
And six feet above

And to feel your heart this way
Before it gets too late

The moon began to split in half
And the darkness could be touched
Blindfolded
You're trying to find a way
To the bottom of your soul

But I can see all your scars
That you wish you could hide
And I won't let you remember
What it was like
When you were here before

And to hear your voice again
And to feel your touch this way
Before it gets too late


07. Embryonic

Music by Riverside
Lyrics by Mariusz Duda
In a mood like this
Don't want to pull away from you
Don't want to hurt you
Shutting you out
Or pushing you away
In the mood like this
I want someplace that is just mine
And nobody else's
Just mine

Complete indifference
TV life instead of talk
We're drifting apart
Lipreading
And so distant now
I miss what we had
I miss someplace that was just mine
And nobody else's
Just mine

Place for me to hide
Inside of me

For you
I will be
For you
I will escape again
Wish to see in your eyes
That you want us back

That there's hope for us


08. Cybernetic Pillow

Music by Riverside
Lyrics by Mariusz Duda
Last time I made you up
You looked so bright
I was about to believe in angels

Searching my lucid dream
Came up against
Pictures of your imagination

Feel the pain...

I'm looking for you now
Somewhere far-off in my mind
I wish you told me...everything
There's no way I can get around that

But if this is only a dream
Does it follow
One day must we wake up
But if this is only a dream
I can just...

I feel no pain...


09. Ultimate Trip

Music by Riverside
Lyrics by Mariusz Duda
Even if I had my life to live
Over again
Even if I had my life to live
Over again
I would keep coming back to the same place
Waiting on the shore for me to return

I'm nourished by
Your day's residues
Seeing through the veil
Unclose your mind

I'm the reflection of
All your waking lives
Narcoleptic sins
Unclose your mind

In the depth of me
Can control your life
With your shell around
Unclose your mind

I'm your amber light
Way of passing time
Movement of your eye
Unclose your mind

I'm your better life
Hidden desire
Never Neverland
Unclose your mind

We could be so good
Broken looking-glass
So much left unsaid
Fearless on top... Fearless on top...
Fearland at heart... Fearland at heart... Fearland at heart...

And now you will be my soul mate
I'm going to make you up again...
It's ok now, but...
I don't know how long it needs to last Sooner or later
I will need you to come and get me out of here
Sooner or later
I will need you to come and get me
Sooner or later
I will need you

Sooner or later

Closed inside
I have my life back

Trapped inside
I give my life back


10. Behind The Eyelids

Music by Riverside
Lyrics by Mariusz Duda
We are none of us...

If I still believed in me
I would lie
If I had another chance I would try
If I lost my dreams I would blame myself again
If I were myself I would be someone else

If I didn't want to feel
I would stay
If I were myself I would be someone else

Cause I can
See the truth in the photograph
And with all that's mine
I need to look back inside

And this day
New life raced through my mind
So with all that's mine
I need to look back inside


12. 02 Panic Room

Music by Riverside, Magda & Robert Srzedniccy
Lyrics by Mariusz Duda
Used to be my Panic Room
The other side of me
Where I slept and woke by turns
And nothing seemed real

I was feeding on your life
Peering through the hole
And it scared me out
Someday
You would knock on my door

Sweet shelter of mine
I'm freezing without
Sweet shelter of mine
I'm dying without

Cover up my twisted thoughts
Shattered all around
Muffled sounds
Recurring dreams
Melatonin smile

Used to be my 302
The other side of light
Trap of my own
That helped me deal
With what I lost inside

Sweet shelter of mine
I'm freezing without
Sweet shelter of mine
I'm dying without
Sweet shelter of mine

***

I've tried to make self-portraits before
But they always turn out so contrived
I've spent too much time
Correcting light and shade
Hiding wrinkles
Blurring scars

I've tried to make self-portraits before
Through my eyes
Just see myself
Now I know
I'm not in denial
That I need someone else
To see me