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Nachtmystium - Disbanded


Nachtmystium's mastermind Blake Judd has posted an extensive statement on his decision to immediately end all activities related to this band and his other project Hate Meditation. You can read his full statement below.

Statement from Blake Judd:

"After many long hours of thinking and careful consideration over the last month or so, I have come to the decision to immediately end all activities related to my bands Nachtmystium and Hate Meditation and cease any and all further activities in the future, entirely, under either band name or as a recognizable solo artist. When I do release new music, it's going to be anonymously more than likely, and will be far, far from the realms of metal music anyways, so it won't matter much either way, I suppose.

"This may come at a strange time, as we've been posting photos of Jean Graffio (drummer) and I (Blake Judd) working on recording a new Nachtmystium album very recently....it was tentatively going to be the third (and final) record in the 'Black Meddle' series, with the artistic reasoning behind this 'return to the series', ten years since its predecessor (2010's Addicts: Black Meddle Pt. II LP) being that we were attempting to be carving, yet again, a new musical path of our own making and stepping way outside of our comfort zone in a way so significantly noticeable, we felt that it would make sense for this collection of new songs we've been working on to be released under the 'Black Meddle' series because the new material, we felt, was going to be radical enough in terms of being completely unlike anything we've done before, just as we felt about what we achieved on Assassins: Black Meddle Pt. I and Addicts: Black Meddle Pt. II, and hence why this new collection of material was going to be labeled and released as such, part of the 'Black Meddle' series.

"As we've continued to work on this new, very unusual material, I have personally really begun to struggle to "connect the dots" between what Nachtmystium's done musically, what it has represented ideologically & thematically over the years, and the person who made all those early recordings prior to my getting sober in 2015.....and what we are working on here in June, 2020 and have been working on for about six months now. (the three track / 25 minute long Resilient EP released on Prophecy Productions in late 2018 is the only recording Nachtmystium has made since August, 2013 when we finished The World We Left Behind LP.) These feelings have only intensified as we've delved further down whatever creative path it is Jean and I have been on since beginning our first attempts to make new material since early 2017, this year. The more we are beginning to see the full picture of what we're putting together, especially when it started to be getting closer to the time I need to start considering lyrics and art ideas recently....the more it's become increasingly clear to me that I am not the person today who created all those Nachtmystium records, that I'm in an entirely different mindset. I see life through a completely different, much more positive, healthy, and drug free lens today, and Nachtmystium - for the majority of it's existence - represented a raw picture of that part of my life (the part representing my issues with addiction) That part of my life, thankfully, has been corrected today, and that past is a part of my life that I'm not particularly proud and that comes with a lot of baggage...just like the name Nachtmystium.

"The icing on the cake for me making this decision recently came when, while really trying to make my final decision on all of this last night, after this had been consuming my thoughts entirely for the last week straight...totally by chance - I came across a recent (April, 2020) little gem of internet ugliness on some forum type place on the wonderful world wide web, and it had been interacted with or responded to several hundred times in the 8 or so weeks it's been visible, and it is full of the same insanity I've dealt with from total fucking strangers for years now...totally insane, intentionally negative, speculation or complete falsities about the current state of my life (or the state of my life since about 2014, in fact, when I chose to remove myself from social media for a few years and have only somewhat returned to it in the years since getting clean in late 2015 / early 2016) It was one thing when I was putting myself out there on stages and in vans / buses, choosing to make myself accessible to people and journalists and the likes, both on and off stage, for years....I asked for the attention, both good and bad, that I received. But in the recent years, I've gone out of my way to 'stay in my lane' with Nachtmystium, try to be really quiet in general and, if I've chosen to speak, to do my best to show that I've truly been humbled by what I put my fans, my friends and my family all went through with my heroin addiction that lasted a decade before it finally was brought under control and has remained that way since. I'm currently in the process of becoming a licensed drug counselor / therapist here in California. Today, as part of my personal recovery, I try to give back whatever I can because of all that was given to me personally by people who helped navigate me back to reality in the recovery world when I was first getting cleaned up. Believe it or not, this is the person I've worked extremely hard over the last four years to try and become today. It's a work in a progress, and there is always room for improvement...but the person I am today is night-and-day different than the person I was when i was making the majority of the Nachtmystium body of work.

"So - to bring this full circle - to have these facts about my life be what i can say is truly representative of the person I've worked really hard to become today - with these facts being just that - facts -, for me to stumble across several hundred people engaging with some asshole stranger who doesn't know me from a hole in the wall, commenting about what they think I may or may not be up to in my personal life in recent years....speculating that I'm still using drugs or people making insane false claims about having interactions with me where they've purchased drugs from myself or my fiancee (another thing that has literally never happened, in any form whatsoever...not even once.) in recent years here where I live in California since going through rehab and everything, among other absolutely untrue, nasty falsities about myself and my fiancee, many of which could be potentially extremely damaging to my personal life in a number of ways, both professionally and socially. The fact that someone took the time to write that, and 300-something people had read enough of it to interact with the post in some way, along with pages and pages of comments...still, in 2020, rehashing the most unpleasant parts of my personal, private life from six, seven, eight years ago....I've decided I'm finally absolutely done fueling this fire. It's been long enough. If I don't know you personally, or haven't been in direct contact with you for several years on the internet assuming we don't know one another personally in the real world, then after today - sorry, but I will not be accessible to anyone anymore regarding anything to do with Nachtmystium, Twilight, Hate Meditation or black metal music in general. I can't stand whats become of the name Nachtmystium, and the baggage finally weighs too much. Maybe the haters won, maybe not - because I'm doing this on my terms with absolutely zero hesitation and only extreme excitement and relief about the whole situation and even more excited about what happens with this exciting new music we've been working on, especially now that I don't have the stresser of knowing it's going to be the name Nachtmystium when it's done being affiliated with it. This is a freedom I've longed for for years, and I've finally mustered up the balls to quit this band because I've wanted to do it for years and I finally am confident that i'm ready to let it go. 20 years has been enough and I've achieved everything I'd ever hoped to and so much more, and for all the amazing experiences and the privilege of getting to stand in front of large crowds who knew my music...I'll be forever grateful. What an experience.

"Nachtmystium has always represented the ugly side of me, though. That's what it's always been about..always . As the band matured and I went from being a teenager to being an adult, I stayed honest in my expressions which went from being about disdain for authority and religion more towards being a conduit of truth (probably the only one in my life for many years regarding this very personal subject, honestly...) for me in a world of deceptions of my own makings while struggling with addiction over the years. First, it was years of excessive cocaine and drinking, then followed by nearly 9 years of intravenous heroin use / addiction during which I gave away everything I ever had in exchange for the experience. I made an ass of myself publicly. I lost everything I ever owned or sold it. My friends and family hated me, and rightfully so at the time. I'd deceived and screwed over fans trying to order merchandise. And at the end of it all, I got arrested in October, 2013 and caught a felony conviction for pawning a guitar (so I could feed my habit while recording The World We Left Behind, ironically enough), and then after 30 days in jail and having the whole ordeal broadcast across the internet by MetalSucks and the likes, I spent two years homeless, on probation, unable to leave the city of Chicago...a place where I didn't have a friend in the world at that point, no opportunities, nowhere to stay. That was reality for two years. It changed me down to my core in ways that nothing else ever has, ever could or most likely, ever will. And I'm grateful as hell for every single minute of it, because it helped me become who I try to be today. After all that, I finally had had enough and went to rehab in October, 2015.

"Since that ended, I've used my own bare hands to crawl out of that hole I put myself in. Nachtmystium was always the representation of that hole, which grew out of control over the years and Nachtmystium was always seemingly mixed up right in the middle of that "hole", my addiction. It's created almost urban legend-type stories that i now get to live with for the rest of my life, most of which are bullshit or horribly exagerrated, in certain circles of the metal community over the last 20 years and it's followed me around whether I've been active or not, because....the internet never forgets. Today, I'm officially stopping giving the metal world anything more to "remember" about me. The music we've been working on will be released with a different vocalist, under a different name, and you'll more than likely never know it's me if you're listening to it some day. (which will also be unlikely, unless your tastes extend far outside the realms of metal music, which will be whatever this music we are working on's new home will be found, somewhere.) And that's just fine with me. I got my taste of what I thought i always wanted...some bullshit 'rockstar' dream from when i was a kid. Turns out, that's the last thing I wanted in the long run, and today, I'm ready to be someone unassociated with this chapter of my life any longer. I've been eagerly awaiting it. I've feared taking this step for years...and I finally am ready to do it and feel great about it.

"So - to all of you that have supported us, stayed with us over the years, or maybe found the band since all the madness 6-7 years ago...either way...if you're still here and reading this, thank you for the support and I truly hope our music will still be listened to for years to come and that it brings some enjoyment to any of those whom choose to check it out. For anyone who got stiffed on the merch stuff years ago, we did our best to reach out to all of you and refund as many of you as possible a few years back. I know we didn't get everyone, but we did our best - and regardless of if you ever were contacted by us & refunded or not - I'd like to take this final opportunity to say, truly from the bottom of my heart, that I'm sorry for cheating any of of you of out of your money in hopes of getting a t-shirt or a record. It was wrong then and it's wrong now and I'm extremely sorry it happened. You can take that as you all will...I'm saying it here because this is my last time i'll be making a public address of any type from the Nachtmystium podium and I'd like it to be one of the very last things I say to all of you, because I mean it. All of our catalog is in print or available digitally and it'll remain that way. There are no more new releases...."Resilient" will stand as Nachtmystium's swansong. I'll leave this post with the last track from that release....a song about a life changing moment and the ascension that followed it....a moment, in fact, that's lead me to right here...so there couldn't be something more appropriate to leave you all with.

"What a long, strange trip it's been...it's definitely better to burn out than to fade away. Thanks for the 20 years of madness."

Source: facebook.com
Band profile: Nachtmystium
Posted: 15.06.2020 by Abattoir


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15.06.2020 - 19:12
Auntie Sahar
Drone Empress
This is sad, I was quite looking forward to the new album and getting eager over the hints they had been dropping suggesting an upcoming one on the Facebook. Reading now that it was planned as the third installation in the Black Meddle series makes me even more disappointed.

I really feel the idea expressed here though of "I'm in a different mindset now and no longer feel a connection to the mentality that created the Nachtmystium music". I can only hope that Blake's being genuine and is currently on the mend. It would be quite a welcome turnaround considering all the shit he's been through previously. Either way, I welcome and respect the decision, even if it unfortunately means no more Nachtmystium material.
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15.06.2020 - 21:03
RaduP
CertifiedHipster
This is indeed quite saddening, but at the same time it's probably better for him to cut this toxic part away from his life. I'm glad he's been able to make amends and get over his demons.
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15.06.2020 - 21:58
Maco
Pvt Funderground
It's ok in a few years he'll return again to scam more people. He'll never change.
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15.06.2020 - 22:01
RaduP
CertifiedHipster
Written by Maco on 15.06.2020 at 21:58

It's ok in a few years he'll return again to scam more people again.

Once again, earning your nickname
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15.06.2020 - 22:09
IBlackened

I hope we can hear the music they're working on.
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Their old stuff is better.
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15.06.2020 - 22:35
Cynic Metalhead
Paisa Vich Nasha
This is amusing at its best.

Probably, drama of the year?
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15.06.2020 - 23:17
Maco
Pvt Funderground
Written by Cynic Metalhead on 15.06.2020 at 22:35

Probably, drama of the year?


Naaaa the drama was in 2018. This is just his sendoff for the moment.
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16.06.2020 - 00:19
roeder

That's definitely Blake. No-one else can write such tedious walls of text. I wonder how long before he miraculously finds another batch of bootleg vinyls in an abandoned warehouse.
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16.06.2020 - 03:28
SatanicBlood

Good. Eat shit, Blake.
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16.06.2020 - 03:49
BitterCOld
The Ancient One
Hope for him he got his shit together and fixed his life, and getting the fuck out of metal might be a good thing given all the family, friends and fans he fucked over.

hoping this is legit and not another act of an addict con artist.
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16.06.2020 - 05:50
Auntie Sahar
Drone Empress
Written by Maco on 15.06.2020 at 21:58

It's ok in a few years he'll return again to scam more people.

Just couldn't help yourself, huh?
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I am the Magician and the Exorcist. I am the axle of the wheel, and the cube in the circle. “Come unto me” is a foolish word: for it is I that go.

~ II. VII
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16.06.2020 - 06:25
Lord Slothrop

I'd been curious about this band for some time, but never got around to listening to them. All of the negative press I'd read about Blake steered me away and made me think of this band as something not worth exploring. After reading this article my curiosity spiked again and I dove into The World We Left Behind. Well, I was wrong and it's a damn fine album. Not what I was expecting at all. Definitely going to check out some more of their work.
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16.06.2020 - 13:06
roeder

Written by BitterCOld on 16.06.2020 at 03:49

Hope for him he got his shit together and fixed his life, and getting the fuck out of metal might be a good thing given all the family, friends and fans he fucked over.

hoping this is legit and not another act of an addict con artist.

Everyone was hoping for the same thing two years ago. They said he changed, that he paid back the money he owed to people. Wrest vouched for him. And then he went and pulled the whole Judas Iscariot scheme fucking over people big time once again.
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16.06.2020 - 14:31
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Tage Westerlund
Its Weird post, giving all up, well seems he will move to Alaska something. Fix real life, get family and be free from drugs is important more as metal. He might return thouh after few years
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16.06.2020 - 19:22
Cynic Metalhead
Paisa Vich Nasha
Written by angel. on 16.06.2020 at 16:42

All bullying that comes from people who probably have no slight idea of the issues Blake experienced.


As a matter of fact, I don't think you have any idea of Blake's history.
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16.06.2020 - 21:00
HessianFirm

Scam artist realising that there is no one left to scam
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17.06.2020 - 15:19
Auntie Sahar
Drone Empress
Written by Cynic Metalhead on 16.06.2020 at 19:22

As a matter of fact, I don't think you have any idea of Blake's history.

Boo fuckity hoo, a heroin addict ripped off labels, merchants, people who had ordered merch, and stole money. Welcome to drug addiction. There are other people in the metal community who are sexual assaulters, domestic abusers, and outright pedophiles. You know, actions that have harmed actual people. But nah, let's stay quiet about them because waaahhhhh Naughty Mr. Judd is shooting heroin and stealing money. Give me a break.
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I am the Magician and the Exorcist. I am the axle of the wheel, and the cube in the circle. “Come unto me” is a foolish word: for it is I that go.

~ II. VII
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17.06.2020 - 15:48
Bad English
Tage Westerlund
Written by Auntie Sahar on 17.06.2020 at 15:19

Written by Cynic Metalhead on 16.06.2020 at 19:22

As a matter of fact, I don't think you have any idea of Blake's history.

Boo fuckity hoo, a heroin addict ripped off labels, merchants, people who had ordered merch, and stole money. Welcome to drug addiction. There are other people in the metal community who are sexual assaulters, domestic abusers, and outright pedophiles. You know, actions that have harmed actual people. But nah, let's stay quiet about them because waaahhhhh Naughty Mr. Judd is shooting heroin and stealing money. Give me a break.


Good post man.
You can not trust alcoholics and specially even more drug addicts, they do all to get new dose and more deeper you go, more dangerous it is. All he needs is a new dose...any needs necessarily
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17.06.2020 - 16:29
roeder

Quote:

Boo fuckity hoo, a heroin addict ripped off labels, merchants, people who had ordered merch, and stole money. Welcome to drug addiction. There are other people in the metal community who are sexual assaulters, domestic abusers, and outright pedophiles. You know, actions that have harmed actual people. But nah, let's stay quiet about them because waaahhhhh Naughty Mr. Judd is shooting heroin and stealing money. Give me a break.

I don't see how calling out Blake's new bullshit is connected to protecting pedophiles in any way. Is it not allowed to think let's say the Manowar guy or the Vektor guy AND Blake are, for totally different reasons, both assholes at the same time?
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17.06.2020 - 16:55
Auntie Sahar
Drone Empress
Written by roeder on 17.06.2020 at 16:29

Is it not allowed to think let's say the Manowar guy or the Vektor guy AND Blake are, for totally different reasons, both assholes at the same time?

Not at all. I was simply making the point that it's often Blake who appears to get hatred and endless stigmatization in the metal community far more so than the others you mentioned...... which I think is pretty stupid considering the relatively lower severity of what he's done
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17.06.2020 - 17:00
Troy Killjoy
perfunctionist
One less asshole in the metal community.
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"Wise men talk because they have something to say; fools because they have to say something."
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17.06.2020 - 21:39
Cynic Metalhead
Paisa Vich Nasha
Written by Troy Killjoy on 17.06.2020 at 17:00

One less asshole in the metal community.


THE ONLY asshole of the metal community.
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17.06.2020 - 21:51
RaduP
CertifiedHipster
Written by Cynic Metalhead on 17.06.2020 at 21:39

Written by Troy Killjoy on 17.06.2020 at 17:00

One less asshole in the metal community.


THE ONLY asshole of the metal community.

Elaborate
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17.06.2020 - 23:03
Cynic Metalhead
Paisa Vich Nasha
Written by RaduP on 17.06.2020 at 21:51

Written by Cynic Metalhead on 17.06.2020 at 21:39

Written by Troy Killjoy on 17.06.2020 at 17:00

One less asshole in the metal community.


THE ONLY asshole of the metal community.

Elaborate


Help yourself
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17.06.2020 - 23:22
Starvynth
i c deaf people
Written by Cynic Metalhead on 17.06.2020 at 23:03

Help yourself

Shockingly old news.

Quote:
Judd incorporated psychedelic elements into the band's material, influenced by his love for progressive rock bands such as Pink Floyd and The Allman Brothers.

What an asshole.
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17.06.2020 - 23:33
Maco
Pvt Funderground
Written by Cynic Metalhead on 17.06.2020 at 23:03

Help yourself

I was expecting you to put the link to the whole story on reddit haha
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18.06.2020 - 04:04
Troy Killjoy
perfunctionist
Written by Cynic Metalhead on 17.06.2020 at 21:39

THE ONLY asshole of the metal community.

Oh for sure, there are no other controversial metal musicians in the scene. Everyone else is just a saint.
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20.06.2020 - 13:32
qlacs
"The Quaker"
Written by angel. on 18.06.2020 at 17:08

If he said he moved on and he changed himself and the community still going on bullying him then THINK who is now misbehaving?

You can't mislead people so many times before they stop buying even your most genuine moment. While I did not go out and verify this myself, MA states in the bands notes that "Blake Judd is a prolific scammer who collected money for Nachtmystium merchandise and other goods which he did not send. Accusations of this date back to the early days of the band". People don't write something like this unless there is plenty of evidence.

Also NM is stopping not for the first time and the last left a very bitter taste in most fans mouth. IF he has really changed, eg. grown on a personal level, then he'll be able to deal with the critics himself and make amends.
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22.06.2020 - 21:22
I find it puzzling how some people would rather sideline his bad deeds because of drug addiction, mentioning that there are even bigger assholes in the metal scene. Yes, we all know there are, but should this guy be given an excuse just because he was a drug addict? Did someone force him to take drugs? Based on what his former friends and acquaintances said, no . Was it his choice? YES. So he is responsible for the consequences of his actions. One of the reason why the (in)justice system in the West has become so pussyfooted is precisely because we have introduced and accepted clauses where drug, alcohol and other consumption of harmful substances somehow fully or partly exonerates the culprit. If you kill or maim someone while sober, you get one sentence, but if you do it while drunk or drugged, you get an easier one. What kind of psychopathic birdbrain logic do you need to even think this through?

Taking drugs is a choice. And we all are responsible for the things we do in life, our decisions and their consequences. I happened to meet drug addicts, but none of them ever did 5% of what Blake did. Same as I met many alcoholics, most of them being harmless, a minority becoming violent. It is all about the character of an individual. If one is a swindler, asshole, conman while sober, this is amplified when they snort glue.

Reading Blake's incoherent text, one can hardly believe Blake is done with drugs. Most funny part is that he blames Nachtmystium, his brainchild, for his 'ugly side'. No Blake, it was actually your bright side. Your ugly side was actually your stupid adolescent fantasies, Nirvana-worship and romanticizing drug ingestion thinking that this will get you closer to your idols. Blake is nothing more than another overgrown child. Too bad though, as some of his music is decent. Had he pulled his shit together, he could've managed decently.
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23.06.2020 - 01:12
no one

Written by SikorskiWitness on 22.06.2020 at 21:22

I find it puzzling how some people would rather sideline his bad deeds because of drug addiction, mentioning that there are even bigger assholes in the metal scene. Yes, we all know there are, but should this guy be given an excuse just because he was a drug addict? Did someone force him to take drugs? Based on what his former friends and acquaintances said, no . Was it his choice? YES. So he is responsible for the consequences of his actions. One of the reason why the (in)justice system in the West has become so pussyfooted is precisely because we have introduced and accepted clauses where drug, alcohol and other consumption of harmful substances somehow fully or partly exonerates the culprit. If you kill or maim someone while sober, you get one sentence, but if you do it while drunk or drugged, you get an easier one. What kind of psychopathic birdbrain logic do you need to even think this through?

Taking drugs is a choice. And we all are responsible for the things we do in life, our decisions and their consequences. I happened to meet drug addicts, but none of them ever did 5% of what Blake did. Same as I met many alcoholics, most of them being harmless, a minority becoming violent. It is all about the character of an individual. If one is a swindler, asshole, conman while sober, this is amplified when they snort glue.

Reading Blake's incoherent text, one can hardly believe Blake is done with drugs. Most funny part is that he blames Nachtmystium, his brainchild, for his 'ugly side'. No Blake, it was actually your bright side. Your ugly side was actually your stupid adolescent fantasies, Nirvana-worship and romanticizing drug ingestion thinking that this will get you closer to your idols. Blake is nothing more than another overgrown child. Too bad though, as some of his music is decent. Had he pulled his shit together, he could've managed decently.

Hmm, Im definitely not an asshole when sober but I have done atrocious things when drunk. I made the choice to drink but that ended bei g because I felt it was the only choice I had to escape my problems. I think it's an underlining mental health issue....i guess even just being a complete dick all the time can relate to a mental health issue. People who have been hurt hurt others.
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