Tracks

01. Konevitsan Kirkonkellot
02. Cross My Heart And Hope To Die
03. Brief Is The Light
04. Neverlasting
05. Aika Multaa Muistot (Everything Is Nothing)
06. Excuse Me While I Kill Myself
07. Blood & Tears
08. You Are The One
09. Guilt And Regret
10. The Luxury Of A Grave
11. No One There
12. Killing Me Killing You



01. Konevitsan Kirkonkellot

[Instrumental]


02. Cross My Heart And Hope To Die

Since your death
Everything has felt so meaningless and vain
that I've lost the will to live

Love, your death
Ripped my heart right out and since you went away
Life's had nothing more to give

Cross my heart and hope to die
May my end come tonight
Across the dark, into the light
May death again us unite

Love, my fate
Will you wait for me there... where our autumn dawns?
There, beyond the dreary seas

Will you wait?
Will you welcome me into your arms once more?
Where our waters still fall free

Cross my heart and hope to die
May my end come tonight
Across the dark, into the light
May death again us unite

Cross my heart and hope to die
May my end come tonight
I'll depart from this life
May death again us unite

May it come...

My heart went down with you
At your funeral I was buried, too
My life ... it ended with yours
And I... exist no more


03. Brief Is The Light

The bells again... someone has died
The bells of the end toll to remind
that life's but a race against time

At your back you'll always hear
the Chariot of Time hurrying near.
The faster you run the closer it comes.
A pursuer you can not outrun

Hear these words I say:
- Make the most out of your day
for brief is the light on our way
on this momentary trail.

Hear these words, awake:
- Make the most out of your day
for brief is the time, so brief is the time
that we're allowed to stay.

The bells again.. whose turn this time?
To reach the end, yours or mine?
Each funeral just makes us realize
that life's but a series fo goodbyes.

Hear these words I say:
- Make the most out of your day
for brief is the light on our way
on this momentary trail.

Hear these words I say:
- Make the most out of your day
for brief is the light on our way
on this momentary trail.

Hear these words, awake:
- Make the most out of your day
for brief is the time, so brief is the time
that we're allowed to stay.

Life passes by, melts away like snow in the spring.
We all are blind to the running of time.


04. Neverlasting

Carpe diem...
Seize the day before your life fades away.
Reach for the skies - for the distant sun
and keep on hiding from the gun.

No! You need to sell your soul
for it's great to lose control.
Can't you feel that growing desire
to go down with the blazing fire?

You need to burn and reach to the point of no return.

- Waste no time dreaming in vain!
You and I aren't built to last
- Go astray - the only way!
You and I will make it fast
- Burn the candle at both ends!
Let's take a ride before we fall
- Leave no room for happy endings!
and make it right for once and for all.

Something's twisted in your head
for you live as you were dead.
Therefore you must play with the gun
and be sure to have your fun.

Take my hand and I'll lead you astray
for it's the only way.
Let's give in to the growing desire
and go down with the blazing fire.

We need to burn and reach the point of no return.

- Waste no time dreaming in vain!
You and I aren't built to last.
- Go astray - the only way!
You and I will make it fast
- Burn the candle at both ends!
Let's take a ride before we fall.
- Leave no room for happy endings!
And make it right for once and for all.


05. Aika Multaa Muistot (Everything Is Nothing)

Everything is nothing to me, I couldn´t care less
A stern cold man is what I am, hard, relentless
And though I might have strayed the path I wouldn´t change a thing, no
I´ve hated life to the fullest, yet with longing deep within

For my name is sorrow and I´m a friend of misery
I deprived myself of love for eternal agony
And I don´t even dare to try - I know I can only lose
Between this life I live and nothing I have to choose

Take me home...
...to the one I belong

Hey!
I´ll see you all go down and witness your demise
I´ll be the last to close, the last to close my eyes
And forgive me nothing for I truly meant it all
What I´ve said, what I´ve done


06. Excuse Me While I Kill Myself

"How do you do? Have yourselves a pleasant afternoon!"
Well, fuck you, too!
"Good night" is the one I choose for you!

- I'll kill myself:
I'll blow my brains onto the wall!
- C U in Hell,
I will not take this anymore!
Now, this is where it ends,
this is where I will draw the line
So, 'scuse me while I end my life.

I will pull this through
Not having a reason is no excuse
What the Hell do you suppose I have left to lose?
(You?)

Chorus

[hyvästi jää]

- I'll kill myself:
I'll blow my brains onto the wall!
- C U in Hell,
I will not take this anymore!
This is where it ends: I'll put a bullet in my head
And yes, drop dead [HA-HA-HA]!
This is where it ends, this is where I will draw the line:
- Excuse me while
I Kill myself.


07. Blood & Tears

What is it that we're struggling for?
I don't quite see it anymore.
Life kicks us in the teeth
yet something makes us crawl back for more.

Blood and tears upon the altar of our lives we shed.
Blood and tears until the sweet release we share in death.
Hours like days, weeks like years
Decades of tears
yet somehow..

We'll lose the things we've fighted for
Each rise is followed by a fall
We'll lose the ones we love, the ones we most adore
Yet go on.. we go on

Blood and tears upon the altar of our lives we shed.
Blood and tears until the sweet release we share in death.
Hours like days, weeks like years
Decades of tears
Yet somehow everything seems so worthwhile
for a moment

What is it that we're waiting for?
Looking forward to, preparing for?
Life kicks us in the teeth
Yet something makes us crawl back for more

Blood and tears upon the altar of our lives we shed.
Blood and tears until the sweet release we share in death.
Hours like days, weeks like years
Decades of tears
Yet somehow everything seems so worthwhile
for a moment


08. You Are The One

You're the light at the end of the tunnel
The beacon fire in the dark
The glimmer of hope and truly the meaning of my life

I say this with all of my heart

You are the only one for me
Year to year, in words and deed
In all this chaos the trace of clarity
You are the only one I see
My first and last, my all and everything
You are the one

When dusk falls and obscures the sky
You're the shine of the Northern Star
No dead of night can fade the brilliance of your light

I say this, holder of my heart

You are the only one for me
Year to year, in words and deed
In all this chaos the trace of clarity
You are the only one I see
My first and last, my all and everything
You are the one

You are the only one
In the heart of winter the comfort of the sun
You are the one, my love, you are the one


09. Guilt And Regret

Guilt and Regret, they are my two inbred brothers
Guilt and Regret
O god how I hate them both from the bottom of my heart

Guilt and Regret and me wake up into a brand new day
Guilt and Regret lively
I am still dead tired - the night has been long and hard

My brothers they ask me:
"Do you recall anything from yester-night, no?"
They laugh at me and go:
"Nothing at all? Well, it must have been an evening of joy"

Guilt and Regret
O god how I hate them both from the bottom of my heart

Each morning like this they come, uninvited
Pale as ghosts, reeking of compost
Yet most I abhor their bloodshot eyes

My brothers they ask me:
"Do you recall anything from yester-night, no?"
They laugh at me and go:
"Nothing at all? Well, it must have been an evening of joy"
My brothers they tease me:
"Do you remember anything from yester-night, no?"
They laugh at me and go:
"O sure you do, we buried our little sister Hope"

Guilt and Regret and me - what a twisted family we are
Guilt and Regret
O god, how I hate you both from the bottom of my heart


10. The Luxury Of A Grave

On day zero my mother was expecting... the worst
And out of my father's ass I was born, feet first

"Oh, no"

The most horrendous piece of feces ever forced
To be disposed of is what I was created for

Oh, no... (I'm sorry that I was born) ...so wrong!

When death releases you from me
Just dump my foul remains on some near-by field
- I don't deserve a grave
When you finally get rid of me
Just let my corpse decay ...unburied
- I do NOT deserve the luxury of a grave

My worthlessness is something there is no doubt of:
- I am a waste of the filth I was made out of

How low... (I'm sorry I'm still alive) ...can I go!?

When death releases you from me
Just dump my foul remains on some near-by field
- I don't deserve a grave
When you finally get rid of me
Just let my corpse decay ...unburied
- I do NOT deserve the luxury of...

Oh, no... a coffin would be way too nice
Oh, no... a see-through plastic bag will do just fine

When death releases you from me
Just dump my foul remains on some near-by field
- I don't deserve a grave
When you finally get rid of me
Just let my corpse decay ...unburied
- I do NOT deserve the luxury of a grave


11. No One There

The axe, the bottle, and the rope
The feeling there really is no more hope
The thought of the great unknown
And facing it alone
The dark, the silent, and the cold
The feeling I have come to the end of my road
Yes these are the things I spend my remaining moments with

And the wind blows through my heart
Shivers me one last time
As I now reach out in the dark
No one there

Why did it have to be so hard
For us to live our lives
Again I reach out in the dark in despair

The desperation and the snow
The feeling of finally coming back home
The melancholy and the hole in the soil so hard and cold

And the wind blows through my heart
Shivers me one last time
As I now reach out in the dark
No one there

Your love for me, my love for you
Things we somehow managed to lose
Now there's only the ruthless wind
To blow right through
It freezes my heart, my desperate heart
To think we both will die alone

And the wind blows through my heart
Shivers me one last time
As I now reach out in the dark
No one there


12. Killing Me Killing You

Music by Tenkula & Sentenced
Lyrics by Lopakka
The axe, the bottle, and the rope
The feeling there really is no more hope
The thought of the great unknown
And facing it alone
The dark, the silent, and the cold
The feeling I have come to the end of my road
Yes these are the things I spend my remaining moments with

And the wind blows through my heart
Shivers me one last time
As I now reach out in the dark
No one there

Why did it have to be so hard
For us to live our lives
Again I reach out in the dark in despair

The desperation and the snow
The feeling of finally coming back home
The melancholy and the hole in the soil so hard and cold

And the wind blows through my heart
Shivers me one last time
As I now reach out in the dark
No one there

Your love for me, my love for you
Things we somehow managed to lose
Now there's only the ruthless wind
To blow right through
It freezes my heart, my desperate heart
To think we both will die alone

And the wind blows through my heart
Shivers me one last time
As I now reach out in the dark
No one there