Anata - The Conductor's Departure lyrics
Tracks 01. Downward Spiral Into Madness
02. Complete Demise 03. Better Grieved Than Fooled 04. The Great Juggler 05. Cold Heart Forged In Hell 06. I Would Dream Of Blood 07. Disobedience Pays 08. Children's Laughter 09. Renunciation 10. The Conductor's Departure 01. Downward Spiral Into Madness
Manifestations of eternal spirits
Confused souls of murdered people Infesting our bodies Yet so bizarre You dedicate your lives to exorcism Indeed, you're the chosen elite Of this universe A vicious and dangerous cult Thrives by exploiting its victims Enslaved by mind control techniques And with a mission to sweep aside opposition You wish to achieve total freedom Freed from aberrations But the delusional contents Of the subconscious mind Are instead brought to the surface And presented to you as truth So your state of "total freedom" Is nothing but a state of mass paranoia A vicious and dangerous cult Thrives by exploiting its victims Enslaved by mind control techniques Downward spiral into madness Enslaved by mind control techniques Downward spiral into madness 02. Complete Demise
Standing in a pool of blood
Amnesia My beloved ones in piles Injustice: I'm alive Blood on my hands Now I remember their faces Horrified, in a moment of despair So you want to be saved? Then get out of my way Because your killer Can never be your Christ And I bring nothing But complete demise So get out of here I will only bring you down Save yourself, I can't help Because I just can't help myself Blood on my hands I can imagine your face Horrified, in a moment Because your killer... 03. Better Grieved Than Fooled
Tempted to believe?
Even I, in my solitude Cried for help and wished for That someone would be there for me Better grieved than fooled And I'm prepared to accept my suffering To live with pain Is the price for a life in truth Me being the only lord I'm the one who can forgive And the only one to create A future worth believing in But I live a bitter life in truth And curse its powerless God I can deeply regret My clarity of vision Life had been much easier To live, getting high on faith Get a reason to live Have a blind faith in the future Forever stoned Forever blessed in cowardice Me being the only lord I'm the only one who can forgive Better grieved than fooled So I live a bitter life in truth And curse its powerless God 04. The Great Juggler
Desperate to be admired
But in the eyes of others, another clown Spending and spoiling his energy Forever lost in reverie Joined the circus at seventeen For many years, lived his dream But on the outside where time passes by The circus performer is still a child "Look at me now, using torches of fire Look! Higher than anyone else I am the great juggler!" But in the end When the circus days are gone Who would dare to depend On some great juggler? Circus performers will be turned down Juggler or not, still a clown Small is his crowd Compared to the outside world Feelings of being left out of it Always grow "Look at me now..." 05. Cold Heart Forged In Hell
Searching everywhere
But always in the wrong places For something Anything to make me whole These open wounds don't seem to heal Something is missing Probably just the love for myself I'm trying to compensate it with yours So I'm just fucking you over There's no way to win this heart of mine Cold heart forged in hell My hell Against my will The more I give the less I have left My body is on fire but my heart is cold Company is just physical Inside I'm alone Take me, I"m all yours, yours and yours! I give it all My affection, my body, my services Exclusively, but just for a while To put it simple: I can be The One, you can only be one No matter how hard I try It's been so long since I cared I've almost forgotten how it feels Cold heart... Inside I'm always alone Someone, please break this heart of stone! 06. I Would Dream Of Blood
Rain falls on my sunny memories
In this trampled heart of mine I feel sick and my knuckles bleed I was sold by the goddess Whom I'd worship and adore But the price was mine to pay Left burning at the stake With hands tied And the battle raging within Whore I worshiped you for long and prayed For a quick death of my heart Before the fire would untie my hands Yet at the same time For long, I would dream of blood And that the blood on my knuckles Next time, would not be my own 07. Disobedience Pays
Manacled into submission
You've let go of control The rules are mine in this game of ours Face down, don't look at me! All you feel is my smell And the steel impossible to wear out I'm your god, your heaven and hell Know me, your master Learn my rules by trial and error What is accepted And for what you will be corrected Disobedience pays Now submit to my will! I am mercy, I am pain Your sovereign, your carer and cane Let go of all your guilt I forgive you, my slave The sound of your cured defiance Liberates the both of us Know me... Lessons in obedience Cures your unbridled behavior Disobedience pays A moment of absolute power Stuns my feelings of insufficiency 08. Children's Laughter
[Instrumental]
09. Renunciation
What was meant to sleep
Is now awakening In a second you crush All that I've tried to rebuild Insult to injury, time and time again You play to the gallery As you act the victim Self-righteous, self-appointed Yes I believe That you believe you're God So let those without sin Be the first ones to be crucified Then let it be known That you're the one to pity Instead of those who died So hear my renunciation of faith Through all my life I have crawled on a leash Never to follow my heart Or become what I was born to be A scornful smile When I found my own way home Forever criticized When I failed to achieve your goals Always too sure of my ground But am I not The very image of my God? Never again shall I drop to my knees My God owes me an apology So let those without sin... Yes, let it be known! That you're the one to pity Instead of those who died! 10. The Conductor's Departure
Drawn by a sad melody
I enter this old theater I walk through corridors But for the music all is still I reckon I'm late for the show Strange to say there is no crowd But enchanted by the sound I start to walk down one of two aisles But as I reach the stage I find the orchestra motionless Like frozen in their play All covered up in cobwebs Indicating the time that passed All in their evening attire Beautiful Like an old monochrome photograph Bows lie still on violins' strings The sound comes no longer From their instruments It's but an echo between these walls And has so been for years Yet ever so strong Their eyes focus in the direction Where the conductor once was stood He'd rule them from the podium And they'd anxiously obey Any gesture he would make No one could in their wildest dreams Imagine that he while he'd conduct Would cast a spell and turn them into Stone, statuesque, proud but sad The conductor departed but left this dirge To accompany their destiny I panic as I realize The podium was nobody else's place But mine Paralyzed by insight I'm viewing my own life All my hopes and dreams All that could have been Turned to stone As I stepped down from my throne |