Spineshank - Self-Destructive Pattern lyrics
Tracks 01. Violent Mood Swings
02. Slavery 03. Smothered 04. Consumed (Obsessive Compulsive) 05. Beginning Of The End 06. Forgotten 07. Self-Destructive Pattern 08. Tear Me Down 09. Stillborn 10. Falls Apart 11. Fallback 12. Dead To Me 01. Violent Mood Swings Music & lyrics by Spineshank
Motherfuck the way you think
You never made sense anyway Building up to tear it down You're co-dependent on apathy By design you fucking sterilize So you desensitize Make it easier to swallow Self-involved You fucking took it all Who's gonna take the fall 'Cause it's never gonna be the same Change! Don't wanna see, don't wanna think Don't wanna speak for yourself Don't wanna see, don't wanna think Don't wanna speak for yourself It's like a fucking disease It's like a fucking disease It's like a fucking disease and it shows It's like a fucking disease It's like a fucking disease It's like a fucking disease and it shows Repetition paves the way All for you to weaken and sedate So contrived and watered down A fucking shadow of what should have been Isolate so you can seperate And fucking terminate To diffuse the situation Force on me a common enemy With no identity Now it's showing your perception too Too! Don't wanna see, don't wanna think Don't wanna speak for yourself Don't wanna see, don't wanna think Don't wanna speak for yourself It's like a fucking disease It's like a fucking disease It's like a fucking disease and it shows It's like a fucking disease It's like a fucking disease It's like a fucking disease and it shows Go! You will never see You will never see You will never see You will never see Don't want to see Don't want to see and it shows Don't want to think Don't want to think and it shows Don't want to speak (It's like a fucking disease and it shows) Don't want to speak and it shows Don't want to speak (It's like a fucking disease and it shows) Don't want to speak and it shows Don't wanna see, don't wanna think Don't wanna speak for yourself Don't wanna see, don't wanna think Don't wanna speak for yourself It's like a fucking disease It's like a fucking disease It's like a fucking disease and it shows It's like a fucking disease It's like a fucking disease It's like a fucking disease and it shows It's like a fucking disease It's like a fucking disease It's like a fucking disease and it shows (It shows) It's like a fucking disease It's like a fucking disease It's like a fucking disease and it shows (It shows) It's like a fucking disease It's like a fucking disease It's like a fucking disease and it shows (It shows) It's like a fucking disease It's like a fucking disease It's like a fucking disease and it shows (It shows) 02. Slavery Music & lyrics by Spineshank
I've given up everything
'Till it seems so fucking wrong I've always been tied to you Now the bond is fucking gone You're just a victim (Of) Your own decisions (And) Your desperation (Is) Like watching an accident I reject The way you need To hurt yourself To get to me I will break Away from you My regret Is knowing you You've thrown away everything And I hope you sympathize Its kinda like slavery To a world of fucking lies You're not the victim (Of) Your own addictions (And) Your desperation (Now) You won't get my sympathy I reject The way you need Hurt yourself To get to me I will break Away from you My regret Is knowing you This...Feels like slavery This...Ends it all This...Feels like slavery This...Ends it all I reject The way you need To hurt yourself To get to me I will break Away from you My regret Is knowing you This...Feels like slavery This...Ends it all This...Feels like slavery This...Ends it all This...Feels like slavery This...Ends it all 03. Smothered Music & lyrics by Spineshank
The black and cold reminds me
Of all the distance we have crossed And if your darkness finds me I could never be more lost But I'm not the one who seeks your protection I'm not the one to share the disguise And I'm not the one who reeks of rejection I'm not the one to tear the same way twice You push from the inside, smothered You push from the inside out, smothered You push from the inside, smothered You push from the inside out Here all your walls surround me They're closing in, they block my sight The violence around me Found me when I could not fight But I'm not the one to take your direction I'm not the one who wears the disguise And I'm not the one to share your reflection I'm not the one you break the same way twice You push from the inside, smothered You push from the inside out, smothered You push from the inside, smothered You push from the inside out I will never win I will never win with you I will never win I will never win with you I read you I feel you Wound up no more than you know I hate you I still do Everytime you let me go You push from the inside, smothered You push from the inside out, smothered You push from the inside, smothered You push from the inside out (I will never win) You push from the inside (I will never win with you) You push from the inside (I will never win) You push from the inside (I will never win with you) You push from the inside Smothered, I'm smothered... 04. Consumed (Obsessive Compulsive) Music & lyrics by Spineshank
Punctured lungs
I'm out of breath This time I'm suffocating I've had enough now Too numb, there's no resisting Becoming one with all your failure No coming back now This bridge has been burned Try to cut the chord, tear away Or I will never be the same Trust, breaks my bone, violence show Reject and throw it all away Consume the fight in me Suspend reality If it stops the room from spinning Repressed identity Escape reality You killed the cause This keeps repeating Live through the loss now Redeem your enemies Recycled thoughts Feed your delusion Your lie outgrows you Becomes it's own truth Still it seems so wrong, the way you think And I will never understand Faith, broke like bone, weakness shown You lost it and threw it all away Consume the fight in me Suspend reality If it stops the room from spinning Repressed identity Escape reality If it stops the room from spinning Puncture my lungs Puncture my lungs Punctured lungs I've never felt your emptiness It makes me sick now Obsessive with your reason Compulsive with your failure Try to cut the chord, tear away Or I will never be the same Trust, breaks my bone, violence show Reject and throw it all away Consume the fight in me Suspend reality If it stops the room from spinning Repressed identity Escape reality If it stops the room from spinning Consume the fight in me Suspend reality If it stops the room from spinning How could you live with yourself? How could you live with yourself? How could you live like yourself? How could you live like yourself? 05. Beginning Of The End Music & lyrics by Spineshank
The irritation we're pretending not to show
Has replaced the motivation that I had not long ago I know that I, I don't ever wanna be the one to make you forget it I, I don't ever wanna be the one to make you resent it I, I don't ever wanna be the one to make you repress it I, I don't ever wanna be, ever wanna be, ever wanna be It's the beginning of the end and I Don't know where we lost control It's the beginning of the end and I Know that I am all alone Interrogation has replaced the trust we had Your misguided accusations helping me to turn my back I know that I, I don't ever wanna be the one to make you divide it I, I don't ever wanna be the one to make you deny it I, I don't ever wanna be the one to make you deprive it I, I don't ever wanna be never wanna be never wanna be It's the beginning of the end and I Don't know where we lost control It's the beginning of the end and I Know that I am all alone I thought that we would find our way I thought our life would be okay I thought that you believed in me But now it seems so far away The life we knew before is gone There is no compromising The life you save will be your own To find your inner senses To find your inner senses To find your inner senses It's the beginning of the end and I Don't know where we lost control It's the beginning of the end and I Know that I am all alone It's the beginning of the end and I Don't know where we lost control It's the beginning of the end and I Know that I am all alone... 06. Forgotten Music & lyrics by Spineshank
You're the one who, you're the one who steals, the life from.
I'm the one who feels, the fallen. I believe you're nothing but a problem. Everything is so vague. You're just a mother fuckin' sight to see and time will block the vision. Life with you is so vague, it's like I'm living in a dream. Chorus: I have wondered why this always happens. Everything just falls away. Soon you'll be the one who is forgotten. It's so close, but it's so far away. You're the one who. You're the disbelief. I watch you. Thought you could achieve, or try to. Once I thought this life was never ending. Must have been my mistake. You're just a mother fucking accidental venting and abusing. I should've known that you and your intentions were for bad Chorus: I have wondered why this always happens. Everything just falls away. Soon you'll be the one who is forgotten. It's so close, but it's so far away. You're the one who fed the violence. I'm the one who broke the silence. I will sew the whole you left inside me. Leaving you in the past, I will relieve. Chorus x2: I have wondered why this always happens. Everything just falls away. Soon you'll be the one who is forgotten. It's so close, but it's so far away. It's so close but it's so far away. 07. Self-Destructive Pattern Music & lyrics by Spineshank
Feel the tension of rejection
Bleach it out with the therapy The confusion and seclusion Turns it into my deformity Never trusted it, Maladjusted I've become my own worst enemy The aggravation in my fixation Keeps it all controlled inside of me See it all collapsing it's all around me This condition is killing me The isolation still surrounds me In remission but it's killing me (I) It's what I can't control (Can't) What I can't control (Con) What I can't control (Trol) In me Born again I feel so hollow Torn again My senses fade (Fade) Mourn again Without the sorrow Born again Without the blame (Blame) Force a new solution it's all inside me In remission but it's killing me Evolution is divided In remission but it's killing me (I) It's what I can't control (Can't) What I can't control (Con) What I can't control (Trol) In me Born again I feel so hollow Torn again My senses fade (Fade) Mourn again Without the sorrow Born again Without the blame (Blame) I can't increase the treatment It won't suppress the feelings Or stop the way I'm getting used to the pain I can't increase the treatment It won't suppress the feelings Or stop the way I'm getting used to the pain Breaking down Self-destructive pattern Breaking down Self-destructive pattern (I) It's what I can't control (Can't) What I can't control (Con) What I can't control (Trol) In me Born again I feel so hollow Torn again My senses fade Mourn again Without the sorrow Born again Without the blame... 08. Tear Me Down Music & lyrics by Spineshank
You wear a cheap disguise
Your only vice until the end Don't have an alibi You never try You just condemn You pressure everything You never bring You take away I can no longer breathe You've taken me and everything too (Far) To me it's so disgusting (Wrong) I push myself away (Far) My sanity is rusting (Wrong) I look the other way This is a war I can't fight I can't let you tear me down I will ignore all these lies You will never tear me down I sit and contemplate How you sedate what's in my head I will not instigate or emulate I won't pretend You'll never understand You just demand to get your way How all of this began I never ran, and now it's gone too (Far) To me it's so disgusting (Wrong) I push myself away (Far?) My sanity is rusting (Wrong) I look the other way This is a war I can't fight I can't let you tear me down I will ignore all these lies You will never tear me down This is a war I can't fight I can't let you tear me down I will ignore all these lies You will never tear me down Never tear me down Never tear me This is a war I can't fight I can't let you tear me down I will ignore all these lies You will never tear me down This is a war I can't fight I can't let you tear me down I will ignore all these lies You will never tear me down This is a war I can't fight I can't let you tear me down I will ignore all these lies You will never tear me down Never tear me Never tear me down Never tear me Never tear me down 09. Stillborn Music & lyrics by Spineshank
Stillborn!
I don't think you want to be the one to see inside yourself I don't think you want to understand that it clouds up your mind I don't think you want to undermine I don't think you want the bottom line I don't think you wanna see inside this God that you've created (No) You don't even listen You don't even hear me till I scream at you (Now) I see your intention A new intervention just to wear me down (Breed) Selected division You're on a collision course with your beliefs (Find) A new evolution Your full of solutions now that you're born again Reborn Like a mother fucking Stillborn All devoid of feeling Reborn Like a mother fucking Stillborn All devoid of feeling I don't think you'll ever be the one to take the blame yourself I don't think you'd even want to try to see through different eyes I don't think you want to sacrifice I don't think you want to fucking try I don't think you wanna step outside this lie that's been imbedded (Think) It's all a delvusion Relieve your confusion when you put me down (Fear) Afraid to accept it You only defend it 'cause it's handed down (Faith) It's all on the surface It's only convienient when you follow through (No) I'm not not gonna give in You're already beaten when your born again Reborn Like a mother fucking Stillborn All devoid of feeling Reborn Like a mother fucking Stillborn All devoid of feeling Stillborn! It's time to make the cut And let you bleed for yourself on your own Of all the things I need Is just for you to stop from judging me Sick! So get the fuck away from me You make me Sick! So stay the fuck away from me Away from me Reborn Like a mother fucking Stillborn All devoid of feeling Reborn Like a mother fucking Stillborn All devoid of feeling Reborn Like a mother fucking Stillborn All devoid of feeling Reborn Like a mother fucking Stillborn All devoid of feeling... 10. Falls Apart Music & lyrics by Spineshank
Now your failure feeds the contempt
Now your failure feeds the contempt I can't sedate the way you bring me down I can't relieve the pain I can't reduce the failure you've become I can't accept the blame Now Now your failure feeds the contempt You imitate The things you think That isolate what I want I can't get through It's never you It's showing through and it's wrong You pushed me too far And I'm tired now It all falls apart Now I'm finally down I hate the way you turn this all around So you can bleach your shame Apology is not an option now It won't erase the blame Now Now your failure feeds the contempt It's nothing new I'll suffer through It's all in you and you're wrong I compensate You mutilate It separates and we're done You pushed me too far And I'm tired now It all falls apart Now I'm finally down You pushed me too far (Pushing me, pushing me) And I'm tired now (Pushing me too far) It all falls apart (Pushing me, pushing me) Now I'm finally down (Pushing me too far) (Far) I can't sedate the way you're breaking me You're breaking me down (Too far) I can't sedate the way you're breaking me You're breaking me down (Pushed me) I can't sedate the way you're breaking me You're breaking me down (Too far) I can't sedate the way you're breaking me You're breaking me down Now your failure feeds the contempt You pushed me too far And I'm tired now It all falls apart Now I'm finally down You pushed me too far (Pushing me, pushing me) And I'm tired now (Pushing me too far) It all falls apart (Pushing me, pushing me) Now I'm finally down (Pushing me too far) 11. Fallback Music & lyrics by Spineshank
Give me life, give me faith, give me something to see
Give me life, give me change, give me somwhere to be Give me love, give me hate, tell me what to believe I don't care who you're imitating You think the World's beginning In truth it's really ending My disillusioned mind is wasted away Until I break Until I bend Until I fall back on my faith again Until my World is caving in Until I fall back on my faith again Keep me dumb, keep me small, keep me closer to you Keep me still, keep it all, keep away from the truth Keep me here, keep me cool 'cause it's already done Everything is so intimidating You are the one reflection Created false rejection I let you in and now you won't go away Until I break Until I bend Until I fall back on my faith again Until my World is caving in Until I fall back on my faith again I think the end is closer now (I think the end is closer now) You took the life inside me now (You took the life inside me now) Is the way you're checking out? (Oh, yeah) You are the one who's running now (You are the one who's) Running now (You are the one who's) Running now (You are the one who's) Running now You are the one reflection Created false rejection I let you in and now you won't go away Until I break Until I bend Until I fall back on my faith again Until my World is caving in Until I fall back on my faith again Until I break Until I break Until I break Until I break Until I break 12. Dead To Me Music & lyrics by Spineshank
Put on another face
They always take the place Of all the things that you have become Your incivility is nothing new to me It's always something that made you what you (Are) You're dead inside (Dead) You killed your pride (Kill) I won't believe (Me) And no one cares (Please) Your insecurity (Just) The failure that it breeds (Kill) And all your misery (Me) Is coming back to me Save yourself the pain And go away For the rest of my life Bury you today I separate For the rest of my life Life! You give me countless light And hope I simplify You hit my only nerve And that is all it took Separate from you Let it go, you let it go Evolution Thrown away, you're thrown away, you're gone (Please) I'm done with you (Just) Don't follow through (Kill) I won't be mad (Me) Cause you don't care (Please) The way you're suffering (Just) It's all the same to me (Kill) Degradability (Me) You carry all the time Save yourself the pain And go away For the rest of my life Bury you today I separate For the rest of my life Rest of my life! Rest of my life! Rest of my life! Your dillusion Claim confusion Easier to pass the blame on All your hatred Seemed so wasted You're the one who's dead inside me You're fucking dead to me You're fucking dead to me You're fucking dead to me You're fucking dead to me You're fucking dead to me You're fucking dead to me You're fucking dead to me You're fucking dead You're fucking dead to me You're fucking dead to me You're fucking dead to me You're fucking You're fucking dead! |