A struggle with death's embrace
Blood is covering my face again
Thick swollen lips try to ask why
Why I had never...

Long forgotten memories
I am drowned in it
The search for love led me
Through paths of abuse and hate
I'm counting

The seconds till the end
I spit out what's left inside of me
Thick swollen lips try to ask why
Why I had never...

Disguise the truth - wordlessness
But this trauma won't fade
Painful enigma follows me
Maybe I could have been
Someone

The silence before the pain
And all endeavours in vain
Thick swollen lips try to ask why
Why I had never...

A struggle with death's embrace
Blood is covering my face again
Thick swollen lips try to ask why
Why I had never...

Treat me like a doll
Defenceless and weak
I fullfill your wildest dreams

Forever I shall be the victim
Of your sickness
Torment and pain are guiding me
To desperateness
Showing no mercy at all
You destroy me
Everything you took of me
For eternity
Endlessly
You strangle me

I am on my knees now
Why father,
How can you treat me like this?
You make me feel like
I'm absolutely worthless
Endlessly
You strangle me

I'm locked up in this unholy room

Floating in spheres of menacing silence
Suffocation and mental pain are equal
Surrounded by transparent bodies which infiltrates into me

I can't control my movements, my soul is trapped
In this body, wake me up!
The subconscious is shouting at me all the time
"Face this issue or you'll die!"

Shadows of trees are covering my naked skin
The moonlight discloses a carefully guarded secret
Uncovered gashes

So many years had past but still I am struggling
Deep black colours devours my fragility
Skewed faces of people I used to love turn into faces of demons

I can't control my movements, my soul is trapped
In this body, wake me up!
The subconscious is shouting at me all the time
"Face this issue or you'll die!"

I can't control my movements, my soul is trapped
In this body, wake me up!
The subconscious is shouting at me all the time
"Let this end... let me finally die!"

Diagnosis has been verified...

Patient is not certifiably sane.
...Starting recreation process...

Softly
All of what you have ever been through
Will be erased by languidness
Why should someone hesitate
To give all his mind for salvation
They will refuse
To get a picture of my woes
Healthy but braindead I shall rest forever...
Would rather die
Then paying for
All the things I've never done
In the end there must be a way

Abrupt
All of what you have been aware of
Will come back to you as your distress
Why should someone hesitate
To give all his mind for sedation
When
All of what you have ever been through
Will be erased by languidness
Why should someone hesitate
To give all his mind for salvation
I'm getting weak
All the militancy is gone
Lust for convenience is absorbing me
I'm getting tired
Of what I
Have ever been
I'll live my life in vain
And turn away
Of all my odds

Abrupt
All of what you have been aware of
Will come back to you as your distress
Why should someone hesitate
To give all his mind for sedation
When
All of what you have ever been through
Will be erased by languidness
Why should some hesitate
To give all his mind for salvation
They will refuse
To get a picture of my woes
Healthy but braindead I shall rest forever...
Would rather die
Then paying for
All the things I've never done
In the end I will see a light

We
All have to reach
A certain point of hopelessness
To recognize how deeply we are lost
We'll have to change
Our selves
To break the chains of selfishness
In the end we are all strong enough
We
All have to keep
Our deepest consciousness
To not forget how independent we can be
Don't let your self
Be controlled for eternity
'Cause in the end we are all wise enough
To come through

Withering and as ugly as sin
What's right or wrong
Who am I to tell?

This dreadful sight
This atrophied body
It is me, lying on the ground

Needless flowers of speech
I cannot endure this shape
Needless flowers of speech
But they can't see inside of me

My own mind...
My mind is my prison
I have lost touch with reality

Mental breakdown: the insight, then the fall
And now deadness is ubiquitous

They dissect me without understanding
...Only a disease
Not a human being

Needless flowers of speech
I cannot endure this shape
Needless flowers of speech
But they can't see inside of me

My own mind...
My mind is my prison
I have lost touch with reality

I can resist my inner demons
I drown in the sea of forgiveness
But somehow I die with thirst

My own mind...
My mind is my prison
I have lost touch with reality

My own mind...
My mind is my prison
I have lost touch with reality

My heart seems to burst
But my thoughts are clear and free
I need to get away from this cursed place
I want to live my own life
They will not lock me in, anymore
My hate assists the buildup of adrenine

They will not trap me
It's my descision to be free
They will not trap me
...Can't pull me down on my knees

Let me breathe... even if I could fail
Don't I deserve a chance for a normal life?
They tried to infiltrate me
To detect my deepest thoughts
I'll escape from this prison called insane asylum

They will not trap me
It's my descision to be free
They will not trap me
...Can't pull me down on my knees

Now I understand why I had to suffer
A preparation of what will come
I solved the enigma of life
And will lead them the way to aeon

I survived the ordeal
My burden shall be my strength
Flowing tears turn into ice
While I rise from the dust

Now I understand why I had to suffer
A preparation of what will come
I solved the enigma of life
And will lead them the way to aeon
I will resist the temptation
I will fullfill every demand

You'll find out what's left inside
...Of this soul
Don't forget who you are
Who you were
...So atrophied now

Now I understand why I had to suffer
A preparation of what will come
I solved the enigma of life
And will lead them the way to aeon
I will resist the temptation
I will fullfill every demand

The resurrected one:
Believe in the strength you have
And you're rid of this burden!

The fallen one:
I am the sovereign of the legions
I will make you crawl!
I was born with intent to destroy and none will come through

The resurrected one:
Get free of this wrecking force!
The path of love will lead you

The fallen one:
I laugh myself to death
God is so weak and powerless!
Where is he now? I spit on the grave of his son!

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Trapped in a downward spiral
Birth, death and decay

My core seems to break
I'm far from hope

I have reached the point of no return
My head seems to explode

These voices shall become silent...
I can't endure this anymore

My face is covered by
A mask that shows no failing
But my will is broken
The blossom has decayed

A last time I...
A last time I have to endure this pain

Pure beauty can only exist
In realtion to decease

Tears running down the face
While I stare into darkness
Possessed by the idea
To die a last time

A last time I close my eyes
A last time I have to feel this pain
I let myself fall...

Pictures of my life passing by
The spirit disunites with it's body

Finally my odyssey
Has been ceased and I am free
Now it is my time to rise
And to seek revenge
Never should I
Have suffered because of you
I'll come back and punish you
Now it is my time to rise
And to seek revenge

The time has come.
May the weak rise from the ground,
To bring a change that no one could've expected.
You were reborn and sent back to the place you came from.
Starched by the strength of anger
You shall live you life again,
Without showing a whiff of mercy.
You have been elected to reveille justice,
By abolishing the ones who are negating it.
Go, accomplish you quest.
It is your destiny.
Complete the ellipse!

I will turn
The tables on to you
At last there will be a new dawn
And I will fight
For all unwelcome ones
No one will escape the justice
I will turn
The tables on to you
At last
There will be a new dawn
And I will fight
For all unwelcome ones
No one
Will escape this justice

It's my intention to find what I
Have made wrong and have denied
All of what I have become
Nothing happens uncertainly
I want to free myself
Of everything predetermined
Now I know death's not the end
Still I pray for an unpredictable life

Finish what has been consigned to you.
It is the price for a new life.
If you fail, endless suffer will be your retribution.

I will turn
The tables on to you
At last there will be a new dawn
And I will fight
For all unwelcome ones
No one will escape the justice
I will turn
The tables on to you
At last
There will be a new dawn
And I will fight
For all unwelcome ones
No one
Will escape the justice

I don't want to bear this quest
I don't think I'll pass the test
How can I judge someone else
For what he has done
Not on purpose
I want to lose the thoughts
Of my previous life again
How can it ever stop
If not even death can bring it to an end...

You abandoned your chance of freedom.