I forged a door of shattered smiles
My fingers pierced by splinters of love past
Where there's a door there must be a key
That lets me creep outside these clouds at last

I am the skin, I am the scar
The fleshy tapestry draped upon the walls
Of my dreams, a sphere of stitches
Barely containing all the storms I bear within

I hold my breath, plunge into my dreams
A faceless figure sandblasted with rust
Here I'm unborn, here I am safe
Yet to be made a lump of tears and dust

A thread of metal in my hand
So strangely warm, caught in a grip so cold
Is this salvation? Is this the long awaited end
Of all my torments? Is this a key that I hold?

I stormed outside my hungry eyes
Were opened wider than a gashing wound
And I was blinded yet not by light
But by a shroud of darkness misery and gloom

Wherever I may briefly glance
I find my kin bound in trance...
Lily crowns on dissembler heads...
And souls that hide black dreads.

I preached like I'd never preach again,
As a dying man amongst dying men:
Only the actions of the just
Smell sweet and blossom in the dust!

Deprive a man of his rank and pride
Keep only the sorrow in his heart
You will find a new summit of despair
As he struggles, hopelessly, on and on....

It is now the twilight of my dreams,
Onward towards an eclipse it seems,
The hope of day is gone and far,
I fall from the sky like the Morning Star.

As I speak, the deepest chambers of my heart
Are flooded with an agony which
Not only consumes, but drives me
To seek a land beyond, the limitations of slumber...

I've met death in the eyes of men
And in the whispering leaves,
But nowhere near as often than
In the silence of the heart.

Will the storms ever stop?
It feels as all the forces are against me
Constantly torn between despair and calm
The struggle stretches ever long
Left only with anguish to numb pain
Abandoned in life with a shrieking sorrow
Being deprived of happiness so many years
Can bring even the giants to their knees

The dawn is drowning in foreboding omens

Trapped behind the Sun
My grandeur mocked by solitude
Struggling bereaved of all joy
Dreaming of an impossible chance

I suffocate yet I live
And can't get rid of this curse because
In this prison of aspirations
My hands are tied by hope

The knell of my forsaken dreams
Screeches through fallen sand
Deep underneath serene streams
Where decomposed wishes stand

I feel the pain from my world
Crushing my soul in its grip
How pathetic have we become
Lost in dead poets' words

Curse this rotten pendulum of doubt!
How can I strive through this life
Aware that my only remaining trust
Is knowing that I shall find hope?

Just a tiny speck of dust
In a desert of nothingness
No purpose behind the struggle
For we're all mirrors of flesh

What if death is my escape to infinity
What if, cleansed of filthy hope, I seize this key
What if i become a shadow or i rot?
Still, my dreams cannot live on when I am not

It is certain that life has no meaning
But we live as if it has one

Love it when you slither down
My neck you numb me and you take me back
When it didn't hurt
Keep my bottle full
Mordant liquor burning yet so wet
I'd let you flow inside till death
Mesmerize me
Clear yet hazy

No waters can drown me
No needles can sew my lips
No fume can cloud me
No being can silence my voice

You can't deny our self
You will never erase me
I am, have always been
And shall always be you

Blindfolded we enthuse in addiction
Lured by deceiving gifts
Into a clouded realm
Of illusionary pleasures

For every moment of joy
A thorn pierces my skin
For every burst of laughter
A chain smothers my neck

Break my heart apart
Tear me into a thousand pieces
Make me your slave
All that it takes to be with you

Rape my soul
Shatter my love again and again
Push me towards insanity
All that it takes to be near you

Bind me up in chains
Yet don't leave me to rot
But come back and spit on me
All that it takes to stay alive

Now burn, my desire
And scorch all my limbs
Asphyxiate me in smoke
Make me yours

Love has always been a lie
You can go ahead and try
But in the end it's all the same
It's just another madman's game

You can't deny our self
You will never erase me
I am, have always been
And shall always be you

Mesmerized we long forever
For the long gone warmth
So we happily throw ourselves
In the arms of whores once more

In these times of calvary
I find reliance behind the distance
That is only a footstep away
From our cursed reunion...

This binding pestilence
Is now my only reliance
All roads seem to lead here
My strength lies writhing in blood

With all the weight of the past
And these dreadful storms upon me
It's the only gleam of light
Inside this empty hole

You may pierce your flesh
But that won't take me out
I am the purging fire
You can't extinguish with blood

You can't deny our self
You will never erase me
I am have always been
And shall always be you

This pale world holds nothing more
Than deceiving icons
Hypnotic and frail it shall remain
Forever a fool's conquest

In absolute grace I swirl
As this epitome of madness seems to persist
Deluded, I wander towards redemption
Only to get lost in malicious tales

From the pit of lies
I rise in wrath
My clenched fists
Bring thunder onto the world
The flesh shall break
Through rusty smiles
And you will all perish
Swallowed by the deluge

I watched it all burn
And as I rewind again
I see no open arms
But a gathering of fists

A nail through your skin
For every lie you've shed
A drop of tar in your eyes
For every stab in the back

Until the day I'll be no more
The gates of my heart shall be shut
A burning wish to see thy kingdom
Erased forever, boiling in bile

Every hero is a coward
Drunk with fear, reckless
Blind with hope, mad
Thrusting towards danger

Through thorns of roses
Your sympathy pushes me down
In trenches marching towards
A meaningless death in lies

Your shriveling, hypocrite smiles
Cannot bring the Sun back to life,
Light has always been a sweet lie
In the endless nightmare that blinds us

Plânge glia de dorul meu
Și vrea să mă cuprindă
Privind la ea acum
Pricep unde mi-e locul

Plânge glia de dorul meu
Și mă roagă disperată
Să ne unim într-unul singur
Pe veci ca altădată

Veștejit-au flori de stele în blestemata furtună,
Putrezit-au mii de stârvuri imprejuru-mi cunună.
Sărutat-m-au mii de vise pe fruntea-mi lividă,
Amăgit-m-au țeluri sure în pustietate aridă.

Ruptă mi-e spada și țip...
Printre buze zăvorâte cu rune.
Orice vis se pierde-n ramuri
De coroană funerară, sugrumat

Și chemarea pământului,
sfarmă amuțirea timpului.
Un vaiet cumplit de dor
...de dorul meu.

Dar iată că s-arată, iar în suflet vijelia,
Și-aud apoi cum plânge după mine aprig glia,
Urlând aspru, sus sub cruce bocetul respingător,
Și lăsând aievea-n urmă cumplit dangăt răsunător.

O viață-ntreagă am fost
Prizonier în moarte vie
Speranța mi-i cușcă
Iar frica mi-i zăvor

Iar acum, când disper,
Un singur lucru mai doresc.
Curmându-mi viața și chinul auster
Poate-n sicriu o să zâmbesc!

Cumplite furtuni mă apasă
Rânjind ironic neîncetat,
Cântecul lor acum se varsă
Peste tabloul meu neterminat.

Zdrențuit și gri s-arată cerul
Sugrumându-mă cu țelul veștejit.
Necrotic mă străpunge violetul
Cu visul meu neîmplinit.

Unde se termină zorii
Mi-e viitorul și locul
Deasupra-mi stau sângerii norii
Și mă copleșește potopul

Tremură pendulul oscilând
Pentru ultima oară
Cheia din pumnul încleștat
În pământ mă coboară

Și așa, alături de mine, întunericul dispare pe veci

Will requiems be sung for me
Or will a bitter silence encompass all?
Will immortality be mine
Or shall I drown inside the void?

The skin i have once lusted for vanished
Right from my grasp
Time has come for the skin I am rotting in
To turn to dust
The lips that I kissed now smear poison
On my sullen face
Time has come for a faithful, silent
And deadly embrace

Dear earth, embrace me!
Caress me with indifference
I do not regret my choice
For there is no reason to cry
When there was none for laughter
Dear earth, embrace me