(No peace, no sleep, without faith there is no leap)

Waters down the slopes of the mountains insomnia and woe
Flow down to sorrow, the lake of your despair
Drift further out on solitude and rinse the soul of the sea

The woebegone feeling outflow the ocean

Soaring over the waters of mount woe
In these dark memories, death abides

The candle of life did never light
The candle of death burned out of sight

I have no amends left to bear
Not for my soul, not for my life, maybe in perdition
The reapers deathtolls are for me to hear
To enter my rightful home I must draw my last breath

Dark is the path enlightened
Bleak is I who wander there not frightened
Every step of anguish gets me nearer to my home
Every heartbeat lacks the beat
And consumes the waters of mount woe

A dim mist
Across my eyes

I shudder
Because I can not see
What is wise
What is wise?

All I breathe is despair
All I seize is air

There is one thing I've known
Since the dawn of my time
No rest
No peace
Is what life has store for me
All I feel and all I hear
Is all but an illusion

It will never go away...
It will never go away

There is one thing I know...
What my life is too much to bear
Without rest
Without peace...
Without peace of mind

Voices call... in my head...
To give my life's delusion
So it's time
To conclude
What was already lost

Whenever I shut a door...
And where ever I shut a door...
A new window appears

In every dark corner I see a door
So when ever I open a window
And where ever I open a window
Another dark corner appears
In every dark corner I feel the vacuum

Mark of now... resurrect
Raft of sighs
Ark of time
It's so near
That my shell withdraws
Mindclouds erroding
Discontent moon and sun
Shores of doubt fade away

"A dark cloud coming over
One bird in the omnicient sky
It falls to the ground
And seizes to exist
A mist sweeps across the world
One presence roaming the ground
It is swallowed by the earth
And seizes to learn"

Dreams of the omniverse
All thoughts are infinite
Patterns in a mental universe
Becomes real, essential and crystal clear

I look in the mirror once
And I realize it's you
A fear is rising up
This can't be true

A glimpse of starlight in my eyes
A shade of hopes to the "Why?"

As I see myself as another
I was afraid, but why bother?

Game of life
Foul things hidden in truth
Words are worthless
Ascend skywards to the heavens

I hate you, I loathe you
Whatever I do, you are there
It is just not good enough for me

Float across the universe
And feel the presence of thoughts

Everything is so real

Throught the window of time
I fell upside down into the vast chapel of a growing dementia

The rose and the thorn turned into a farrago of bewilderness and woe
Fed up with rain but have to claim some more

Redeemer of sorrow seed my melancholy

Under the tree of desolation I hid in the shadows
Grey and distorted the forest seemed to welcome me
Shadows came alive as if assuming my essence
Replacing it with colors of a shady blur
In suffering darkness dwell

Deep inside the woods I found a secret grove as in contrast
To the hidden orchard I found even deeper inside my mind

In thousands of years torn down to one split-second, redemption

Redemption came like a gust of wind with all the right answers and erased all the wrong ones

I heard the knell in the distant

No way to get rid of it
The sick vermin inside
Screeching, gnawing, tearing away

A black spider behind my eyes
Venomous thoughts
Feeding on my despair
Messing with my mind

Feeling far out
In a distinct kind of way
Weird and dark visions
Defying all that is

Can't stand this pain
Certainly hate this weakness
I am out of place on this planet... way out

The Poison: Stumbling around
Enshrouded in pitch black mist
Vermin still gnawing away

The Poison & Me: ...At every cell of my mortal shell

The Poison: "Alas Vermin"
Me: "Tear all down"

The Poison: "Poison"

Me: "Tear them all down"
Where did all those skulls come from?
Staring me down with empty eyes
Must be the pills
Don't want them anymore
Don't want this life anymore

Can't stand this illness
Certainly hate this weakness
I am out of place on this world
Way out

How should I go,
Bullet or blade?
Time to decide
Which path to take
Find my tomb beneath the sea
Dark and deep
Or let the poison fairies
Sing me to sleep

Can't stand this pain
Certainly hate this weakness
I am out of place on this planet
Way out

For once my mind is clear
No way this can't be worse
Than this life