Ahvalen esen Clauneck kiar

Shadows loom above the altar
They have come for me
I have opened up a doorway
That cannot be shut
Uninvited guests now linger
Amongst the living
They crave mortal flesh

Manifesting into creatures
Unknown to this world
Convulsing before my eyes like
Old tattered film
Gloom swirls as they gain composure
Unholy voices
Call upon my name

They call upon me
"Whore, come forth"
They call upon me
"Whore, come forth"
They call upon me
"Whore, come forth"
They call upon me
"Whore, come forth"

I have opened a door that cannot be shut
My ignorance will bring forth my own suffering

Violet light fills the room as
Hopelessness spirals from the void
They enter into my sanctuary
God no longer looks upon me
Violet light fills the room as
Hopelessness spirals from the void
They enter into my sanctuary
God no longer looks upon me

He forsakes me

They call out my name
My punishment awaits me
They call out my name
My punishment awaits me

Awaiting sadistic torture
I glance over to the corner
Shadows form an apparition
I utter prayers of contrition

Horns then emerge from the black smoke
Fumes from hells mouth cause me to choke
Suffocating in his presence
Crippled by demonic essence

A heaviness fills the air
I can feel God's presence fade away

I have fallen from grace
God has abandoned me
I am left here to suffer
I call out his name
And listen for his voice
But all I hear is the devil
Screeching and screeching
And screeching and screeching
Screeching and screeching
And screeching and screeching
Screeching and screeching
And screeching and screeching

I can feel them swarm
All around me
I feel their presence
As they latch onto my soul
Gripping so damn tight
Hands like vises
Mark and bruise my skin
They subdue me

Fury in their eyes
All they want is
To make me suffer
Before they hijack my flesh
As they smother me
Against the wall
I watch them smile
Sadistically

They smile with
Teeth like nails
They smile with
Teeth like nails

Teeth like nails
Pierce my flesh

They start to tease me with
Mouthfuls of dirty needles pricking at my skin
They instill fear in me
Poking at the surface before they sink their teeth in

At that moment
The room went black
I cried for God
But he spat in my fucking face
There's no escaping this hell

God
Where the fuck are you now?
God
Where are you?
God
Where the fuck are you now?
God
Where are you?
God
Where the fuck are you now?
God
Where are you?
God
Where are you?

Teeth like nails
Pierce my flesh

As their teeth
Puncture through my skin
Evil stains
God's holiness within
They inject their venom
Like vile godless snakes
I can feel it trickle through my veins
Black and cold
Yet it stings like broken glass
Scraping underneath my skin

Teeth like nails
Pierce my flesh
Injecting me with evil
Teeth like nails
Pierce my flesh
Injecting me with evil

They indwell in me
They indwell in me
They indwell in me
They indwell in me

I can feel the darkness
Trickle through my veins
Their teeth still latched into my flesh
Jet black venom dripping from their jagged fangs
Paralyzed, I'm no longer in control
They now indwell in me

Cursed by fate
My salvation defiled
Aspirate
Gagging on spit and bile
They own me
I'll never be set free
Legions now
Indwell in me

Whispers swirl around the room
A frigid breath of sorrow sends shivers down my spine
Now I lay helpless in the gloom
An entity inside my head says "you are now mine"

They indwell in me
They indwell in me
They indwell in me
They indwell in me

Like a marionette
They gain control of me
My limbs suspended into space
My head filled with suicidal fantasies
All they want is for my spirit to fade
And leave a hollow vessel

They want me
To suffer endlessly
Pray for death
It won't come easily
They won't let me
Escape this misery
Evil now
Indwells in me

They indwell in me
They indwell in me
They indwell in me
They indwell in me

I bare the mark of the unholy
I now crave death and the blood of Christ
Legions now
Indwell in my soul
Legions now
Indwell in my soul

I shudder at the sights
I am seeing
Demons and entities
Dwell in my being
The walls they melt like
Wax from a candle
Suffering beyond what
I can handle

They reach out and dim the
Halo from my head
Finger on the trigger
I squeeze and paint it red
I try to put an end
To the suffering
Gunshots fired in vain

Crimson halo

They shove my brains
Back in my head
They keep me alive
Just so that I can
Kill myself all over again
They scream from within

"I'll show you the furthest thing from God you fucking bitch!
I'll show you the furthest thing from God
There is no love in my sanctuary."

I am possessed from within
There are legions
Pulsating through every vein murderously
Unholy ghosts crucify every pure thought
Left in my head
I am powerless

Burning from within
My blood begins
To boil like a lake of fire
Under my skin

Burning from within
My blood begins
To boil like a lake of fire
Under my skin

The furnace boils quart by quart
Spewing scalding blood
Scalding blood through a brimstone heart

Please save me from this suffering
Please make it stop!
Please make it stop!
Please make it stop!
I can feel them in my blood
Please save me from this suffering
Please make it stop!
Please make it stop!
Please make it stop!
I can feel them in my blood

Evil spirits have arrived
They have slipped through the cracks
Of the eternal divide
They seek to occupy a living host
Usurp the throne of the Holy Ghost

At the moment when the clock stuck three
I could feel the demons start to stir inside of me
My blood would boil with the heat of 1000 suns
I could smell the stench of sulfur when I filled my lungs

In a moment of silence
The spirits speak to me
I hear a cacophony of devilish taunt
They say there's only one escape?
"Slit your wrists! Bleed the demons out!"
"Slit your wrists! Bleed the demons out!"
"Slit your wrists! Bleed the demons out!"
"Slit your wrists! Bleed the demons out!"

Spiral
Spiral
Spiral

I can't wallow any longer
My pain only makes them stronger
They say the only escape is severing the vein
I drag the razor down my wrist
My life bleeds down the drain

I bleed out until I turn grey
I crave for my flesh to decay
I try to eject my soul so I can drift away
They drag me further down the pit
I'm fucking here to stay

Endless suffering

I am suffering
Downward spiraling
I am suffering
Downward spiraling

Spiral
Spiral
Spiral

I can't get them out of my head
I thought by now that I'd be dead
They keep my spirit alive so I can suffer more
They are the masters of torment
And I'm the fucking whore

Losing sanity
My grasp on existence is flawed
I bleed until there's nothing left
Just like the son of God
I try to drain the demons
From my flesh as I was told
I just spiral down
Until I'm grey and cold

I am suffering
Downward spiraling
I am suffering
Downward spiraling
Purging out my veins
Spiral down the drain
Scarlett drops of rain
Lacerate in vain

My mind slowly drifts into exile
Surrounded by nothingness
A desolate plain of nihil
Down down
I spiral down into the void
My soul resides in darkness
Salvation destroyed

Still before the mirror with dismay
I watch my reflection fade away

I can't even recognize the face
That's staring back at me
Ashen skin and lifeless eyes replace
The man I used to be

I've become a sepulcher of hate
Tainted flesh denied at heaven's gate

I can't even recognize the face
That's staring back at me
Ashen skin and lifeless eyes replace
The man I used to be

Father God
Why have you forsaken me?

In the mirror they stare back at me
Break the glass and set my spirit free
In the mirror they stare back at me
Break the glass and set my spirit free

I can't even recognize the face
That's staring back at me
Ashen skin and lifeless eyes replace
The man I used to be

Father God
Why have you forsaken me?

In the mirror they stare back at me
In the mirror they stare back at me
In the mirror they stare back at me
In the mirror they stare back at me

Get the fuck out of my body
I'll set myself on fire
Set myself on fire
Set myself on fire
In an attempt to evict

As I drown in tenebrosity
I can feel them feed off
Every breath of air I breathe
By their chains I'm forever bound
But they can't dwell in my temple
If it's burned to the ground

As I inhale the fumes
The stench of gasoline
Then fills up the room
Forbidden wine
I force myself to fucking swallow it down
Gagging, I just want to burn from the inside out
I'll strike the match

Get the fuck out of my body
I'll set myself on fire
Set myself on fire
Set myself on fire
God damn you all straight to hell

Vermilion is all that I can see
Drowning in the matches glow
As it starts flickering
My skin blisters like a putrid rust
I can feel spirits stir
As I combust

Gag on the stench
Burning flesh
I reduce myself to ash
Gag on the stench
Burning flesh
I reduce myself to ash

If I go I'm taking you with me
Motherfucker
If I go I'm taking you with me
Fuck you!
If I go I'm taking you with me
Motherfucker
If I go I'm taking you with me
Motherfucker, fuck you!

Get the fuck out of my body
I'll set myself on fire
Set myself on fire
Set myself on fire
God damn you all straight to hell

Set myself on fire
Set myself on fire
Set myself on fire

I try to sever the ties
But they keep me alive
They won't let me die
They scream at me
"You've fabricated this hell
Your misery is our eternal pleasure
We'll never stop"

Lay in bed wide awake
I can't bear the weight
Swallow pill after pill
Try to medicate
Just give me two fucking seconds
Without suffering
Just let me die and fade away
It sounds so comforting

Just let me die and fade away

My bed begins to
Rattle and pulsate
As I start sinking
Down and down
My mattress becomes
A hissing pool of snakes
They smother my face
And bind my extremities
Constrict and coil
Tightly around my neck

I feel them pull me under
Into a serpentine abyss

They slither down my fucking throat
My vision fading as I choke

I feel them
Pull me under
Suffocate
Cursed to suffer
Fuck this shit
Kill me faster
Misery
Is my master

My bed begins to
Rattle and pulsate
As I start sinking
Down and down
My mattress becomes
A hissing pool of snakes
They smother my face
And bind my extremities
Constrict and coil
Tightly around my neck

Hissing as they coil
I bend and I contort
I can feel the bones grind
Fuck this
Fangs like heroin needles
Vipers snap at my flesh


Fuck this shit
Kill me faster
Fuck this shit
Kill me faster

Sever the head
Of the vile serpent
Escape the grasp
Of these filthy vermin

Broken glass
Pressed against the skin
Rip the flesh
Saw beneath the chin

I slit my throat

Sever
Sever
Sever
Sever the serpent
Sever
Sever
Sever
Sever the serpent

I must sever the ties
Between me and this fucking hell

Sever
Sever
Sever
Sever the serpent

They won't let me die
I'm a slave to hell
Chained to torment
Born to suffer forever
There is no death here
Only misery and defilement
For eternity

Every suicide attempt
Becomes a running joke
They bring me back to this hell
I feel all the pain
With no benefit of an escape
They keep me alive

There is no death
Only an eternity of suffering
I'm a slave to hell
And they want me to suffer
For their pleasure
There is no death
Only an eternity of suffering
I'm a slave to hell
And they want me to suffer
For their pleasure

They won't let me die
They won't let me die
They won't let me die
They won't let me die

It doesn't matter
How fucking hard I try
Every single drop
Of blood is shed in vain
You can take my body
Just let my fucking spirit fade
And separate my consciousness
From my physical being
Just let me fucking die!

Please let me fucking die
I just want this
Suffering to end
Please let me fucking die
I just want this
Suffering to end

Please let this pass from me
I surrender myself
I offer my flesh in propitiation
I place myself upon the altar
I invite them

Let my spirit flee
From my body
Flesh surrendered
To the ungodly

Please let me die
I can't live
In this fucking hell
Anymore
Please let me die
I can't live
In this fucking hell
Anymore

Let me die today
All the colors in my world
Have molted into grey
I will let you stay
Cut my soul out from the flesh
And let me fade away

Breathe in for me
Replay memories
Embrace my ending
Exhale the pain
No sorrow remains
I take my last breath

I escape the pain
Every drop of blood I've shed
Will cleanse my soul like rain
Let it wash away
All the filth that's stained my soul
And left me hell to pay

Breathe in for me
Replay memories
Embrace my ending
Exhale the pain
No sorrow remains
I take my last breath

I will let you stay
Just take the pain away
I surrender myself
Just save me from this fucking hell

In the mirror they stare back at me
Break the glass and set my spirit free
In the mirror they stare back at me
Break the glass and set my spirit free

Breathe in for me
Replay memories
Embrace my ending
Exhale the pain
No sorrow remains
I take my last breath