This sickness never ends
Constantly begging for air I suffocate under the weight
I crave escape
Aching lungs exposed my body festers full of toxins
Filth is all I know

Drained 'till I'm bitter spent and strained
These magnifications of pain
Have cost me more than my dreams
These aspirations decayed
Leaving me insane
I can no longer retain
I cant take this anymore

Agony's always upon us
Idle I deteriorate

Snapping spines, cracking sternums
This pressure crushing me
Let the weight break me down if this is what I'm meant to be
Pushing limitations of pain
Through the psychical agony
The signs behind I've never seen
Where'd it go so fucking wrong?

Reeking of cortisol
I long for rest
Begging to be washed clean
Rid me of stress
What has become of me?
I long for rest
Traumas so far from fading
I can't fight this stress

Damn this habitual disconnection
I long for rest
Taxing more than my soul and complexion
I can't fight this
Unending days enshrouded in torment
I long for rest
Heartstrings detuned and weary
I cannot fight this

I, in loneliness will wither away if I let the over bearing weight of the world consume me
The future is as bright, as the city lights
An empire of naught built upon a crown of rot

Your masks cannot hide the strength in which you left to die
Wasting precious time burnt alive
Next thing you know you've pissed away your precious life

The days of judgement draw near
They will not pardon you
When your thirsty and cold will you know what to do?
Insurrection ensues and all you cry for is help
You've failed to see the signs it's time to pay for pain that's dealt

All we do is consume, expel and rot away
We live our lives so blind, looming hell impending

What do you stand for?
Who does it benefit?
Why endorse all the horrors of the innocent?
Where are your calluses?
Where is your composure?
Choosing to filter love and overload with fear

Who are we to blame for all the ways leading us into an age of ruin?
Our forefathers blame theirs
Passed the veils, the meagre ways will fail
Fail us all
Let our will determine who shall thrive or die

I'm sickened by the cycle of the world surrounding me
Slipping through the holes of my own insanity
We, the purveyors of our own calamity
Take a step back, is this what you want to be?
How far do we go and at what cost?
Fleeting fame feeding egos so lost
We're trapped inside a cage but the door is unlocked
It's thrive or die but at what cost?

How long can we sustain these crimson ways?
How far can we go before collapsing?
Just listen to the world and all her agony
Your lack of contribution utterly disgusts me
Youʼll probably say Iʼm wrong
You soon shall surely see
An age of regress is written in prophecy

Who are we to blame for all the ways leading us into an age of ruin?
Our forefathers blame theirs
Passed the veils, the meagre ways will fail
Fail us all
Let our will determine who shall thrive or die

In death I am free
One with the reaper, you and I forever now
Burn away in darkened fury
Break free from chains that bind us
Burn in darkened fury
Break free from chains that bind us
Burn alive in darkened fury
Embrace the endless misery

If we're going to burn
Show me pain for what its worth
Feel my rage until your grave
As I'm burning now
The only truth that I have found, is I am nothing but the ashes left behind

We'll devour
Lend us your agony

Leave behind the pressures and pain to which you're holding on
Release of pain the break of chains
Inner hatred best let free
In death I am free
In death I am free

Look into the eyes of a man infatuated with a plan
To inflict torment, misery and agony from now until eternity

I watch you plead on your knees begging me, it wont stop me
Inflicting pain, it sets me free
Lacerate, breaking bones, skinning flesh
Pain and bliss, now entwined in coalesce

You will lay on the ground begging and pleading,
"Please stop"
But don't you see suffering, it sets me free
I'm so sorry but I've gone too far to let you be

Hands wrapped tightly around the neck
Choking
Mouth of blood spills down your throat
Gagging
Breaking through the limitations of pain forever writhing
Pain is all that ever made sense to me

It goes on and on and on for all the eye can see
Endless misery becomes reality
Humans crave pain
Skinned alive, I promise to keep you breathing
I'll leave you awake, conscious with all feeling

Endless torture

There's no healing only weeping from the lashing and the peeling
Breaking bones that puncture flesh
I want to see you beg for death
Pray for release
Suffer
Miles from peace
Forever
Suffer forever

This addiction to overwhelming hatred inflicting pain and ever lasting bloodshed
Please excuse my lack of sanity
Sadistically fulfilled bathing me in ecstasy
I hold dear my wicked fantasies, revolting, vile, vicious, hostile tendencies
And endless suffering awaits

Pale light divine
In crimson skies the stars align
Fair love of mine, her lips I long to kiss tonight
To the gathering by invitation turned to fire my heart's desire
Drenched in trepidations ankles weighed I slowly drown
Down to the depths where the sun can never shine

At the door, rose in hand
To the depths, I descend with dread
One deep breathe and I enter
Crowded halls full of wealth and splendour
There she stands in the center my rivals all around her
Locking eyes I caught her gaze
Heart sinks she turns away
Closing in my adversaries surround me
Beaten and bound
My innocence is left unfound

Primed to scorch amidst the ever crimson flames
My love has turned for now I shall burn eternally

Inversions grim this eve hollow thy being.
Hell conceived
Empower thee in incantations of lord Satan

I am Reborn
I return
I feel the devil coursing inside me
Unholy virtues flowing through my veins

Now I can't feel an ounce of pain revealing
Endless possibilities within me
Hands of darkened might to cast of lightening
All around me skulls imploding

Innocence torn away gone
All control, lost from here on

There she stand frozen in fear as we embrace I vaporize my dear
Now I walk forever in shame destined to kill full of rage
Cloaked in degradation I hide my face

Inversions grim this eve hollow thy being
Hell conceived
Empower thee in incantations of lord Satan
I am reborn

Light fades and I find myself with thoughts stained of desires unmet
Immersed in gloom I long for you

I long for you
Frigid feelings fester for what seems like forever I long to escape

Get me out

I find myself stirring in state of melancholy
Pulling me down by the weight of atrocities
Leave me be with my hands of destruction
The wake of understanding breaks upon the shores of calamity and slowly erodes for us all to see
The cost of affliction
Self inflicted constrictions
I am bound by these restrictions

Freeze internally
Deep in misery
Pain devours me
Sleep eternally
Clawing away
Solitude consumes me

Vacant of light
Show me sun
Radiant
I shall become
Radiant
Show me sun

Days in a simmering pain I spend
Trying to decipher what's real and pretend
In circles of shame, alone I waste my days
Yearning the time spent in the arms of another
Counting the days since we've last seen each other
I can't erase the past
I wish that love would last and now I know it's too late to say sorry

Drop

In the moments that are fading I am feeling numb
In the moments that are fading I am feeling numb

We're all screaming internally
Eyes see right through my being
Love will you please show me?

Pressing onward to the setting sun
My heart weeps to find someone
Lonely nights hold me tenderly
Left cold to wilt

Show me sun

Forward we stride with fear in our eyes
Into the jaws of death
Vanquishing brothers and fathers and sons of our conquerors
Mortars and fire ignite like sunlight

The sands stained of such blood
Lead hails from above
Trenches reeking of agony
Unfathomable pain surrounds me

Explosions of red
Trapped in my head
Brethren dead
Endless carnage ahead
Mangled corpses broken flesh
Lead as rain from heaven sent

Breach lines forward
Razor wire torn
This place is so godless
Stories will tell how we fought this

Willingly cast into the jaws of death
Broken men battle through annihilation
We answer with our guns razing through damnation
Aim down your sights to bring our salvation

Reigning our fire
Mortars descend upon formidable foes
Take cover
Pinning us down below our enemies
Reigning their fire
Heavy artillery blasting the beaches below
Incoming
Shrouded in hell as you're praying for peace

Show them no fear

We have come to put an end to this genocide
Surrounded, there's nowhere left for you to fucking run
Who's going to save you now motherfuckers?
Hoc est bellum

Teeth break on every bash
No face just pulp and mash
I decimate, weeping wounds and dripping blood
Clenching onto everything I've ever loved

Ad victorium

We march on forever
Forward into the next abyss
A hell unfolding
Into the jaws of death
March forever onward, into the next abyss

Willingly cast into the jaws of death
Broken men battle through annihilation
We answer with our guns razing through damnation
Aim down your sights to bring our salvation

I can't help but tell myself that I wish I found out earlier
Never could I have imagined how this could have happened to me? to us? to you?

I keep sifting through questions vacant of answers
Only to feel the sands of hope slipping through powerless fingers
Dreams of grandeur lay in ruin, and everything that once was, will never be again.
How am I to pick up the pieces?
I've grown distant
I've become hollow
Not a moment passes that I don't beg to take your place

I just can't hold myself together anymore
When alone I look in the mirror and I can't even force a smile let alone breathe with ease
How can I have the capacity to be when my heart's in constant atrophy?
Heartache is a lot more than it seems and why do I carry on?
Well, I know it's what you would have wanted but it's hard to breathe when you're gone
I swear I'll make you proud
I'll hold on

I'll miss our conversations and I'm sorry we couldn't grow old together
We will meet again even if it takes forever
I won't go cold nor will I slowly wither

This isn't fair, but I see the sun
Coming to terms with our final farewell
All has unwillingly come undone

Dreaming away
Floating free
Visions of amber spilling grief

We'll dream again
I won't forget
I'll heal and mend
I'll find content

Sunsets of golden rose
Spirits dance beyond the cold
You reside in the meadow of my memories in gleaming light
Eternal glow

Ethereal
Gone with the tides

Without the grace in which you gave
I would have drowned, I would have caved
Although you're gone, you're always here
I'll find my way and meet you there.
Thank you

Things are better now
I'm holding on
I have so much to tell you when we meet again.
I know you'd be proud of me
(I want you to know) I think about you all the time
I miss you

Go
Conquer this world is mine
I'll be pushing every step of the way and I'll see it through that I'm endlessly
Fighting my way through failure and flame
Living for more than myself I shall never let my will be tamed
Stand firm and rise to your calling
Stray far from weakness
Hold your ground
Lean into it
Dig in your heels
Bare your teeth

This noose won't hang me

Break free
Take hold

We lack the motivation to pursue the dreams in which we're sold
I won't let my world go cold

Racing my heart and mind to seek the vibration that thrives in my divine being
Fleeting, shining through in perishing light
I loathe this malaise
I can't live out my days knowing my spine is misaligned or a frame too frail to endure against the weight of time

Push forever onward

No excuses
Onward through the storm to zenith
No excuses

Racing my heart and mind to seek the vibration that thrives in my divine being
Fleeting, shining through in perishing light
Rarely I ask
Never I beg
Often I collapse
Always I rise again

It's always one step forward then it's two steps back

In my head, all I think about is death
My suffering eternal, wounds infernal
Misery keeps calling me, inflicting me, deeper and deeper
Deeper and deeper, ecstatically eager
I'm burning my body to set forth the reaper
Suffocate in the black, a sanctitude of sick for me and you
Crippling to the will of hatred
No salvation to run to

We all suffer in a cycle built and bound to claim us all
Scraping through the agony we suffer so religiously
Save me
Devour me alive or just gut me with a knife
Nothing I can do will ever rid you of my life
Every breath is agony, and all I know is

There's no way out

It writhes its way in

Left to rot alone again
Shackled by the chains of my own disdain
Misery my company, endless agony consumed by the wounds which inflict me
Of all the wounds that cover me none of them more burdening
Than the hole in which the pain inside resides eternally
Crawling in my skin
Immeasurable torture

Hollow heart
Sunken and aching empty soul
Devoid of hope
My body is not whole

Death stands in front of me
Ridding me of all I see
No more pain and misery
The reapers gift has set me free
Full of sin
I'm pulling back my skin
Tearing out my organs and exposing all the hate I've kept within
Creeping, bleeding, seething, weeping
Bury me alive, in a coffin full of knives
Suffocating sickened cycles left me seeking out the scythe
I yearn to feel peace once again

Iʼd rather die than live like this

Where did I go wrong?

One last time and I swear that I'll be rid off this
One last time and I swear that I'll be rid off this
One last time and I swear that I'll be rid off this
One last fucking time I swear that I'll be rid of this

Poison, dissolving in madness
I'm becoming my own worst enemy
Aching, I scrape my fingers to the bone and I know I'm slipping off the fucking slope

I follow the rabbit down the hole
Chewed up and swallowed I am no longer whole

The fear you'll feel are the demons you buried inside
A state of mind where you haven't the choice to hide
Face to face with the darkness you will earn your place
Define your will or you will define disgrace

I loved myself before I slipped
And now I live with regret

Fog of the abyss
I'm much better than this

Chaos reigns

I follow the rabbit down the hole
Chewed up and swallowed I am no longer whole

The fear you'll feel are the demons you buried inside
A state of mind where you haven't the choice to hide
Face to face with the darkness you will earn your place
Define your will or you will define disgrace

So lost, I cannot find my way
No turning back, I've dug my own grave
I had it all?
I watched it burn, burn away
This path I've paved is stained of hurt

Plunging from zenith
Spiraling ever so downward
Oh, why do I hold on to this dismal feeling?
Descending ever so downward

I feel lost

Reaching out through the dark
Hoping for answers gone
Every moment in ash
The wick has burnt away

There were moments burning bright that I hold on to tightly
Now I stay awake and gnaw my wounds more than nightly
And I can't see what's illuminated right in front of me
With every shaky breath I lay awake in melancholy

I lay in my dismay
Another love now lost so pathetically
Lacking the will to push
Too weak to strive, to reach out for the light
I've traced my tracks through the sands
To find out where it all began, and if I could relive those times I would have burned brightly

Resonating
In a state of disillusion
I'm constantly reaching for validation and evaluation to create a conclusion
Desperation
This never ending desire to know where I'm standing and I'm not forgetting the moments that I have been feeling cast down to this abyss to be dismissed of all my bliss and I, to my core know that I can be more
Than this and I try to keep my soul so alive, but I dive ever so downward

Stifling the call of my heart
These shadows are draining me of my spark
Choices I've made now tear me apart
This mountain of mistakes I've made from the start has ever diminished my senses and spirit
I sew my eyes shut, for the dark I revere it
Bathed in failure
I'm so full of missing pieces

As I lay in my dismay
I now have found, I've lost my way
No conviction behind my every word
No restriction to habits I've deemed so absurd
I can't feel
I don't know what is real anymore, and to my dying core
I'm lost inside an eternal war