Here is a new one, experience have begun, live the outcome
Define facts new, call the lie true, guide yourself

Sorrow grief, pain, the opposite could be the same
Retreat, listen to the questionmark, whatever

Fear, fear the fear, fear the word, fear the sense
Blame, blame the blame, cut is roots, off your brain

Choose, choose you choice, choose your life, represent
Who could you be, who have you been, it's your choice

Whatever you...

Disarry, straight thoughts, no way, is that me, a prisoner
Sufferings cover my inside,a dependence on my body
Which hides real truth

I have to live with something strange, no escape from its weight
And my appeal to reason, increases the hate

Hunger, and thirst, and lust
Aphorisms go to sleep, and the next day
The uncontrollable awakes again

It stops your mind from leaving all the duties you've got
Then you look for yourself, but your screams are not heard

It's not your fault, follow the crowd, just go behind, you have no doubt
The front lines rules, they steal your sight, and you believe that they go rights
You push your body through the lines, they're all covered with different signs
Then you look up, see the decay, responsible is this: your way

You try to change you can't get out, you start to wake the blind and shout
That they must help to stop the end, to see on what their lives depend
The ignorance took all their mind, just starring eyes, nothing to find
You sit between and you are caught, the innocent now feel the fall

Vociferuous protest, but caught helpless
Unbelievable dependency, the future hides the misery
We are less, there is no throne, don't think, you go alone
Cause all together, we call forth this, the final end, you won't miss

Losing consciousness, the encroachment begins
On the abdominal wall, a sign without hints
The tension stagnates, as the scalpel penetrates
First they open the cut, and later their eyes

Deep inside, faultiness, a numb victim of helpfulness
Tried to justify what they did wrong, sacrifice
Maybe someday I would have been that strong,
To destroy all lies

This wretched existance I deny,an outrage under my skin
Spritless flesh around my bones,
You exposed my mental suffering

Suspect, they ripped me up, I've nothing to hide
admiring the unknown, there is no hostility inside

Afflicted at the kind, repulsive surges, the perspective changes
Recuring thoughts, the subconscious grows, as the surface falls
Limited place soal, the prefiguration

Living the life between, two fronts inside, interact with all the fights
Which side endures the strain, which they underlie, among all pain no face can die

Pertubations rouse the light, undreamed tears open up, suddenly force rise
They leave a gap, the old withers, allows the newness its place
The cycle can start again, on the same old trace

There is no ennd, and so it stands, no grace arrives, demeaning life

I feel the frame around me, fraught with sorrow
You're on my back, bleed me white, wait for tomorrow

You hit my face, cut off my breast, push me around, torture the rest
Take all my pride, then hang me up, I'll keep my mind, which you can't grab

Another grief hits my heart, attended by your laughter
And every pain, every ache, makes my mind rougher

Through all the pain I'll get strenght, you can't control this
Soon I will lose all my feelings, wish you could see that

I'll hit your face, cut off your breast, push me around, torture the rest
Take all my pride, then hang me up, you have no mind, which you could keep

...Open...

...To...

...Me...

...Soon...

Laying on this field, dispersed over a mile
Hope forsook me,a desperate pile
Where time venial by the way of grace
Emotions exploded which I couldn't hide
Lived the whole time with this struggle inside

Stay on this field, look what I've left
Nothing of high value
Just a vulnerable piece of meat
Which had covered my inner life
Now I am eternal, untruthful me
Who said that death doesn't make you free

Now I am between the sky, wander to and fro
Unsettled life, you made me low
Depressed existance, I lost your weight
Reborn in death, an unrestricted fate
Return to carcass, which were not me
No more boundaries, I am free

On these walls in my head, I rewrite times of dread
Wish I could start again, where this life left me with pain

Illusions of true chance, that is really what I fear
Cause this damn quite presence, throws me always out of gear
Ambitious and trembling, is my inside on its way
Wath the night releasing another day

Frivolity, my mistake, amd this crowd gave me no break
Held on trees without roots, so I fell, distressed brood

The doors are shut, I am on my own, no one who can rule over my thrown
The atmosphere spreads out its hands, coldness with less hope, what is the sense
Repetition with remission, of all lies and alienations
Why am I lost, I am lost, why am I lost

Back to lead me, hear to see me
Where have I been, what have I done
Time to clean me, time is right here

You, you, you, seduced me to run

Now I see me, now you hear me, I give birth to my own son
My way is my goal, my way is my goal, my way is my goal
Why should I run

This is the night, where I lost the trust
The trust for the others, now lying in the dust
It changed me back to the person from who I came
An ignorant fool, not to hope just to blame
Try to show what I feel, wanted to give not to take
But faith in this world is just a dirty lake
And I'm trying not to drown

Another question is going through my mind
My eyes are fixed the answer is nowhere to find
What do we live for, why am I born here
Why are my hands tied up behind my back

How can I change what I see
Without getting crucified by society
People rape each other, which some don't bother
Belligerent mankind fights brother against brother

Inconceivable thoughts I can ask
Rack your brain until self-distrust
Bliss and contentment, depression and pain
All profound things I can't explain

An easy way would be just to live this life
But questions ask me, continue the strife
Everything and nothingg, what does it mean
Is the whole surrounding really what it seems