The view outside my window changed a lot since I was a child
Like all the years we buried, vanishing forever
Cause also grief is just love with no place to go
Like all the years we buried, this place is death

There’s a thing you should know about me
I am and have always been this deeply sad man
So, I am both, laughing and crying at the same time
And still trying to discover how that could be

I’m pretty sure growing old will kill me
Slowly, but steadily, in two different ways
As I’m still the one with the saddest smile
I hate being bipolar, it’s fucking awesome

The firstborn died by his own hands
My oldest friend found a rope that bore
And I know I’ll definitely also not die
By staring out in the pouring rain

Nobody ever tells you that emptiness weighs most
When there’s a void inside that can’t be filled
Cause it’s not a single stab wound that kills me
It’s a thousand paper cuts on every single day

The heart dies a slow death
And all our dreams dash fast
But I wonder if you changed your minds
The moment you knew you’d die
And I’m totally aware that my pain
Is nothing when compared to yours
But cleaning out your apartment
Was way harder than your funeral

One more psychosis then I am also finally done
Cause the more I sleep, the less I dream
And then at night I drink and clean my gun
It’s me who should be dead, not you…

It’s been so long, it’s difficult to tell
If I truly miss what I once called home
It’s been so long, it’s difficult to tell
If this truly was my longest way home

So, sing for the damage we’ve done
And the worse things yet to come
Sing for the damage we’ve done
And the worse things we’ll still do

Cause with you at my side
I will never be lost
As my apathy is death
Our apathy is death
But with you at my side
I will always be lost
As my apathy is death
Your apathy is death

You can take my word I wish I would have followed you
You can take my word I wish I could have followed you
And so we’ll witness how the last days will come and stay
And so we witnessed when the last days came and stayed

So, drink from the night itself
The night no one came home
Drink from the night itself
But remember me as a time of day

Cause you not understanding my silence
Makes you also deaf to my words
Cause every word has consequences
And every silence seems to have too

Sing for the damage we’ve done
And the worse things yet to come
Sing for the damage we’ve done
And the worse things we’ll still do

What if I were smiling?
And falling into your arms?
Would you see then?
What I can see now?

Tell me about the old days
Us against December skies
I’ve spent my happiest days here
Carry me forever in your heart

Now I’m standing here alone
In the street where we once met
I am sadder than I’ve ever been
But still glad you’re doing well

And I hope even when I’m gone
Your smile will never leave your face
And I am sadder than I’ve ever been
But still glad you’re doing well

Words like stones
Thrown into my face
Cut your name into me
And throw me off a bridge
Words like stones
Thrown into my face
Cut our names into me
And throw me off a bridge

And so I smiled at you
If I never shed a tear for you
Cause alone from the heart
You can touch the sky

Don’t think of me too often
I don’t want you to get sad
I think I’ll miss you forever
Like the sun the stars in morning skies

Words like stones
Thrown into my face
Cut your name into me
And throw me off a bridge
Words like stones
Thrown into my face
Cut our names into me
And throw me off a bridge

What if I were smiling?
And falling into your arms?
Would you see then?
What I can see now?

So, this was us my dear
Us against December skies
I’ve spent my happiest days here
Carry us forever in your heart

Leave for the night
And paint the stars
Leave for the night
Collecting scars
Remember me?
I’m back and I missed you
The dead travel fast
Meet me above the pines

Where I’ll become a crow
Resting in the crowns of trees
Collecting their souls my dear
The souls of the people I once loved
My whole life’s an uprising
One burial after another
Now would you wear this crown for me?
This diadem of dead stars?!
Cause I’ve become the thorns in my crown
Now let me grow your wounded king
Collecting the names of my loved ones
As scars carved to my chest

Living in the memory of a love that died
Once smashed to pieces in the still of a night
Living for the memory of a love that died
Still searching for stars in a cloudy and rainy night

And we stray through infinite nothing
Always haunted by our deadweight dreams
And it feels and seems as though
Something’s still gnawing at my heart
Also, the sadness is meant to last forever
And darkness soon will become salvation
Never underestimate the allure of darkness
Cause even the purest of hearts are drawn to it

I can’t leave the night

Cause night smells different
When the day comes close
Reaches out for my hand
But I can’t leave the night

I’m all about the dusk
And a life that’s always longing
Take me far beyond the stars
Where my heart was always longing
I belong to twilight and mist
And always did so
I’m back and I missed you
I’m all about the dusk

I’m all about the dusk

Leave for the night and paint the stars
Leave for the night, keep drowning the light
For my life that’s always doubting
For my heart that’s always doubting
For my doubting heart

There was a poem called “Loss” once carved into stones
It had three words, but the poet scratched them out
It was three empty words that once dug his grave
It was three empty words that once bled him dry

I know some of us get lost in the fire
But some of us are built from it
Get to learn to embrace the storms
Cause without rain nothing grows
Not all storms come to disrupt your life
Some just approach to clear your path
No, I never wished you rain my dear
I always wished you the beauty of storms

Horizon - Tempest

Let’s drink on our mistakes
Let’s drink on these old memories
Let’s get lost in the storms
Let’s get lost in our fire
Let’s drink
Forget

You know some men can’t be negotiated or reasoned with
Cause some of ‘em just want to watch the world burn
That’s why I’ll never rise from the ashes my dear
Cause I am them, I’m the whole fucking fire
I know we must have our hearts broken sometimes
Cause having them broken also means we tried for something
I know a ship’s safe in a harbour, but that’s not what it’s built for
We must get broken sometimes, cause that is how the light gets in

…That is how the light get’s in…

Let’s drink on our mistakes
Let’s drink on these old memories
Let’s get lost in the storms
Let’s get lost in our fire

And I’ll keep these songs in mind
For funerals yet to come
As my memories will fade
But wounds will still remain
And I wish I also knew which songs
Remind other people of me
You too used to be about music
And the songs that carried us
…Through sleepless nights...

You may think I write about my own misery
But I’m really writing about yours
You are living in a world of fire and brimstone
Just not to die from the cold inside

Sometimes we think we are keeping a secret
But sometimes that secret eventually keeps us
That’s why we give flowers mostly to the dead
Cause regret is way stronger than our gratitude

There is a poem called “distress” carved into my chest
It too had three words, but the poet scratched them out
It was three empty words that dug my grave
It’s three empty words that bled me dry

And I’ll keep these songs in mind
For funerals yet to come
As my memories will fade
But wounds will still remain
And I wish I also knew which songs
Remind other people of me
You too used to be about music
And the songs that carried us
…Through sleepless nights..

To become spring, accept the risk of winter
To become presence, accept the risk of absence
We are lost in this city, where we shouldn’t be at all
Where we searched for flowers, and found nothing but snow

It’s this city of tears
That has gone into mourning
Still beating with my heart
But with undercurrent of woe

I belong to the mountains
And always did so
I belong to the mountains
And always will do
They were my first love
Where they end, I begin
Bury me deep inside their womb
The only place I ever felt home

Cause home is not just the place where I was born
Also, the place where I want to get buried
The place beyond the pines where distance has no meaning
Where we still sing those old songs that remind us of our fall

We are torn between nostalgia for the familiar
And an urge for the foreign and strange
We are tied to bridges that cave in or burn
Sometimes we are homesick most for places we’ve never known

If only the sea was merciful
Wash me away to the silencing shores
If only the sea was merciful
As merciful as a morning in winter

My dear, you can cut all the flowers
But you can’t keep spring from rising
It’s strange why autumns is so beautiful
Yet everything starves, everything dies

…everything dies…

Cause home is not just the place where I was born
Also, the place where I want to get buried
The place beyond the pines where distance has no meaning
Where we still sing those old songs that remind us of our fall

Cause though I’m often in the depths of misery
There’s still calmness, there’s still music inside me
Just wish Decembers would wipe memories away
Like they mercilessly wiped away the last years

If only the sea was merciful
Wash me away to the silencing shores
If only the sea was merciful
As merciful as a morning in winter

You were the ailment
And leaving was the cure
I fell away and I still suffer
And year by year I’m fading away

You were the ailment
And leaving was the cure
I fell away and I still suffer
I fade away and I blame you

I need to be someone different
I need to be somewhere different
But who shall we become my dear
When there’s nothing left to love

Then sorrow ate me
I’m not me anymore
Our love became nostalgia
You aren’t you anymore

It’s not love
It’s nostalgia

And it hurts to remember how close we once were
But at some point in your life you have to realize
That some people may stay in your heart
But some just can’t stay in your life

So I took away from me what I loved most
My memories and all the pictures of you
I can’t just tell you what this song’s all about
But basically, it’s about everything that separates us

You were the ailment
And leaving was the cure
I fell away and I still suffer
I fade away and I blame you

Watch me fade away

Now drink after drink, line after line
I poison myself, I poison my heart
As there is something deep inside
Something that I need to kill
Cause one of the hardest things
You’ll ever have to bear my dear
Is to grieve the loss of a beloved person
That is indeed still alive

Then sorrow ate me
I’m not me anymore
Our love became nostalgia
You aren’t you anymore

The weight of the world is love
Under the burden of solitude
Under the incubus of dissatisfaction
The weight, the only weight we carry
Is love
Is love
Is love

You said “for better or worse”
This is my worst, but I’m getting better
You just need to give me a chance
A chance to get better, one day…

Cause the “what never was”
And the “what could’ve been”
Seems to mean so much more to me
Than anything else these days

My heart beats to fast
This life will kill me
Your heart beats to fast
This life will kill us
Unravel the rope my dear
So we can learn from its duty
Let it take my guilt away
So I can carry your pain

Too weak is my blood
To handle all that whiskey
Too weak are my veins
To carry so much smack and wine
Too weak are my hands
To knot a tight rope
Too weak am I
To carry on

As the value of old wounds, you don’t know the pain of
The pain that I know, but you never testified
Brought me to think suicide with pills isn’t all to radical
But isn’t suicide itself already radical enough?

Did you know my dear
The chance is high
We’ve already been
To the place of our death
That’s why I’ll die a sunny day
But will get buried at night
We’ll die a sunny day
But get buried at night

I’ll load up guns

In my dreams you are mine all the time
The hands that used to hold me
I always wanted to see your name in lights
Just in the case we’ll never meet again
But in my dreams, you were mine all the time
And as they see us, they’ll confess:
They died doing something they wanted to
In a place they chose to be

And my love is not weather
So it will never change
Now let us leave my dear
I’ll rehash the smack
Our fears are excruciating
But therein lies the answer
At least believe in something
Even if it means sacrificing everything

All those who were seen dancing
Were thought to be insane
By those who could not hear the music
Who couldn’t hear the silence sing

Every sleepless night – Feels like end times
Every morning wide awake – Feels like end times
Every laugther died away – Feels like end times
Every walk in the sun – Feels like end times

I’m tired of being on the road
Lonely as a sparrow in rain
All its pain, like pieces of glass
In my head all the time
I’m so tired of all the things
That whyever won’t kill me
Just make me stronger
Grand a bond, then break it

These are the past upon stories
Our unsettling death letters
Now there’s nothing left to burn
Let’s set ourselves on fire

All these people tell me, the life I live is a brave one
But fuck, I’m really just running away from the past
Our lives are impressive graveyards of buried hopes
Where we buried them like our dead, but far too shallow

Hope is but mental illness
I once was blind, but now I see
Time is but an abyss
Profound as a thousand nights
The past doesn’t exist
Nor does the future
Time is but a ghost
We are just moment after moment

Every sleepless night – Feels like end times
Every slug of whiskey – Feels like end times
Every hasty goodbye – Feels like end times
And every line I write – It just feels like end times

I still got fire inside
But my heart is too cold
I lost something I never had
But yet it hurts as bad

Cause those who were seen dancing
Were thought to be insane
By those who could not hear the music
Who couldn’t hear the silence sing