It's just another day of my life
In the high res next gen wonderland
I curse the sun
Getting out of bed
I hope my sell-by date
Didn't expire yesterday

The torture porn on the red roy disc
A sweet kiss of liquid modernity
We have no time for your mistakes
Dial
Search
Accept

"Here, you have to run as fast as you can to stay in the same place."

You're too blurry my friend
You're too slow
You're too predictable
Too below
This is all I can hear in my mind
When I try to believe
I'll stand the pace of this run

Breathe in
Breathe out

It's just another day of my life
Dial
Search
Accept

I don't know where to begin
Feel a cleaving in my mind
I can't get my act together
Buzz in my head is too loud
I know something's wrong with me
It's starting to burn out my soul
But I feel so weird in here
When you just sit, listen and nod

All my life
I've been trying to deny and deceive myself

Sense of Insecurity
Restlessness
The turning out
Hatred for my inner chaos
And the color of your couch
I've just had this trouble all my life
Of getting out what is inside

Now I run
But cannot hide

No matter how much I do for them
No matter how much I do for myself
No matter which way I look at it
Fulfillment passes me by

Distracted inner self
On the brink of chaos
Lost its way

Impatient inner self
On the brink of chaos
Lost its way

Distracted inner self
I'm tuning out

Impatient inner self
I'm spacing out

Distracted inner self
On the brink of chaos
Lost its way

I. Different?

Once in the middle of the crowd
I stopped
Suddenly I felt so good
Not being on the move
But became an obstruction
In your way
And I was surprised
How fast you could unite
Against me

When you forced me to the ground
And tied my hands
Certain I couldn't disturb
Anymore

I saw the sadness in your eyes
Your fear
And the most secret desire:
"Escape from here"...

In pursuit of uniqueness
And individuality
We must be unlike anyone else
To survive
But in the mass of different runners
Different lies
We can't make time to realize
How the same we are

II. Hedonist Party

So let me live without your pain
Just let me live without your pain
Because I want to feel so...

It's not right
It's not fair
When I am forced to live your life

It's not right
It's not fair
When I am forced to live your life

It's not right

Just let me live without your pain
Just let me live without your pain
Just let me live without your pain
Just let me live without your pain
Just let me live without

III. Straw Man Dance

Congrats
This time you're a borderline pass
Here's your reward
Now smile
After all
You conform to us
Drag on
Forget yourself in the final dance
You already know the steps

Huddled in the corner
Disillusioned
My lifeless stare is fixed
On your silhouettes
You're disregarding me
Passing me by
Like I'm not even here
Maybe I'm not
Maybe I'm somewhere else

I used to be one of you
With the same spark in my eyes
And now I don't belong to this place
It's a matter of merciless time
I wholly vanish

The candle guttered out
The beauty elapsed
Could've been so wonderful

***

One day we could've met
And believed
We might live that way
Far away from the din
Envious looks
And chase for the prize
We would have remained ourselves
Without killing our feelings
Slowly
Day by day

One day we could've won
Without taking away
Someone else's pride
We would have become strong
Walking through our life side by side

We could've missed another day
Not knowing how to talk
Where to go
We could've missed another night
Only... For what?

The dream went away
And you came
With your dark hair loose
Ruthless cold reality
Oh, how I hate your truth
Don't turn your back this time
Just look at my eyes
I won't break down
I'm going to fight

Come to me now
I will host you
I'm the alchemist of our times
I know exactly what you need
You've climbed so high
You've gone so far
So you deserve something special

Come to me now
I will cure your soul
I'm the savior of our times
I know exactly what it needs
You've let yourself go
You've felt so down
So my hi-tech salvation is just for you

Obsession
Obsession
Obsession

To be the best
The most beautiful
And above everyone
Not allow oneself to be left behind
Know what is what and what is out
Aim for excellence
And perfection you can only dream about

Before my fame evaporates
I must be at the top
So I control my body
Mental state
Unable to slow down

Before the final dusk appears
I must do more than this
It's the only way to make it through
In these hyperactive times
It's my obsession!
Obsession...
Obsession...
Obsession...

Doggedly
At any cost
Obstinately
More and more
Can't allow myself to stop
The ice broke
I'll never give up
Again...
Again...
Again...

***

Hi, it has been a while since last time
I was certain I could live without
All those private talks I couldn't stand
But now
The truth is
You're the best friend I have...