These faces so tired and pale
Were shaped with birches
Indocile but doomed to resist
To overcome the pain of loss.
These eyes lose their colours
Showing nothing except shame,
They have never looked at the sun
That is too blind to understand...
These lips whisper the only
Name forsaken in the depths of time,
They confront splendid illusions
But they are not able to utter a prophecy

Surrounded by darkness...
Absorbed by madness...
Just moments...
Just fragments...

When a last thread is torn
When a last page is turned
When a last exhale calmes,
A heart stops beating paralyzed.

Depressed with nonsense of remorse
We ever must pay twice
Trampling flowers growing
With the sickly-sweet smell of grief.
Epitaphs as secrets betrayed
On monuments of compassion
Absurdly try to describe pain
Where echoes of the past walk...

Only once I came to speak no words,
To dissolve among these grey stones
Only once I came for one last dance,
To take all I never had
No one will see me on my knees,
I came alone to correct mistakes
To disturb the slumber of the forgotten
To let one pain hurt me one more time...

Music of the wind and falling leaves...
The night keeps silence watching me...
I will stare into the haze
Until I understand I am still alone...

Faces around me are just mirrors
Reflecting disaster which fills me.
Wretched pieces of memories
Writhe in agony near my feet
No light shed, no voices heard...
Your archangel of a stolen dream
Lies on a tomb with broken wings
While echo tears my screams apart...

Cut my wings away,
I cannot see
These vile things,
Trampled desires...
Fakes of relief,
Mistakes of believe...
Whatever it may give...
And nothing remains...

Rusty nails choose my destiny,
Make me pure and stainless
I give myself away for
Crucifixion without regret
Before images made of stone,
Before bodies made of wax.
I'll leave this world behind
Humiliated and impaled...

Quicksilver tears... down...
Punishment for me... now...
Forgiveness or lashes... strife...
What is between me and ashes... life? ...

Obedience until
A probable end
Is so necessary...
Make me sob
If I deserve
To suffer alone,
If I am a bringer
Of suffering...

Drowned in ashes all above, consumed in orgies of greed
As bloodlust satisfied, as a sin burns one's eyes
...and flesh gets colder losing the attitude to the world...
Currently obsessed I am by upcoming decay
FOrgiveness which I can't reach
Is like slime under my feet
Impossible to raise, too much to take away...
To be looking at the beauty of punishment
In murderous details...
A moment of justice's triumph...

Trample faith in your rotten heart... useless words can kill
the truth... useless warm can enrage yourself...
Faith can't save you if you are guilty...

Deformed are all the hopes, all the tears has dried
Self-confidence have died caressed with gritty ropes.
In suffering entwined is all the pain of my past
I am forever lost, condemned to fall
Rusty locks without keys...
Biased heads are depraved...
Whatever that stays without changes
Breeds constancy...
Throughout belts and loops
Throughout shackles and chains
I summon the spirit of mercy
I summon the beast of judgement
Trembling with fear
I look into the eyes
Of my reflection
And I face the nightmare...

Hopeless moans of silence
Cruelly tear my nerves
Cynic smiles of broken windows...
Endless torture with absense...
Further...
I seek myself so far from here
Deep within
I am searching for seeds of sanity...

I can only pray myself
Inside of my prison cell
How can I pay for my sins
Before the eyes of a myth?...

It lurks from darkest corners
To the centre of my sorrow...
If grief could be seen
It would look like my face
So embrace me tight
With my own icy hands
Put my fingers on my neck
While I am so helpless...

As forgotten people suffer
In a blooming garden
I lie paralized
In that deadly whiteness
Entwined branches reach for me
With silent entreaties,
As my hands they are
Tied by ruthless frost
My eyes are wide open
Watching absence of everything,
They are used to see darkness
That light will never disturb
Forever be my tomb
The snowdrift without edges
Forever be my shelter
From those who left me here.