I remember your taste
You're the life I gave away
Failure wrapped around my neck
You're the ghost that held me back
Now I am letting go
Drowning myself in the frozen waters
I feel the words escaping
They break from my thoughts
and disappear from my mouth
They leave behind a taste
The taste of failure
So familiar it reminds me of you
Don't say you'll save my life
I never asked you for anything
But you wanted more
Drowning in your frozen waters
I was sinking, you were my frailty
Drowning in your frozen waters
Don't you say that you'll save my life
I'm vanishing
I'm giving up on myself
Closing my eyes forever
Throw my body into the spinning and twisting
I bend into something else
A catastrophe
A murderer of my hopes and dreams
This is not my life
When winter ends
my new life begins
Bend and break
In pieces I was for you
You were my frailty
Don't say you'll save my fucking life

When I return
I dream of another life
Failure transparent in the palm of my hand
I am the contortionist
We are the contortionists
I can feel this distance is further and farther without you
Contorting to fit somewhere I do not belong
Brick by brick
Stone on top of stone
I create
From these towers
Built of nothingness
I will fall
And like these wordless feelings
There is an emptiness we long to feel inside
Father when will you come home?
I have been dying inside
Mother where have you gone?
Oh so how hard I've been trying
Hours upon hours
I am fucking sleepless
We are wretched, no sleep for the wicked
And at night we come undone
This is not who I ever was
We are anything
We are the contortionist
We are the wordless feelings
We are the great divide
We are the emptiness we long to feel inside
We are anything
We are the contortionist

Breathing
I am fading
I feel I am losing myself
Wishing I could be someone I'm not
I know somewhere there's a mirror that can show me who I am
Because I will never know
Constantly bending
Engulfed by my history
So scared of letting go
Beyond everything
I wish I could be
I am just a man
The sun will never shine me
I am lost inside the meaningless
We lose control
Like a pendulum
I forgot where I came from
Holding on to the weight of regret
We lose control
Swing me back and forth again
You gave and you bled
Now I'm picking up the pieces of my broken heart
Blocked out
My shattered glass past
Now I'm picking up the pieces I have swept away
We lose control
Swing me back and forth again

So I'll keep searching
For a place called home
I'll rip my roots from this earth
Into the unknown
Is it for the dreams I chased
Or the ones I caught
This mystery
This misery is killing me
So now I'll leave behind a murder scene
My life isn't real
It's just a silhouette
And when the sun goes down
I won't exist
I will be the forgotten
Bread crumbs and white stones can't follow me
Overwhelming
Constantly I'm tearing at the seams
The threads that hold me together
They envelop me
I am a shaking man
As my body breaks against the wind
I begin to slowly unravel
Overwhelming
I'm tearing at the seam
The threads that hold me together
They envelop me
And with fervor I am everywhere I never thought I would be
I will never come home
I am a ghost inside your empty house
I don't exist
I will not come home
I'll never come home

Who we are I'll never know
But when we spoke I knew you well
You knew me well
You loved me through and through
I never thought I would watch you leave us
From a room as a kid I held so close
I was a son made up on sand
You were the wind that let me go
I'll say goodbye
So this is goodbye
But I'm afraid to speak
So with words I'll tell the story
You meant so much to me
And like the night upon nights to come
I will dream of you
And know that I will see you seen
Give me the strength to carry on
Tide
You are the ocean tide
The swells swept you away
I was a son made of sand
You were the wind that let me go
When the ocean tide has risen to high
And the waters have come to carry you away
Remember I will always be there to sing you to sleep

I could never find a way to rest upon your shoulders
Misunderstood, please help but I meant so well
I keep pushing through these bitter memories
I try to to escape the nightmares but they are becoming of me
I am the sleeping dream inside the dream
My old me breaks my heart
I hope I never wake up
I need an answer
Please help me
This endeavor has swallowed me whole
North winds twisting inside me I can feel this emptiness
Slowly I am fading out
I can feel this emptiness
Slowly I am fading out
And this is becoming of me
My hands hold on tight, I'm not letting go
Words are never good enough
Everything I breathe is broken letters and bad timing
And they are becoming of me
I am the sleeping dream inside the dream
I hope I never wake up

This is my promise to write to you
So for you my every word
Is the sinking feeling here in my chest
I am so far from home but the further away we are the closer I am
The closer I feel, the further you get
My hands hold on tight to your every word
I won't let go, but I feel my eyes advert from who I used to be
We know the storms will come
The winds they will sweep us all away
Wrap me in your silver lining
Torn between the roots of earth and the sky
I left my heart behind, and I'm so far from home
The weight is pulling me down, in your circles I am spinning
In your circles I'll wait forever
Lost control, my hands grip the wheel
But I can't see where the road is leading
Please hold on dear I know you're worried
Counting down the days do you remember?
Torn between the earth and the sky, I left my heart behind

I have been to the edge before, at the end of the world
But there is nothing for me so I guess I'll just turn around
I will follow my footsteps back home
Still the same as before, but there is nothing for me
So I Guess I'll just turn around
Can't you see that I'm suffocating?
In a world that means nothing to me
My only hope is disintegrating
Wishing someone could carry the weight for me
Can't you see that the ends beginning?
IN this life I've lost all I know
Because hope is a word, that I forgot was feeling
So please hold onto me and I won't let you go
We are nothing more than memories
I'll find the meaning inside this doubt
I will see this through
I'm frozen in time, encased in ice
Break me apart so I can breathe again