It took heart to stay and share a life.
In return I pledged to keep an eye
On the ravens on the wire,
On the serpents in the mire.

We were lovers you and I.
We loved and time went by.
Eyes are beads and feet are clay.
You would not be scared away.

Fireflies and satellites
In the dead of night
When you warned me:
"There's a snake nearby."
Arms like sticks and hands of hay
Failed us when you slipped away.

Now I'm sad to be alive
And I urge the sands of time:
Send your last remaining grains
Bleeding from my strawy veins.

I feel what can only be described
As a chill through my every bone,
A gnawing at my sense of home.
An iridescent black and blue.

What you see isn't always what you have
And to hold (to have and to hold)
Dear is to never let go.

Yet I still feel. well..
Cold comfort to the empty hearted.
Bound and broken.
Cold comfort for what was left unspoken.
Will have me wishing you were here.

Keep home fires burning,
Spark a yearning for the confines of home.
Keep home fires burning,
Spark a yearning in you to find your way home.

Carried your brittle bones beyond these walls.
All colour bled from banner, hung at half-mast.
Future fire set in stone, ghosts of second past
Feed a licking, harrowing flame,
But you would not be scared away.

Rising up from underneath,
Undercurrent of fiery grief.
I'm cold to the touch.
Ghostly cold is your touch.

What you see isn't always what you have
And to hold (to have and hold)
Dear is to never let go of home.

Rising up from underneath,
Undercurrent of fiery grief.
I'm cold to the touch.
Ghostly cold is your touch.

More ultra violent fire on my retina, scanning the sky for vital signs.
In a world that turned so negative overnight.
In the anti-light,
Avoiding shadows, burning bright.

Shine, shine, my stars in a universe.
The lines combine.
New constellations taking shape above me.

All shades of blue pulsating, alternating where the night sky used to rule.
Black stars join the orange retina moon.

Shine, my stars in the universe.
The lines combine.
New constallations taking shape all the time.
My nights and days reverse.
The stars align and offer little consolation to me.
Bathing in the anti-light,
Avoiding shadows, burning bright.
Bathing in the anti-light,
Avoiding shadows of ultra violent white.

Dismal stars.
Like my aching hunger for change, they linger.
They remain.

I may cry on the cold shoulder,
Scan the sky for comfort, colder.
Lift the veil and kiss the crying,
Leave a trail to leave it dying.

The stars align.
The lines combine
In anti-light
All the time.

Aching, tearing fabric,
Dragging footsteps through unsympathetic streets.
Grinding teeth, brittle bones.
The weight of a world not my own flung onto well-worn shoulders.

When was it I wrote this and everything mattered?
When was it I seemed to matter to some?
Were my tears tasting sour, losing hope by the hour?
We were never this bent over hours well spent.
None the wiser.

Fed up being poorly fed.
This tasteless nourishment is like salt in my wounds.
Only the bitter notion of a sour aftertaste
Still party my lips in sweet sickening addiction.

When was it I wrote this and everything mattered?
When was it I seemed to matter to some?
Was there blue in your song,
Seeping red from your lips?
Pay no mind, mind no matter.
None the wiser.
All the same.

I must have forgotten to count the days,
Mark the pages that tell of my age.
Pay no mind, mind no matter.
No matter what, it matters not.
To none.
None the wiser.
All the same.

In fierce pacing sinews a tension relentlessly rises.
One risk too many worth taking. A beating of senses.
I'm senseless, towering restless over my horizon.

When was it I wrote this and everything mattered?
When was it I seemed to matter to some?
Were my tears tasting sour, losing hope by the hour?
We were never this bent over hours well spent.
None the wiser.

When was it I wrote this and everything mattered?
When was it I seemed to matter to some?
Was there blue in your song, seeping red from your lips?
Pay no mind, mind no matter.
None the wiser.

Subject to change?
Tell me something new.
This shackle in the chain...
The alloy is weak and as weary as she can be.

Shocked, I will deny the anger
Shading my angered eyes.
I've accepted to be frail at times.
I'm expected to be overly sensitive to change.

Destruction of proof.
Evidence removed and misplaced,
Erased by the unmoved.
Watch how she grows smaller as she goes down.
I shiver and shake.
Sweat, as it breaks like a junky in need of that 'something.'
I've tried to explain
I wax and I wane with your ever changing moods.

Warning signs,
Invisible to the naked eye.
Never you mind.
It felt right. We took flight, oblivious.
Can we fix what we missed?
A last kiss or yet another?
It proved right that we might attempt this escape to reality.

Never you mind.
Shatter the shrine.

A new summer is secretly enchanting
All beings into a slumber
And wild flowers are blooming in abundance
With a vast amount of colour

I'll breathe and I'll be right at your doorstep.
A flower bed will save me if I fall...

The cool shadow is stretching from the hillside
and sliding to the meadows.
Where I'll follow under clouds of sparrows,
My mind fixed on tomorrow.
I foretell the end of sorrow.

I breathe and I am right at your doorstep.
Thoughts are drifting to another time.
I dream we are the last couple dancing.
Let me be the one to hold your hand.
You'll see that I will hold on forever.
Nothing can convince me otherwise.

It's about as much as I can take
Beside the toughts that I can't shake.
Return me to the life that came before this bitter end.

Can't wait to mend our lives,
Extend my time here by your side.
Relieved and unashamed,
Our eyes will find a new horizon.

I breathe and I am right at your doorstep.
Thoughts are drifting to another time.
I dream we are the last couple dancing.
Let me be the one to hold your hand.
You'll see that I will hold on forever.
...Or at least I'll try.

A Micro-kaleidoscope to take a closer look at the fabric of life.
Crushing depth for all that's familiar.

I've seen time under a different light
And aeons passed without a single sound I liked.

A seashell stethoscope to localize the pulse of all matter
(And all that matters)... Not that it matters.

I've seen time under a different light
And aeons passed without a single sound I liked.
All of my thoughts just seemed to pass me by
When liquid colours and yet another
Changed to change my mind.

Five senses amplified and well in overdrive.
The fourth Dimension,
The slowing down of light.
Event horizon.

Veils of light and dark alike
Lower mine.
Just... stay alive.

Have I failed us again, my dear?
By saying things that were untrue?
Dodging things that needed doing
And this damage I have done
Is now becoming way too much for me to undo.

I should have changed my ways when you warned me,
When the sky turned grey with a promise of rain.
Sweet wine into the river. I'll decline.
Yet another try to make good on a promise I made.
Keep it safe for a single day.

I have failed you again, dear friend.
No curse reversed. I'm still unreserved.
All white lies in a line of many,
Out for blood, have formed an army.

If the first step is indeed the hardest,
(It's a leap of faith)
There is a chance I may actually rise above this.
(It's fighting chance)
A final chance to redeem myself.

I'm way too skilled in deception.
I'm all too prone to indiscretion.

Yet again I'll try to make good on a promise I made.
It's a promise I made at the break of a brand new day.
It's a promise I may well break before the end of the day.

Grant us some time.
Give us courage to look inside.
A gesture of good faith
After years of living a lie.

It felt like we were at war but there was nothing at stake.
Blood was drawn all the same.
It's still sticking to the blade
Like we are.

And when we stagger back into refortified egos,
It's a peril to the splendour
And the venom for the enamoured.

Secrets and lies
For those we used to isolize
Lay ruin to our true belief,
Left us bitter and betrayed.

Trust in me as you once did
And I will treat it with the greatest care.
Our restored equality
As a testament to hopes and dreams.

It felt like we were at war but there was nothing at stake.
Lines were drawn all the same
As we fought to finde our balance.

Ill omens kept on ice,
set aside for me and mine.
I'ts hard to cover ears and eyes
at the same time.
Yet. i'll try.
Sure, i'll try.

I've lost my colours by investing
in blind eyes.
Much less of everything,
black stars in a pale blue sky.
Uncanny feelings, so unnerving,
make me shiver.
A jinx so firmly fixed to me
can only change me for the bitter.

Spiraling downward.
Evil eyes conspire.
I'll fight to defy them.
I'm dure to arrive at
the right time in the wrong place.

I've lost my place among you,
the fortunate elite.
It is contagious?
Am i safe or am i sick?

Spiraling downward.
Evil eyes conspire.
I'll fight to defy them.
I'm dure to arrive at
the right time in the wrong place.

Don't speak.
Not a word.
I won't listen.
Please, be the wiser here,
play the mute and my fortune be yours.
Give it some hours,
let time tick some some of this away.
Say what you will once the dust has settled
and the first morning light has taken me away.

Say what you will, but i can't listen.
Consider sides not yours, not mine.
Now is not the time.
I know you know your way with words,
but now is not the time.

Don't say
I've lost my place
and i am no longer missed.
Please, be the wiser here,
play the mute and my fortune be yours.
Home being where the heart is,
my journey is without an end.
All it takes is a word
when all i need is silence.

I'll make no wish of the need,
I have nothing more to say.
I make no excuses.
Please excuse me,
i must be on my way.