Everything has become so meaningless to me

Grayness fills my days
Emptiness, all I have left

So very futile, it all is
The fight is gone from me

Darkness ate away me
Absorbed into itself

So pointless, is all our struggle
Why Wouldn't I just lay down and give up

Just to lie down, and wait
For the pain to end

With emptiness I fill my days
I'm waiting, for so long I'll wait
What is there left to be saved now
What is worth being saved?

Night comes down on me
Cover myself in the dark
Feel no more pain
Night comes down on me

What will I leave behind
Dust and emptiness
Who will keep my wake
Who will keep my memory
Who will keep my wake

Slowly smothered, cloaked by darkness
Drowned forever, under ice and water
So heavy, my feet arenow
Burdened by my own sins

Held to this place for too long
By coward hands betrayed, by myself

Pulled down, down under
Darkness beckons, it pleads for my return
Waves cover me, the sea fills me
Slowly, but for certain, I am free

Thrown back from this place
Traveled afar to find my exit
Slowly but surely, I close on my fate
Slowly but surely, waters will close on me

Slowly, but so surely, I am going home

All hope I have left behind me
With peacefull mind I face tomorrow
No use to fight anymore against my fate
Blinded have I been by false hope

There is no tomorrow
Yesterday, I left it all fall
My memories I burned, I burned them all
I sweep my hand through the ashes
That once were my life, still warm

Beyond all hope I've gone
So much pain I carried inside me
For vanity I suffered, made a marthyr of myself
I saw delight in my own demise
My pain was greater than yours

Still as I've reached this point
I see no reason to hold on
I have come beyond any reason to live
Moving on to the realm of dream

For your sake I still hold on
I will wait till I can't do no harm
Heed my words, we will all be gone
All the hope has fled from us
And the earth beckons for me...

Let your darkness shine on me
Shower me with your own tears
Let me fall, let me fall down
Don't wait, don't you wait for me

Final twilight
Twilight of the gods
Darkness falls on us
It shines this last days light
Waters turn to ash
Rivers flood with the earth

A sudden flash
Of hidden knowledge
One lost forever
Taken from us
Hope has been banished
Sold for shining dust
Secrets been buried
Inside the dreamers mind

Has it ever been said so
That the earth will swallow us all
Smother with ashen embrace
Fill our lungs with herself

So, it has come to this
Night falls, for ever it falls
Cloaked in this darkness
In mother's embrace
Smothered in here
In the last darkness
And she shines on us
The dead light

I know who I am
That I have not yet lost
I treasure myself
It is all I have left
Unspoken truth now screams
Far beyond myself
I travel to seek my soul

Broken, but still
Breath runs, though so shallow
This blood that runs through my veins
So foreign, rejected from me
I've lost all I had left
I lost my name
Forever gone from me, my sanity

I found nothing sacred
All beauty has withered
But ashes remain now here
In the dark where I cry for help
Broken are all promises
Life has no more truth
No god will save me now
This all has lost the meaning to me

Lost but I have found
Soil that will keep me down
Rest but for eternity
Close my eyes and let me dream

These empty rooms I keep inside me
Here I hide from the world, afraid to live

My life, I let go
Let someone else enjoy the sunlight
I dare not, to expose myself

Only dust moves here
Where I hide from my life
A life I never wanted
So let me be, leave me be

Leave me be, I want no one
To comfort me, leave me be

Sunlight, it has no place here
In these empty rooms inside me

Take away your hand
Waste no pity on me
This is what I wanted
Now leave me here, in my solitude

I want nothing

A lifetime prison, this body is
All this time, without hope I've gone through
A disappointment to myself, And to all around me
Waste of good life... Abomination

Still, after all these days
I try to go on like everyone else
Just for one more day
I've grown so tired of all this

All these lies eat away my soul
All this time I've lied to myself

This show I have to keep
To keep myself sane
All this time I've lied to myself

So in vain, all of my attempts to better myself
This broken soul, it will never truly heal
All this darkness, it cannot be washed away
So I am broken, all my hopes laid waste

So deep am I, in my own hell
I created this, for myself
To sink in deeper, so deep I am

At the end, what will all this count for
Just a series of failures, in a life gone wrong
Will you say, what good have I done
In all these years I wasted in the dark

Waste not your pity on me
The emptiness inside you will see
There is nothing here to be saved
All your tears for me are for waste

All that I've done, still lingers on me
All of my broken promises
I find now ahead of me...

I'll never come back!