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01. Disguise

Get up, get up!
Fuck!

Get out, never get out, never get out, never let go, never let go, never go

The spiraling inside my own disguise
"This is my design"
But we're not here together

Mirror, mirror, tell me who you see
Am I you or me?
I can never remember

But you can't hide forever

I found myself by losing hope
I lost my way to find a home
I hid myself to stay alive
Now I'm ready to face my disguise

Get out, never get out, never get out, never let go, never let go, never go

I am locked within the box I built
From the inside out
Reassured by my doubt I (no)

I don't want this fucking (no) codependent vice (no)
But desperate measures call for desperate lies
Desperate lies!

I found myself by losing hope
I lost my way to find a home
I hid myself to stay alive
Now I'm ready to face my disguise

Sick of wearing a mask
Sick of hiding my face
Sick of every motherfucker that is in my way
Sick of digging for answers
While you bury the truth
Fuck your method to my sadness,
I will bury you
Dig!

Dig!

I will not become a figure of my mistakes
I will not become the mask, fear is not my fate
You can't turn down anger, you can't silence pain
You will not put out the fire that burns in me
That burns in me!

I sold my soul to my disguise
I hid myself to stay alive

I found myself by losing hope
I lost my way to find a home
I hid myself to spite my eyes
I was losing myself in my disguise

Fear I follow
Safe in sorrow
(In my disguise)
Time I borrowed
I'm ready to face my disguise

Get out, never get out, never get out, never let go, never let go, never go
Get out, never get out, never get out, never let go, never let go, never go

02. Headache

Some days I'm narcissistic, some days I'm in my way
Some days I try to sleep with pins and needles in my brain
Some days I feel sadistic, a portrait of my pain
Some days I live in fear that I am every fucking thing I hate

Shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up
Shut up, shut up, shut up
Shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up
Shut up, shut up, shut up

Follow me down
Under the skin I am doubt
Feeding the flies in my mouth
Through my eyes
I know that I'm gonna be fine

Some days I feel addictive, some days I feel alone
Some days I fear the worst in me is the best you'll ever know
Some days I feel the static with everyone I know
Some days I feel like I just want to slit a motherfucker's throat

Shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up
Shut up, shut up, shut up
Shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up
Shut up, shut up, shut up

Follow me down
Under the skin I am doubt
Feeding the flies in my mouth
Through my eyes
I know that I'm gonna be fine
Swallow the pain
Selling my sorrow for shame
Sanity circles the drain
With a smile
I swear that I'm gonna be fine

I know that I'm gonna be fine
I know that I'm gonna be fine
I know that I'm gonna be fine
Oh God, am I gonna be fine?
Bright lights, am I dead or alive?
Someone say I'm not losing my mind
I made a deal with the devil inside
Oh God, I'm gonna be fine

(Go!) Shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up
(Go!) Shut up, shut up, shut up
(Go!) Shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up
(Go!) Shut up, shut up, shut up

Decay and follow me down
Under the skin I am doubt
Feeding the flies in my mouth
Through my eyes
I know that I'm gonna be fine
Swallow the pain
Selling my sorrow for shame
Sanity circles the drain
With a smile
I swear that I'm gonna be fine

03. /c0de

Everything you know in the focus
Live in the moment
Don't have to question why
Listen to the sound of the virus
You can't deny this
Get up and amplify

I want it all
The chemical
The fix that makes me feel
Like I overdose in stereo
And lose control of "real"
(I can't believe it's real)

Of one mind, of one soul
We unite to write our code
So bleed your message at the tone
'Cause we don't have to feel alone
Feel alone
Let's get this fire started
Let's get this fire started

Everything you know in the focus
Live in the moment
Don't have to question why
Listen to the sound of the virus
You can't deny this
Get up and amplify

Between the grey
We medicate
In hypnotic unity
And between the notes
We surrender the host
And become the energy

Of one mind, of one soul
We unite to write our code
So bleed your message at the tone
'Cause we don't have to feel alone
More than ones and zeros
Overriding all we know
Redefining the unknown on my own
Melodic overdose
In you I heard a sign
Screaming from in the shadows
Emotions intertwined
Emotions intertwined

Of one mind and of one soul
We unite to write our code
So bleed your message at the tone
'Cause we don't have to feel alone
And of one mind, of one soul
We unite to write our code
'Cause in the company of hope
We don't have to feel alone
Feel alone
Feel alone
Feel alone

Let's get this fire started
Let's get this fire started

Everything you know in the focus
Live in the moment
Don't have to question why
Listen to the sound of the virus
You can't deny this
Get up and amplify

04. Thoughts & Prayers

Fuck!

I don't want this, I don't need this
I don't give a single fuck about your thoughts and prayers
Salvation in destruction
And I am the apostle of pain
There's more money in tragedy, and more net worth in self pity
So you're doubling down inside of your screen
Hiding behind attention you seek

There's nowhere left for you to hide the bodies!

Don't pray for me, when you're the one to blame
Don't think of me, when you go up in flames
Don't pray for me when you're the one enslaved
No miracles, just fantasy

So spare me your pity symphony
Wake up and get up off your knees
Handcuffed by Sunday fallacy
Crucify the saint in your soul

An addict for plaudit you get your crucifix!

Don't pray for me, when you're the one to blame
Don't think of me, when you go up in flames
Don't pray for me when you're the one enslaved
Don't wish me well, in your fantasy
Don't pray for me

You know the dead can't hear you
The holy well is dry
So when you face the truth
Open your fuckin' eyes!

Preying on the violence
You fabricate a script
Preaching to fill your pockets
But your god is counterfeit

You love to play the victim
Can I get an amen?
Yet you canonize yourself
While you wear this crown of shit!

Don't pray for me, when you're the one to blame
Don't think of me, when you go up in flames
Don't pray for me when you're the one enslaved
No miracles, just fantasy

You get what you pray for
You don't get anything playing the part when it's insincere
So give up the pain, give up the game
Just give up the holy ghost
You won't get what you pray for, won't get what you pray for
Won't get what you pray for!

Fuck!

05. Legacy

Forged in blood, etched in bone
The sacrifice, the war we know
I can feel it in my veins
Laced with gold but rich with pain

Do you want it?
Die for it
Nothing is ever given till you work for it
The choices that we make
Echo eternity

I'm not afraid to stand up, fists up
Never gonna give up
I'm lightning, no fear, just adrenaline
Jet black, heart attack
Thunder for a soundtrack
(Whoa-oh-oh, whoa)

(Hey!) What kind of scars will you leave?
(Hey!) What kind of blood will you bleed?
(Hey!) When fear sets the stage for defeat
(Hey!) What will your legacy be?

The darkest nights, the bitter cold
Live or die, our truth be told
I can hear it in my chains
A requiem for better days

I will fear not my death or destiny
Because death fears me

I'm not afraid to stand up, fists up
Never gonna give up
I'm lightning, no fear, just adrenaline
Jet black, heart attack
Thunder for a soundtrack
(Whoa-oh-oh, whoa)

(Hey!) What kind of scars will you leave?
(Hey!) What kind of blood will you bleed?
(Hey!) When fear sets the stage for defeat
(Hey!) What will your legacy be?

What will I become?
Forsaken or beloved?
Too far away to touch
What will I become?

So everybody stand up, fists up
Never gonna give up
I'm lightning, no fear, just adrenaline
Jet black, heart attack
Thunder for a soundtrack
(Whoa-oh-oh, whoa)

(Hey!) Deep are the scars I will leave
(Hey!) Black is the blood I will bleed
(Hey!) Yeah, nothing will hide underneath
(Hey!) What will my legacy be?

06. Undead Ahead 2: The Tale Of The Midnight Ride

Everyone that you love is dead
Unholy ghost of Crane's delirium
Trace the fear of your silhouette
You wanted madness?. Undead Ahead

Oh how the wind it whispers
The moonlit fog ignites
With Lucifer as witness
The pumpkin rides tonight

Crimson coagulates
Severed head bouquet
Body incomplete
Sealer of your fate
Crimson calligraphy
Written on the trees
Creature from the grave, Headless and hellbent for me

Line the streets
Murder for keeps
That's how you play trick or treat with a heart beat
Bloody does he, bloody does he storm through the gate way
Race the sunset, head for the bridge

You cannot kill that which has no soul or life to take
The blood of our beloved
The Hessian comes to claim

Crimson coagulates
Severed head bouquet
Body incomplete
Sealer of your fate
Crimson calligraphy
Written on the trees
Creature from the grave, Headless and hellbent for me

The woods, the woods
The bridge of souls too far to reach
You can't escape
Damnation on all hallows eve
This place is haunted
The woods, the woods
The bridge of souls too far to reach
You can't escape
Damnation on all hallows eve


Crimson coagulates
Severed head bouquet
Body incomplete
Sealer of your fate
Crimson calligraphy
Written on the trees
Creature from the grave, Headless and hellbent for me

Live or die in the tale of the midnight ride
Where reality and superstition collide
Close your eyes kiss your dearest Katrina goodbye
And beware of the tale, tale of the midnight ride

Revenge is cold and their heads will roll
Menace in the moonlight

07. Holding On To Smoke

I'm tired of feeling comatose
I've lost the me that I loved most
I'm barely holding onto smoke
I'm barely holding on to smoke!

I'm not addicted but I'm not clean
Why do I do this to myself on repeat
So disconnected from my own reality
Am I man or machine

If I give, will you take?
As I lie for the taste
I just fuck it up
As you lap it up

(Go!)
Through flesh and bone
I walk alone
(Go!)
If I run will I fade away
'Cause I don't wanna leave it behind

In all my pride, all my shame
I find strength enough to show you
I may bend but I won't break
'Cause I define who I
Define who I become

I miss the me that I have not met
Choking in silence on the words left unsaid
I feel a sickness for a home I've never been
And I exist in black and white but now I'm seeing red

I built a shelter in complacency
Locked myself in and set fire
And threw away the key
Too scared to live but I'm afraid to die
So am I living or am I just alive?

In all my pride, all my shame
I find strength enough to show you
I may bend but I won't break
I define who I who I become

'Cause I'm tired of feeling comatose
I've lost the me that I loved most
I'm barely holding on to smoke
But I'm holding on, I'm holding on

Broken! I'm holding on
Driven! To right the wrong
Silent! Connected yet I feel so separated
Fallen! Through flesh and bone
Frozen! I stand alone
Deafened! In silence the voice remains

Behind my eyes, beneath my rage
I was struggling to get through
Out of time and out of faith
I define who I become!

In all my pride, all my shame
I find strength enough to show you
I may bend but I won't break
'Cause I define who I
Define who I become

'Cause I'm tired of feeling comatose
I've lost the me that I loved most
I'm barely holding on to smoke
But I'm holding on, I'm holding on

I'm tired of being human, tired of being numb
I'm waiting for the holy ghost to come
So save me from the webs that I have spun
I'm holding on, holding on
I'm holding on
Holding on to smoke!

08. Another Life

If I can't let you go will darkness divide?
For the fiction of love is the truth of our lies
We were playing for keeps, but we both knew the cost
Now the only way out's in your heart-shaped box

But I hate that it seemed you were never enough
We were broken and bleeding but never gave up
And I hate that I made you the enemy
And I hate that your heart was the casualty
Now I hate that I need you

As we rest here alone like notes on a page
The finest to compose could not play our pain
With a candle through time I can still see your ghost
But I can't close my eyes, for it
For it is there where you haunt me most
Where you haunt me most

I hate that it seemed you were never enough
We were broken and bleeding but never gave up
And I hope that I sing through your memory
As we echo through time in the melody
Now I hate that I need you

And I hear you now when you said "it hurt
But it had to fall, fall apart to work"
As I see you now in what's left of me
Is it too late to plead insanity?

'Cause I hate that It seemed you were never enough
You were broken and bleeding in the name of love
And I hope that we meet in another life
I hope that we meet in another life
I don't hate that I need you
I don't hate that I need you
I don't hate that I need you

09. Broadcasting From Beyond The Grave: Death Inc.

Good evening
You're listening to Broadcasting from Beyond the Grave
Tonight's chilling episode: Death Inc.

Ow!

Can you hear the bell toll, little scarecrow?
Radio-you're burnin' like a star in a black hole
Did you get the memo? Pretty typo Romeo
Cutting you up like a Van Gogh

You're not fucking with us
We're not fucking with you
So you can fuck yourself
And your puppet suit
You're the wizard of flaws
We've got nothing to lose
So you can fuck yourself
And your little dog too

Yeah you can fuck yourself
We've got nothing to prove

We are the weirdos
In your stereo
Disco freak show
Death Incorporated
We are the weirdos
In the microphone
Supernatural
Death Incorporated

From beyond, yeah
Don't belong, yeah
Turn it on, yeah
Death Incorporated
From beyond, yeah
Don't belong, yeah
Turn it on, yeah
Death Incorporated

Do you feel like a psycho? Dirty needle rodeo
Painting your disease like a digital Picasso
Feelin' so bad that nobody's gonna need you
Spinnin' in your grave but nobody's gonna hear you

We are the weirdos
In your stereo
Disco freak show
Death Incorporated
We are the weirdos
In the microphone
Supernatural
Death Incorporated

Hush little baby, go for a ride
We'll take a little trip to the afterlife
Hush little baby, bump in the night
Demon in the daylight
Shadow in the limelight

From beyond, yeah
Don't belong, yeah
Turn it on, yeah
Drop the bomb

We are the weirdos
In your stereo
Disco freak show
Death Incorporated
We are the weirdos
In the microphone
Supernatural
Death Incorporated

From beyond, yeah
Don't belong, yeah
Turn it on, yeah
Death Incorporated
From beyond, yeah
Don't belong, yeah
Turn it on, yeah
Death Incorporated

Let's go!
Until next time
For more haunting tales of terror and mystery
This is Broadcasting from Beyond the Grave

Who's the boss now?
Who?

10. Brand New Numb

("I'm tryna fuckin' record this")
("Sorry")

I've got a shotgun tongue
And tick like a time bomb
All black everything
I've got a switchblade wit
That cuts like a bitch
And I think you two should meet

I wanna break free from my humanity
I wanna release the animal in me
B-b-b-break free [from] your curiosity
You're gonna give me what I need

I've got blood on my hands, no guilt on my conscience
The war in your path, the "sex in your violence"
All of my flaws, I wear 'em with honor
A purple heartbreak for all we've suffered

I am the enemy
I am the enemy
I am the enemy
Here to save the day
I'll be the enemy
E-e-e-enemy
I'll be the enemy
Enemy, enemy

I got a brand new
I got a brand new
I got a brand new
Brand new numb

I'm in your blind-spot, God while I get your rocks off, worship to the beat
I wanna thank you, come again, that was great, do you need a receipt?

I wanna break free from my humanity
I wanna release the darker side of me
B-b-b-break free [from] your curiosity
You're gonna give me what I need

Yeah I've still got blood on my hands, no guilt on my conscience
The war in your path, the "sex in your violence"
All of my flaws, I wear 'em with honor
A purple heartbreak for all we've suffered

I am the enemy
I am the enemy
I am the enemy
Here to save the day
I'll be the enemy
E-e-e-enemy
I'll be the enemy
Enemy, enemy

I got a brand new
I got a brand new
I got a brand new
Brand new numb
I got a brand new
I got a brand new
I got a brand new
Brand new numb

Give me liberty or death
Charge me more and pay me less
I said give me liberty or death
Ah fuck it, just give me death

(Let's go! Yeah!)
This one's for the underdogs

I've got blood on my hands, no guilt on my conscience
The war in your path, your mind is the target
All of my flaws, I wear 'em with honor
A purple heartbreak for all we've suffered

I am the enemy
I am the enemy
I am the enemy
Brand new numb
I'll be the enemy
E-e-e-enemy
I'll be the enemy
Brand new numb!

11. Catharsis

Catharsis, in darkness
When you can't seem to feel a thing
The absence, that haunts you
Won't hurt much longer

Catharsis, in darkness
When you can't seem to feel a thing
The absence, that haunts you
Won't hurt much longer

This feelings getting a bit harder to control
A place to feel completed or a place to be alone
The rhythm of rebellion from the rattle in your bones
A sonic liberation, salvation in your headphones

Darkest disguise
Leave it at the door
Bright lights divine
(Leave your body on the floor)

Catharsis, in darkness
When you can't seem to feel a thing
The absence, that haunts you
Won't hurt much longer

Stand in the shadows, entertaining the unknown
The words I always needed like I wrote them on my own
I sing for absolution, for the cleansing of my soul
Narcotic is the beating of our hearts to the tempo

Holding through time
Leave it at the door
Bright lights divine
(Leave your body on the floor)

Catharsis, in darkness
When you can't seem to feel a thing
The absence, that haunts you
Won't hurt much longer

(Woah...)

Catharsis, in darkness
When you can't seem to feel a thing
The darkness, that haunts you

Catharsis, in darkness
A place to feel the words we sing
The absence, that haunts you
Won't hurt much longer!