From now on there's an abscence of smile

Foul voices welcome me to loneliness
Graceful tunes on her lips have now ceased
This winter's here to surpass all the hopes
And dreams succumb to nightmares and freezing air

Now lonely is my road, path paved with bitter thoughts
Conception of beauty excluded from this heart
Within closed doors no-one speaks, behind barred windows no soul lives
As I walk the soil beneath my feet is crumbling?

She was my sun and now the light has faded away
Night condensing around me, leading astray
Shining image torn down, remembrance of her fades
Left but anguish and shame to haunt me in the shades

Should I be content with the memory of the life I had?
Or is the Hell knowing what we could have become?
- Quite indifferent as the tides of time have now turned
And the past is buried in a drift of whirling snow

?White sheet covering all things left behind?

And from now on there's an abscence of hope?

She was my sun and now the light has faded away
Night condensing around me, leading astray
Shining image torn down, remembrance of her fades
Left but anguish and shame to haunt me in the shades

So be it, perdition is my home,
Since the day it all came down

Trail amidst the snow-clad trees, winding is the way
Sunless is the path we roam, bitter is the air we breathe
Fell is the icy blast, coming from the hills
Blowing through my ailing heart, wailing in the emptiness inside

Vanished is the light we had, hidden deep in rimy soil
Bereft of us the one we cherished, lost for ever our love

Still at night I see her figure
Flickering on moonlit glades
But passing is the hope she´s giving
Just a faintest breath of air and she´s gone again

The clouds are moving heavily, across the livid sky
Yonder the hues are darkening, slowly turning grey to black
For the two who stray in dusk, all hope is long since gone
Cruel is the winter´s reign, merciless the grasp of despair

For what mirth there is left in life for a motherless son
What solace in this world for a widower to find

Slender the shape in night, unbearable the beauty
Shining in the silvery light, watching me with wistful eyes
Evanescent this vision, unattainable this illusion
But an image in my troubled dreams, hewn out of yearning and rue

If I only could I would
Change everything

Today is the day, the moment of reckoning
For too long I've been hiding this truth within my chest
Today is the day when I will come clean
Answer for my deeds and stand up for my faint-heartedness

If I only could I would change everything
Let the suffering be mine and only mine for this time

In your time of need I betrayed you
When I should have watched over you I walked away
Now there are two straying souls weak in faith

In your time of need I left you
When I should have been strong I turned my back on you
Now there are two straying souls about to break

When there now are two of us alone
There's not anymore anyone alone

Today is the day when I will face you at length
You my child have wept enough far too long swallowed your hate
Today is the day when I will promise to myself
Take care from you I've been running away and with for so many years

If I only could I would change everything
Let the suffering be mine and only mine for this time

Would you come and share
My cross, my pain, my heartbroken nature
For this burden is too heavy to bear
Too troublesome for one man to handle

Since my darkness swallowed
The last gleam of light
I've been rambling in the shadows
Hour after hour in the dark

They who never got sorrow,
Grinding grief in their hearts
Never lost a thing,
Never had a thing

They who never witnessed beauty,
That flamed even the all-encompassing night
Never lost a thing,
Never had a thing

Now these bitter tears run ceaseless,
And drown my hope far too deep
It must've been the day we parted
When I trapped this sadness in me

Since my darkness swallowed
The last gleam of light
I've been clothed in mourning,
Wearing sorrow day and night

And so does the downhearted tune
Resound through this murky night
And the wind groan its wistful song
For the ill-lucked dwellers in plight

These two round-shouldered figures
Forward slowly through this grey day
Under the forest's white canopy
Out of the drifting snow's way

With rime-dressed faces they wander
With guilt-carved hearts they flee
With grim-stained minds they hover
Between hope and despair

With rime-dressed faces they wander
With guilt-carved hearts they flee
With grim-stained minds they ponder
If they ever be free of their sins

May the stars become my eyes
And the wind become my hearing
Let them guide us through
These pitch-dark mornings

May the snowfall end
And the shining moon rise
So we can find our way out
From these all-consuming nights

Underneath the blanket of stars
Embraced by another cold night
Two round-shouldered figures
Leave these shores behind

Quietly they wonder
If they ever will see the light
They now lose in their shadows
Owe to the darkest of nights

Brought back from the silence
As darkness whitened into a day
Tried to weave the pieces together
Force the past away

Mind weary of sorrow
Body tired from the way
Welcomed yet another morning
Of longing and dismay

What have I for you to offer
Besides this long haul
Wade across vast snowfields
Journey through endless moors

Death walked the earth today
Without a sound, motionless
Forced its way into my arms
Caressed me with the dark

Dragged again up to surface
From the bowels of the earth
To face yet another morning
Breath gasping black steam of death

These are our waking hours
In cold sunlight we pine away
Towards yet another morning
Till following hopeless day

What solemnity can be found in this death?
A traitor's smile, the honour of betrayal

How comfort could be found in the dreariest of nights?
What solace for guilt-driven mind, tarnished heart?
Two crestfallen figures clinging together in fathomless dark
In maelstrom of despair dimming each other's shine

And half of his blood runs like mine - kindred spirit to me
But the gleam in his eyes remind of the one who is gone forever

When dreams carry me past this life, to thin shrouding mist
I rest in silence, in place lifeless and desolate

Long are midwinter's nights as the will to live has died
Evanescent the unwarming light, evoking memories of life
- Of the life long lost, buried in ashes of love and joy

And half of his blood bleeds like mine - kindred spirit, yet free
But the gleam in his eyes abates for my guilt shackles him too

What sublimity can be found in this love?
Weakling's trust, the moral of deceiver

There's no future for a son under this burden of grief
No leading to walk aside this tormented ghost
Two crestfallen figures clinging together in fathomless dark
In maelstrom of despair father suppressing the only shine

As the end is slowly looming our paths must now diverge
Pressure slowly easing, shackles unchained, uplifting

Beyond many a weary league
Where dimming light gives birth to evening stars
At the treelines of distant, devouring woods
Await my demons, embodying this longing

Better to sleep now on stranger's porch, find home on foreign soil
Brighter the sun to a forsaken child than to a father in despair
Disencumbered from this grief with the most cruel way
Deserted to be alone, abandoned to be free

This will be for now and for ever the diverging of our paths?

Now that this night has turned into a dawn
I step aside from this path of grieving
Left with all these things I never had chance to say
Words wishful, filled with caring

You must stop your bleeding
Before you run yourself dry
You must let go of your wound
Because love it is crying for is gone

Now that this night has turned into a dawn
I give up this life I have been leading
Left with all these things I never meant to say
Words deceitful, double-dealing

As every breaking day fades away before the dusk
So does hate pause and resentment turn to reason
You've carried enough this burden meant only for me to bear
Now it's your time to straighten up, time for you to walk tall
Alone?

Wretched is my lot here, mirthless is my fate
Alone to face the cruel winters, endure the dreary cold
What is there to hope for, what is there to seek
For this forsaken child, for this forlorn son

Whose sins am I now atoning for?
Whose lapses am I forced to undo?

So echoes my tune through these darkling shaws
Above the frozen streams resounds my song
Only these sullen trees will hearken to me
Only snow-bound hills ever hear my call

What is there to hope for, what is there to seek
For this forsaken child, for this forlorn son
For this embittered man, for this grim castaway

Solace I find in the light of the pale moon
My comfort in the night the murmur of the trees
Now I set forth without ever glancing back
It is time to make my own way through the dusk