Since the day they called me
And I heard you passed away
I had no peaceful night
No minute of rest

I can't hear myself think
No love left for another
This first night of winter
Was unison my own death

Come closer, dearest void
And choke me from the inside
Strangle me slowly
Or break my neck whilst the fall
It makes no difference to me
I don't care at all
Neglect the fall as long as
We keep on falling apart

You were not my closest friend
But the longest-serving
You were my fellow
Or at least you tried
But you died last winter
Strung up in the stable
They found you in the morning
Dead as our dreams

Tonight I'll get so terribly drunk
I'll lapse into coma
For fuck's sake
I'll drink myself into oblivion
'Cause the only way
To forget about you
Is to deafen all senses
Till deadness eventuates

Chance had thrown us together
And only death can part
If my attempt shouldn't fail
A bullet will all too soon conclude

Fuck this life

I reopen my scars
And fill the hole in my heart
With smack and wine
And I will lay down my bones
At this stone-cold river's muddy banks
One breath left
Until the void engulfs me
One breath left
And all belongs to the past

You were not my closest friend
But the longest-serving
You were my fellow
Or at least you tried
But you died last winter
Strung up in the stable
They found you in the morning
Dead as our dreams

Tonight I'll get so terribly drunk
I'll lapse into coma
For fuck's sake
I'll drink myself into oblivion
'Cause the only way
To forget about you
Is to deafen all senses
Until deadness eventuates

Fuck this life
Fuck my life

This was the year
Of the great depression
This was the year
I buried myself in the dust of days

Oh

The poems I wrote
For the last few years
Were nothing
But vague prophecies
But they abode
What they promised
So be careful what you wish for
You might get it

Some guys, they just
Give up living
Start dying little by little
Piece by piece
Some guys bury their hopes
Beneath disrooted trees
But most of them just die a wretched death
Near these streets

My memories got stolen
So hail to the thief
Irony causes laughter
But laughter causes pain

These mountains
One day, will soak the sea
But I won't witness
I won't neither hear nor see

I can already hear the chains
Clatter behind my ears
I can feel the flames
Searing all last evidence
That we have lost this battle
Doesn't mean we've lost the war
But only when we've lost everything
We'll be free to leave
We'll be free to leave

Oh

We shared the thirst of swans
In the summer
We shared alignment
The lack long after
This city will be the death of me
To be homebound
Will be the death of me

I can never regret, I can feel sorrow
But at least it's not the same thing
I take leave heavy at heart
Although it was out of our hands

Oh

It was out of our hands

Oh

We shared the thirst of swans
In the summer
We shared alignment
The lack long after
This city will be the death
Will be the death of me

Childhood ends
And all our dear friends leave the town
That we were born in
And grew up all together

Yearling is over
It's quite hard for me to be cheerful about it
'Cause the loss of secureness
Beggars my confidence by far

Within the end of everyday
I get more paranoid
By the certainty
Of mortality and death

Lunatic, I know
But just because I'm paranoid
Doesn't mean
They are not after me at all

It is beyond me
And concerning
And just that I know
Makes me grieve so deeply
I don't think we can start
All over again
It's a safe bet
'Cause nothing will ever change
Nothing will ever change

Sometimes things have to fall apart
To make way for better ones
This happens for sorts of different reasons
And most for the wrong

Sometimes I'm on the brink to stab my heart
Because of this sadness
But everything happens for a reason
Whether we like it or not
Whether we like it or not

Oh

This life dulled me abysmally
And crowned me the king of shards
Kept sucking me dry
Till there was nothing left but a mortal apparel

The sons of apathy
Consigned their souls to escort me
They won't see nor find me
Among their shadows

I'm a ghost now
I'm a ghost now

At least this claiming of death
Means nothing
And also life
In a sort is just a fallacy
I said before
To love, to die
All rigged in advance
Merciless devastating illusions

Oh

What you call love or affection
Is just a figment
Someday you'll see
I was so damn right

Distorted reflections
Daggers cutting lacerations
A lifelong tragedy
Scavenging vultures

Oh

It took me almost a year to come
I thought I'd appear here prior
Therefor shorter was the time
Until I found the place you sleep

Our past caught up
With me again
This horizon of mountains
Always threatening
Rose up behind me
Anything but well-disposed
Like an all-shattering orb

Well, that escalated quickly
Unsurprisingly
'Cause as we know now
We were raised by wolves
So take care
If you fuck with the past
The past at least
Won't fuck you

Never ever
This melancholy will pass
I set a foot in our city
And I feel so relegated
The days we lived here as kids
Don't seem too far gone
As we hid in these fields together
And bolt into the rye

I destroyed their childhood memories
In getting one thing straight
And in doing so
I tried to set their world on fire

Now I came for your graveyard
For the very first time these days
Set out for a fleeting visit
In the dead of a night, yeah

I carried this picture
For the last 280 days
Just to put it near your last smile
So near, but far beyond

Then I did all my tweak
And sniffed it off your tombstone
Oh, believe me, brother
I gulped it all in one

I'll never write peace on your wings
And let you simmer wordlessly
You promised me that if we leave this place
We set free as one

But you spoke the words of a coward
Fuck, what have you done?
Now I will smell their scorched earth
Until I retire my own worn body

Or I will finally choke
On this city's mephitic air

Never ever
This melancholy will pass
I set a foot in our city
And I feel so relegated
The days we lived here as kids
Don't seem too far gone
As we hid in these fields together
And bolt into the rye
And bolt into the rye

I can't remember why I left my hometown
And why I moved to this city
That got me stranded by the tide

I wonder who I was those days
And who I'm going to be
But to secure peace is still the best way
To prepare for war

This world
Made me an alcoholic
This world
Makes me wanna die
In my sleep

This world
Made me a junkie
Dyed-in-the-wool
This world
Made me a razor-eater
A homeless fool

No man is an island
Entire of itself
Every man is a piece of the continent
A part of the main

I'm involved in mankind
And so are you
'Cause we are both
Part of this vast and moribund clutter

Therefore never send to know
For whom the bell tolls
'Cause it tolls for you and me
It tolls for you and me

It tolls for you
For you and me

I didn't believe you
As you once compared love to flames
But I guess you were right
'Cause both leave nothing but ashes

For me
Love was never tied to conditions
In the end I loved you
But I chose darkness

I chose darkness
I chose darkness
Oh

My dear, I lost you
As this city lost me
We lost our shelter
We even lost the sea

Day after day keeps elapsing
Someday we'll call it years
I'm on my own now
But every stranger looks like you

The traces we leave are vague
But they still catch sight
Sadly, I'm still lost in this city
Where I shouldn't be at all

It's hard to wake up from a nightmare
When you're not even asleep
But this world breaks everyone
And afterwards some are strong at the broken places

The depressions got worse
And I buried all hope
Medications will change this fact
A life, a fever dream
Is never worth to be lived

A life bound in chains
Only worth to be shattered
I'll follow these shadows
To become one of them

Save me
From staying around like a shadow
Save me
From straying this maze of void
Escort me home
Mother of dearest demise
'Cause as a tragedian
I never learned to live

Everything great
Was built upon sorrow
Everything weighty
Is reasoned on our treasons
Not to be free
Once broke my heart
But leaving you
To erode me from the inside

I wear these wounds like a trophy
'Cause life's an only bloodline
I got born to this world as a stranger
And as such I'll leave it all behind

Oh

Everything great
Was built upon sorrow
Everything weighty
Was built upon blood and tears
But this has never been
My idea of living
To find what you love
And let it slowly kill you

Ooh

Time heals nothing
Time is just an appeaser
Time leaves the dust of days
Bears me as the outcast son

Sleep well, my friend
The journey has scarcely started
Pace yourself
We will still be walking for miles
I know the specters
That haunt you in your dreams
'Cause they already
Welcomed me as one of them

Death to everyone
Death to everyone

We are a generation lost
Born just to find all gods dead
All wars fought
And all faith in man shaken
A generation misunderstood
A generation in flames
The generation of the disrooted
And the damned

There goes all hope

There was way
Too much water
But these rivers
Refused to run dry
All world's wisdom
Lies buried beneath
But these rivers
They refused to run dry

There was way
Too much water
But these rivers
Refused to run dry
All world's wisdom
Lies buried beneath
But these rivers
They refused to run dry

Disabled and unarmed
We are adrift on this sea of life
A shoreless tide of disorder
Just to perish, just to sink

We reach the bottom faster than we think
We run out of breath
Pass the realm of shades and reach their end
Which is death

Oh, these rivers of nihil
So-called rivers of no return
Swallowed and will not disgorge me
For quite some time

They know their courses
Leading up the happy hunting grounds
They know the time of day
Know dead people won't return

I'm haunted by waters
Drawn together till the end of days
My dear, it will find me
Wherever I may roam

I feel enamored
Like moths are attracted to flames
I'm the deluge
The greatest flood of all
My own nemesis

I am the flood
I am the flood

Dry the river
Dry the river
Dry
Dry this river
Eh

Oh

You can stop now
Leading me up the garden path
I'm awoken
I see all people behind their masks

All these pale corpses
Hurrying along a winding path
Hurrying down these rivers
To their end, which is death

Ah

I always dared to know
You were entrusted to me
For a few years, as my charge
But not my property
I always hoped the dawn of days
Wouldn't raze all we edified
I may got dazzled
Despite the sun was
Always hiding from me

I hope you'll find
What you were always looking for
I hope you find the warmth
And the protection
I was unable to offer
For my own part, well
I just hope to find myself again
To unearth a long-lost part of me
Although I disbelieve

Bury me, bury me
In these starlit, cold waters
Bury me, bury me
In these much too shallow graves
Bury me, bury me
Once more, in the dust of days
Bury me, bury me
Among this river that once flooded this place

This dire tide of disorder
Once again pulled out the sand under my feet
Washed me away and got me stranded here
So far away from home

They are waiting for me
They are waiting for the world to end
Maybe I disguise
But writing this song made me think only of you

It won't be long
Until I'll face the ferryman
I'm sure he will be good to me
Eventually set me free

I'm sure I will find peace now
Finally eternal rest
For cartage, please withdraw
The obolos off my tongue

And let me sleep
And let me sleep
Oh

In one case I never had doubts
My passing will be a violent one
I'll be gone without a warning
And all I'll leave: this cryptic letter

This life deadened everything inside
All that I loved was carried away
I must have passed the point of no return
Felt like a thousand years ago

I'm going home now