Locked up behind these walls ages of trying to cope

Behind december's walls years and years of finding myself this was the longest journey
I've ever made days of wasting tears and no one cares countless nights
Drowning in worthless nightmares ages of trying to cope ages of not giving up hope

Keeping alive the hope for a deeper sense
For a better understanding of my world, my destiny, my goals and mysel climbing out of that endless misery
No security, no confirmation of an end alone in the masses

Is there anybody on my side? please appear now I feel myself slowly crumbling and when the rain is coming
I can feel myself melting into the ground becoming the puppet I never meant to be

I don't know how, I don't know why, so sure I don't deserve this but there came an eastern wind that brought me forward
Pushed me out of the sludge formed my actual self, buried my inner demons locked up behind december's walls

The rain can't force me down anymore I'm strong enough to hold back the storms
Now seeing my visions clear like never before from that day I met you

For what you are, for what you saw in me now I can see clearly all the wrong pathes
I took the prospect is perfect from the roof I see down the walls I am bulletproof

And if the vultures are ever circling above me again you can be sure I won't let you go
Because I know you can still feel my passion strengthened by the scars I've collected in the past
I will move heaven and earth to save this because I'm bulletproof

Restless we raise, we fall

What was that, where the hell have I gone through? what happened to me?
Realize that I've lost control my body is paralyzed, my mind is blurred on the ground like a fallen leaf
Fallen from the trembling tree not living, just killing time I'm afraid to lose what was mine

I feel so restless we raise, we fall

What if this was my last breath? foreign in my own body and mind it seems like I'm stranded on a dark cloud
Where there's no place to hide alone, alone in the dark
Hoping for my sunrise somebody must hear my inaudible cry for help please show me the way out

I'm chasing the wind and try to catch the light how many hours will it still take?
Staring up to the clouds above and listening to the same damn song over and over again
I want to run away from myself because at any moment everything can change

What is this, what was that? how many hours will it still take? what is this, what was that? I want to run away from myself

what is this, what was that? I assume it's the normal circle of despair after touching the sky and now it is falling down on me was it worth it?
Was is it really worth it? what if I can't ever be free anymore?

Is this the reality or just an illusion? bite my tongue to see if I can still feel time vanishes into oblivion, into a black hole please help me out

Face the truth, we are surrounded by lies this ship will sink
Never sleep with closed eyes don't follow those voices a little closer to the ground
Pieces are falling and they will never be found my belief breaks into a thousand shards

I will refuse to face defeat nobody wants to face the truth
The moment has come to turn the page they said you have to swallow your pride and learn to adapt but I'm unwilling to be one of those
Who just sits back in the dark, fuck I'll take back what was mine

Broken reality falls down on me, the world is my enemy am I the only one who can see through the mask?
I envy your calm, can't you see the hurricane? no time for reproaches
I warned you again and again where do we want to belong to now?
Write your name on your lifeboat and follow the lifeline escape the squall for the last time

We'd rather live one day in this selfish world as a wounded lion than a hundred years as a controlled sheep leave this shit behind
No time to sleep we climb this wall, no fears to fall we won't give this shit up till we reach the top
I promise it will be the brightest spot this is our target

We never stop, we never forfeit, I can not abort it no exception to permit just look into my eyes
They're reflecting your fear from the past few years but this is not the end no
This is not the end believe me or not but this right here is not the end

Take your place, it's time to move give me a knife for those ropes
Give me something to break these chains give me the command to bring the ship back on course again

Back to zero escape the fate, it's time to chose take your place, it's time to move
Back to zero escape the fate, it's time to chose rewind the past, you must approve

Raise your fist, this is your last chance we won't turn away and turn black back to grey

And I'm sure someday the colours will visibly gleam again

The sun sets, reality becomes tactile the bitter taste of life is killing the smile on my face
Shaken up by reality but never give up no matter how hard it will be

There's no way to escape, there is no shortcut all of sudden everything changes and from now on every breath feels so strange
A stab in the back without warning fall asleep and hope all is forgotten in the morning

I'm paralyzed I close my eyes and try to set the time back

I just want to fall into a deep sleep wake up and realize that everything was just a nightmare somebody take this away from me

These cursed ups and downs this mental pressure, sometimes hope drowns how long does it still take till the chains around my neck break

Broken mirrors - I can't see the reality clearly millions of sharp pieces are starring at me

Please, I can't bear to see you fall again but I know you'll never give up never!

Living day by day with remorse but I try to push it to the back of my mind my hands are shaking
I can't resist no more, I can't fight back brick by brick, step by step, stick by stick look at me, what have I become?
From time to time I feel like everything in me is dead do you know what it's like to sleep forever endless thoughts
Blinded by drugs, numb the pain, it never stops

I say it's the last time and cross my fingers behind my back for myself no regrets for a long time and all my habits will come back

Lift my glas to the end of the past back to the start because time runs too fast forcing myself to breath
I see myself but it's not really me my enemy is me lie to myself
Hope everyday again that I lose my selfproduced pain I try to leave this cage inside and refuse to listen to the voice in my head

Got to lose my craving (for more) I need to get out of this

Forever bound, forever in chains I have to live forever with this shadow on my face

It was never gone and I guess it will never go away I can't decide which way to take to find my bliss there's no light I can follow
No god I can believe in please help me out of this I take my last hit before I get sick please help me out of this

I say it's the last time and cross my fingers behind my back for myself
No regrets for a long time and all my habits will come back tear me down and let me drown

Tomorrow (I promise) I'll break up but only tomorrow I don't want to chase the dark clouds anymore break free

I try to escape from this cage and turn the next page I walked these cold streets all by myself
So the last steps I'll cope under my own steam no dreams at night only daydreams

I tried to hide it from the ones I love but I can't pretend anymore, I can't hide anymore

Break free

Hey you I know that you hear me, I know that you feel me, no chance to set you free
I know that you fear me and that you can't see me I know all your diary stories and all your dirty secrets that you can't hide
I know that you know me, but you can't tell anyone

You can't locate me anymore the idea of innocence is ridiculous, just steer away from these recurring thoughts you are a liar
You are a masquerader maybe you can mislead your environment maybe you can convince your friends and enemies

Just smile and go away, just cry and hate yourself but you can never deceive me I can feel that you are trying to deny my existence

When you are fighting against your ego and your misgivings there is no one who could help you
No one who would believe you when we would appear together, enrage united forgetting what's right or wrong
What's laudable or vile too many stories untold, too many facts unrecognized

It's already enough never try to deceive me and now you can feel me clearly never try to deceive me

Now you can learn to accept my terrifying antic this is truly the end
This is cruelly the truth but I do as I always did, because you are I, and I am you we're coming from the depths

Breath in, breath out without a sound keep breathing, day in day out speak up, shout out, somebody will hear you no matter what
I'm going through - with or without you

Sometimes this world resembles a dead garden without blooms a park full of barren trees or like a song without melody
A laugh without a sound and sleep without dreams shadows without sun or a sky without any shining stars
This world is a fire without heat
Can you here the clock?

A life without dreams you won't find another world other than this one

You consume what they urge you to guided by the masses brainwash
No ifs, no buts everything makes sense to you it leaves deep scars behind but no matter what - keep breathing, day in day out

Speak up, shout out, somebody will hear you no matter what, I'm going through - with or without you

Everything is delusion I step outside, close the door and even at this time I feel boxed in everything is delusion
Trust in nothing escape as long as you can the fire without heat, the life without dreams

The frames are blank and the flowers are fuckin' dead I'm drowning in thoughts
The time has come once again overslept the whole day
Still lying on my bed and weltering back and forth thousands of thoughts whiz around in my head
It's hard to explain what's still growing in me

Just look into my eyes for the last time the time has come for me to rise

My mind was covered by shadows dark forces have pulled me away for too long
The half life I follow on this railroad line but my train has left the station for a long time
I just wanted to wake up from this nightmare but there was no way to turn the page

Issues, fears of loss, paranoia, jealousy at some point I just wanted to run
To run away but you didn't want to face what we have become
Can you see what you've done to me and to yourself?
Dead slowly I can recognize myself in the mirror again

Tonight I try to forget the frames are blank and the flowers are fuckin' dead it's my life now I take it back

I was waiting for the problems to solve themselves too weak to resist
The fight against you and myself the more I've searched the less I've found
This is the last time that you drag me back down

Fragments of dreams half asleep, nothing is what it seems you let me down
You let me drown I'm never looking back again, you got that?

I was just a mask with a crooked smile you tried to control me for quite a while
I was on the ropes for too long nothing left but a bitter taste on my tongue but now I know how to hide the scars
The time has come for me to rise again

Free fall into a deep sleep with a box of photos on my knees into a world without time and space
It's hard for me to cope with when I'm awake

All my life I was cutting corners
I always felt like a useless stoner
Every step I took was in slow motion

Heal the past, let go of what was live the present
Accept what it is dream of the future
Have faith in what will be but time heals nothing unless you move along with it

I try to breast the waves in the ocean everything that happen in my head is real
The moon is my spotlight and now you can see how I feel

Time flies, the time arrives
No moment to waste, no memory to repress
No place to hide, no lie to deny

Always searching for the faults and imperfections
A gilded cage I can't escape hoping for an insight
I will probably never find the clock is ticking

Time is the wave upon the shore it takes some things away but it brings other things set the anchor in the bay

The sound of the moving water makes everything fade away but I must wake up my eyes slowly adjust to darkness now
I know a clean surface will rise the sun shines through the dark clouds

J. Robert Oppenheimer:
"A few people laughed, a few people cried. Most people were silent.
I remembered the line from the Hindu scripture, the Bhagavad-Gita;
Vishnu is trying to persuade the Prince that he should do his duty, and to impress him, takes on his multi-armed form and says,
"Now I am become Death, the destroyer of worlds.'
I suppose we all thought that, one way or another."

Malala Yousafzai:
"Why is it that countries which we call strong are so powerful in creating wars but are so weak in bringing peace?"

John F. Kennedy:
"We have the power to make this the best generation of mankind in the history of the world or to make it the last."

I step into a world a world I have never seen before where the haunt is bagged and love is the core

Warm lights surrounding my unfrozen mind
Time is standing still for a blink of an eye I'm no longer a slave of the human kind
My deepest fears seem to have lapsed my enemies, antagonists, already collapsed
Now it feels like the biggest fight has been won in this life but who's able to follow me over the edge of the knife?

Imaginary land please be real, I don't want to leave you anymore so please be sealed keep that burning door locked forever

I need to save the new essence
Let me breathe in the smell of hope until my disappearance
This is the new freedom called peace
Pick up the trail and follow me, away from the worlds disease

This is the place for those who don't give up
The final destination beyond selfishness and every spiteful act
I see your laughing face full of salvation, but wait, there is something more
Suddenly I'm in a fight against the question
Like a spike in my mind, unable to ignore

Searching for a reason I can't find what am I even looking for?
Only one black thought and my knees are shaking
I can feel my heartbeat, hear my heart scream
The gloomy sounds of a tremor makes me breathless like a wicked hand
It's on my neck

Trying to suppress my peace of mind the lights turn green and I watch reality thrive what the hell is happening
This place can't break I need to stay but I can't hide billows of smoke breaking through the ground
I'm falling but I don't want to be crawling out of my skin
The sad reality is catching up with me

This is the awakening