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Caligula's Horse - Charcoal Grace lyrics



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01. The World Breathes With Me

So this is who we are
Forced to want to watch the sorrow
The short leash and the led
The suicide, the addict, the voyeur, the dead

Are you comfortable? Did you do enough of nothing?
Hand to hardened lungs and barely breathing
So tell yourself there's peace on Earth and sing us all to sleep
And now you shake your fist, and spit and curse the question:
Why tell these bloody hands to waste their hate on this beautiful life?

So tell yourself there's peace on Earth
The words that cost a weeping's worth
I hear the echoes in the dirt
When silence took the loudest first
God forgive us
Peace on Earth

No, I can't watch anymore
Close your eyes, love, and wait 'til we learn from war
'Til echoes for the deaf are all that's left
So give me peace or give me
Your futile reckoning, little dreams for little men
Truth, a patient weapon, waits to sting the spiteful again

So tell yourself there's peace on Earth
The words that cost a weeping's worth
I hear the echoes in the dirt
When silence took the loudest first
Please forgive me

I want it, and I deserve it
The fractured and the frail lie below to feed it
I want it, and I believe it
Reflections of myself, the crime, the crowd, the creedless
I want it, and I deserve it
The fractured and the frail lie below to feed it
I want it, I want the world I know

Close your eyes
No, I can't watch anymore
Close your eyes
I made mountains, I shook the earth
The flood, the voice, the blood, what the peace was worth
Oh, let me drift from the shore

I want it
I want it
I want it

On the road to ruin, and we're still walking with stones to weigh us down
But hey, I'm still breathing
On the road to ruin, as long as you're with me, I'll be singing

I breathe, and the world breathes with me
I breathe, and the world breathes with me
I breathe, and the world breathes with me
I breathe, and the world breathes with me
The world breathes with me

The world is in me

The world breathes with me

02. Golem

A slow burn, down to the last dead letter
Sulphur to cover up the smell of the blood in the water
Absolve me
Could kick out the flame but we both know better than to follow a road to its end
Just give me that feeling again
Sing

A slow burn
A bite to the bone, a shudder
Lay down and die in the mud like a good little soldier
Absolve me
Could kick out the flame but we both know better
You'll follow that rope to its end to give me that feeling again

Now sing, wreck

A slow turn
Blind to the verdant mother
Lay down, refusing to believe it's over
Absolve me It's a kick in the teeth I'm not that better man
And I'm on my knees at the end to beg for that feeling again

Sling hope around your neck

When you fell out of the world, you saw that it still turned
Only mercy for the dead
Sling hope around your neck
You're not done yet

You don't learn
Still striving to understand
Stay down
The tongue bites the blood for a taste of the backhand
We're home free, but fixing the fight leaves us all no better than the hammer that's striking the nerve
We're getting just what we deserve

Now sing, wreck
Now sing, wreck

Take wrong and ruin intertwined and pour your nothing into mine
Where do I put the violence? He's gone, and I still carry it
Golem

For all the peace you'll never find, for all your little suicides, you turn and face the bayonets
It's time
Get up and finish it
Golem

Follow that rope to its end to give me that feeling again
Now, sing

When you fell out of the world with no hope to return, did you think we would forget?
Sling hope around your neck
You're not done yet

O, Mother, won't you save me?
O, Mother please, we're bleeding out
Just send the sun to face me and tell me that I'm needed now
O, Mother, won't you pull me down?
I'll raise a voice
I'll pay the debt
Don't let the silence take me yet

03. Charcoal Grace I: Prey

This is where we find ourselves
Too far gone to save
A shroud over shame, I'm
Just doin' what you taught me
This is where we find ourselves
The fountain and the well
I'll smile my way to my own hell
Armed with what you left me

There's no room for me
In your small heaven
But nothing could erase me
Or what I am

I am the weight, the worry
I am the hurt, the hurry
Without the hate to carry
I could have been somebody
I am the wait, the worry
Without the hate to carry
I could have been somebody
I could have been somebody
I am the weight, the worry
I am the hurt, the hurry
Without the hate to carry
I could have been somebody
I am the wait, the worry
Without the hate to carry
I could have been somebody
I could have been somebody

This is where we find ourselves, oh
Crack in the wall, the doubt consumes while
You let your righteous fury burn with hallowed hate
You prey

But there's no room for me
In your small heaven
Nothing could erase me
Or who I am

You cast your shadow
Darkening everything south of the sun
I won't follow your accord to cut me loose
When it bound me here to watch you trade truth for a noose
Screaming, "Down we fell"
So give me hell
Tell God I wish him well

Bow down and taste the end
It's a, a bitter pill, mind
Did you plan to take the world with you
And leave your guilt behind?
"The soil is tainted"
Your words, not mine
Just scars and sabotage the legacy
You left it all to me

So go on, raise your hands, sing "Hallelujah"
Song of the dead for those who survive
The time of our lives
So we smile

Bow down and whisper words that you
You can't make us forget
You bow down, you bend your knee
To the newborn hypocrites
So bow down, give in
New gods consuming
Sweat and sickness is the legacy
You left it all to me

So go on, raise your hands and drink from the grail
Just aching to drive that last coffin nail
In the ways that we failed
On we sail

(With hallowed hate, you prey)
We're all waiting, can you prey on peace?
(Wordlessly, we welcome silence in her grace)
I could bind my heart to anger
And hold my breath for bliss that was promised me
While the desperate hands of vengeance demand to deliver me
It begins in me, how they cling to me
Pleading

04. Charcoal Grace II: A World Without

I just wish that you would answer
Just once
Are you plannin' to forget me, boy?
A world without me is just not enough, not for me
So pray that there's a heaven
No, I meant to say I missed you
And I'm sorry for everything I said to you and your mother
Did I say I missed you yet?
Well, they say there's not much more time
Just call me when you get this
Please, call me back, son
I take it all back

I'll break the monster you've become
(A world without me's not enough)
(A world without me's not enough)
You brought us hell, I have no son
(A world without me's not enough)
(A world without me's not enough)
Overwhelm and justify till someone remembers me
I ran from death to drown on breath
A world without me's not enough
Overwhelmed and terrified he's waitin' to judge me
I know I said there's hope above
A world without me's not enough

(Not enough)
A world without me's not enough
(Not enough)
A world without me
(Not enough)
Ooh, a world without me, oh
(Not enough)
A world without me's not enough

One quiet voice left by sympathy stained
When misery mends, we wash it away
You cast your shadow
Lingering only as long as the sun
I won't follow
Not a day you wouldn't gladly devour
To let the rot make a roost in the refuse
But down you fell
So give me hell
Tell God I wish him well

05. Charcoal Grace III: Vigil

So let us drink to your health
The gift of eating the world's wealth
I would offer up to the numb
And sign a wordless welcome

To silence
In her charcoal grace
To silence
In her charcoal grace

A final lesson to teach
The dream that none of us reached
A reel that shook the fearless
All helpless to bear witness

To silence
In her charcoal grace
To silence
In her charcoal grace

Gone
Thе scars too old for a coup
Or this new fight for
What I could find in myself
To forgive you and grow
Down to thе soil and bones
Even with you gone now
I promise that you'll have no such satisfaction
I refuse to heal, I refuse to let go
There'll be no peace for the prey you ravaged
Finally choosing to embrace the damage
I refuse to heal, I won't break from the chain
Now the choice is made, stamp the fire out
They're my shackles now, my righteousness

I will burn this hateful world to silence
In her charcoal grace
To silence
In her charcoal, her charcoal grace

06. Charcoal Grace IV: Give Me Hell

Preach to me again
Colour the wrong in me
Into the earth, your creed surrendered
More than you deserve
Still as she slowly fell
When by your demand, despair could house the holy
Ruin will reveal
As rot takes the breath in you
You shriek at your shadow overhead as it leaves you
Terrified to fade away
But death and decay don't wait for the gods we create
So hit me again, I'll spit out the blood of your saints

Give mе hell, releasе the weight
That quiet voice would let you take it back
But you're only here in this reflection
Go on, preach to me on love again
I would bear this hate into the depths to see you choke on it
Hell is you
Hell is you

I am the wait, the worry
I am the hurt, the hurry
Without the hate to carry
I could have been somebody
I am the wait, the worry
Without the hate to carry
I could have been somebody
I could have been somebody
I am the wait, the worry
I am the hurt, the hurry
Without the hate to carry
I could have been somebody
I am the wait, the worry
Without the hate to carry
I could have been somebody
I could have been somebody

Give me hell, give me the grace
Give back the years you stole and beg me
I can still see you here in my reflection
Go on, preach to me on hell now
I am the hate you gave me
I am only what you made me
Hell is you

07. Sails

So on I sail, those cliffs behind
And all was quiet in my mind
New worlds I thought that I could see
And promise waiting there for me
A quiet place to fill my cup
No storm, no hate, no, not enough
But all that land I thought I found
Was only water for the drowned

I woke to see the storm had eased
But still, I could not make my peace
When plenty came to empty me
Of all the things I dreamed we'd be

Son, you can't fight the waves as they break
Your prayers for mercy, the water will take
A promise thе world has been whispering to man
"Never again"
So nеver forget the ways we failed
On we sail

The water rose with roaring sound
As we all raced for the low ground
And all masks fell there on the shore
And all I've ever been is war

So on I sail, those cliffs behind
Of many more, this war is mine
A heavy weight, this empty cup
I've carried all I've given up

Son, you can't fight the waves as they break
Your prayers for mercy, the water will take
A promise the world has been whispering to man
"Never again"
So never forget the ways we failed
On we sail

08. The Stormchaser

Never enough truth to keep you safe and well in the
cocoon you knit for no one else
You never thought it could change
You could stay the shame
You never could see the water in spite of the rain
Then it rose, and you dove just when you needed float

Listen to me
Into the churn
There will be no pretty words to swallow
This is a test
It's not a war
Watch as we weather the storm together

We are the calm, here for the few
We could be shelter and shore
Heads above water
So come for the king, stay for the view
Proud of the nothing you grew when we stood against the
storm

It's never enough
You, the first and last to know
You proud empty hands through the crowd that bears the
load
You never thought it could change
"Storms will pass, and I remain", and turned away the
moment it came over wine-dark sea
Thunder over the wine-dark sea
Thunder, what will become of me?
Thunder over the wine-dark sea

Seas and storm
All that was sacrificed
The blood for the pride
That clarion cry like stones in your throat
The anchor and rope to keep you afloat

Deafened to me
This is the churn
There will be no pretty words to swallow
This is a test
It's not a war
Watch as you sink the storm, untethered

We are wild wind to the scorn
We could be shelter and shore
Heads above water
So come for the king, stay for the view
You're fighting for nothing but you, while we stood against
the storm

So when we heard that thunder over the wine-dark sea
No wave could drag me under
And ocean of arms to carry me
I, the undeserving
I, the hanged man was held aloft, and safe the last
So where is you sworn compassion?
Your condescending lie
Is the love you promised?
How could you be so goddamn blind?
When we hear that thunder, the echo and alarm were
your footsteps, running for the calm

When we stood against that storm
When we stood again
When we stood

09. Mute

I made mountains, I shook the earth below
Flood from the fountain, I carved my name in stone
And I stood on the mountain with nothing in the way
Feet firm on the mountain with no voice to speak
And nothing left to say

The heart beats in your breath
So in breathing, be for a while
Not yours but our breath
Not yours but our breath
It's not yours
You breathe with me
And speak in this broken and empty voice
Of ours

The world breathes you till dead you lie
Won't you sing to me for a while?
My voice is your voice
Not yours but our voice
So rejoice, ensnared with me
Enchained in this stasis that left me mute

And I've seen how soon we erase
Illuminate and save us both
And I, I swear, I'll do what it takes
Illuminate the way back home and run into light
But fixed there by defeat
I was feet-firm when the ground gave way

I am the silence you deserve
You've no redemption coming
Oh, look at you, smiling as you lie
The gift you have for taking
Are you still waiting for the colour from the hate
You thought you could hide in you?

So who could save me now?
There was no salvation when the river ran dry
Oh, so many times that I put out that fire
But who could save me now?
In the muse, a liar sedating me
Show no mercy, I'll take a final bow
But who could save me now?
It was you that held the line
You fought that fight
And in the year we died, you found yourself alive
But who could love me now that I am broken?
That I am this?
These shards of broken glass, the future in my hands
Who could love me now?

Hope left, but I made mountains
Find the road, illuminate it

I've seen the view as it wakes
Illuminate and crave for hope again
I swear, I'll do what it takes
Illuminate, I'm running home on
On the road to ruin
I started walkin' with gauze still in my mouth
And tried to keep from choking
On the road to ruin, we let the ground give way
With one voice to speak, and everything to save