Trapped inside my subconscious
laying frozen under my thoughts
trying to reach something
but im scared that it cuts

sinking deeper in my bed
serching for a thing
im afraid to find it because i might just go insane
im afraid to touch it because i might just go insane

time passing by breaks my home
telling me to leave alone
the shivers crawling up
restraining me from moving

feeling absence of thought in mind
but thinking of you and me inside
trying to forget the dreams i hope are true

i can hear chimes above my home
i can feel them in my bones
like a voice of reason
restraining me from moving

holding hands with a will to die
feeling the absence of yours in mine
suffocating delusions - dreams that cant come true

I sit and wait;
quiet and patient with chaos in my head
i lay in silence, cold and at war
the strings aren't worth holding on to
and above the clouds
where everything's got a halo tint around it
pleading: "im beautiful, look at me" - speechless

taking everything in sight from the selfless and helpless cries of your loved ones that once were
pleading, receiving, a vast amount of time forgotten, time that's rotten in a few weeks - a false perception of sober in white, and mindless indulgence that shows up just once, it lasts for months
it lasts four months
its just this once

until its over
until im sober
not my last, until it is
until im sober
ill blow this over
not my best... ill try again.

im spinning in circles
and screaming in silence
ill wait to get better
so soft in this violence

vrtim se v krogih
in derem se u stene
use bo uredu
ma sej mi je usejn

Your face, erased
broken up and unlaced

the sky opens up as it pours from the sky, its not rain, its pure blood, its tears and im dry

i wasn't made to be like this,
i wasn't loved i wont be missed
point and laugh

im dry but everything around me is wet in this flood that will wash up anything that's dead
i will escape and leave it behind, ill take the last train and ill make it in time
and watch as it takes you underwater
the tide rising with the moon; it read crimson although you swore it was blue

you swore. you promised.
and i made the mistake to believe.
im bored, but cautious.
and you wont be the first one to leave

with my face, erased
broken up and unlaced

my love, am i that hard to love?
am i that hard to love?
am i that hard to love?
with my dead heart of love
am i that hard to love?
am i that hard to love?
with my heart full of love
everything i let go of has got
bite marks on it from my love.

Вона тихо крадеться без шуму,
Битва всередині розуму,
Занадто голосно, занадто швидко, занадто...
Ненавидіти себе - ти зможеш, так легко.

Раптовий біль в животі,
Слідом за ним - страх.
Я зрадженний?
І ти зробив би теж саме?

Забуду, як тільки згадаю,
Загублений у вічній провині,
Впав, покинувши осінь,
Ганебна пляма, на імені.

І ти ніколи більше не полюбиш,
Майже ніколи.

З того часу йде дощ...

Vzemi me, vse kar je
moje telo, moje vse.

Na moje najboljše jutro, me je zjutraj, čez okno zbudila bolezen in zdaj nepremično ležim v odpadkih prejšnjega večera.
So dnevi, preležani pr teb, jutra, ki jih otvorijo tvoje oči, nikol niso bla lažja za umret, enkrat, sred mgle.

Spet en deževen dan, ki ga pozabiš, zlepa, zgrda, si ga pokvariš,
bo odmeval v lužah spominov, na pesem obešenih besed.
Že spet deževen dan, s tabo ob meni;
ni tako moker, ni tako siv, ni tako mrzel, kot bi lahko bil in čeprav bi cel dan preležala - noben od naju ne bi biu gnil.

Ker sovražim dž, ampak s tabo ob seb, bi stal v njegovem nalivu, za vedno bolj slep.
Ko voda me strezne, slepote me reši,
spet bom zaljubu se v tvoje oči -

Tonem v njih, ubij me v njih,
sram me je, ko kradeš mi dih.
Padam v njih, nemorem od njih,
strah me je, ker kradeš mi dih.

Vzemi me, vse kar je,
moje telo, moje vse.
Imaš me že odkar si tle,
pogled v oči je bil vse.

Ko se dela dan - v tvojih očeh
sem jutranje sonce in praske na tvojem obrazu.
v kolenih mi odpoveš za zvečer
in na tvoja lica padem
kot zvezde iz vseh vesolj

solze in kri na mojih dlaneh
obesla bi se za tvoj pogled
na hitr, sam enkrat
ob teb čutim vse naenkrat

sej veš, da špukam srce v tegobi resnice
ne veš, izdolbla ime sm si zrd krivice
iz dneva u dan, slišm use, vidm še več
iz dneva u dan, spim vse manj, ker sanjam preveč

sm ti vse? sm ti odveč?
me vidiš zdej, ko derem se?
hočeš telo? hočeš še več?
če ti je preveč sam reč: preveč mi je

v meni, ljubezen - pasja, nasilna
ne pozna časa, pozna samo strah
nemarno ščene, ki laja v stene
skozi mrzle upe nekdanjega poljuba... mar ga ni sram?

v meni, ljubezen - nemirna, pravilna
spomni se vse, nobenmu ni mar
pozna vse modrice na svojem telesu
hlasta za dotikom, ki ne boli več, še vedno preveč

v meni, ljubezen - tužna, neslišna
ne spomni se več, ostane le strah
komaj da lajež odmeva čez hodnik,
obuja spomine pozabljene u tem'
me vidiš, kot sem?

Alex: Falling back, crawling back

Julian: I haven't slept in weeks

Alex: my guts on the floor, im breaking my neck

Julian: My mind, preoccupied with thoughts,

Alex: for you im falling and scraping my knees

Julian: of how we both took things we shouldn't have.

Alex: im crawling this minefield and drowning in seas

Julian: And I've lost the tools to mend my reasoning.

Alex: taking back the love i gave

Julian: So I think, I think I'll just smash my head on the concrete floor,

Alex: i think i fell, but couldn't save myself

Julian: atleast then I'll be able to catch some rest.

from eyes that cry white lies, taking away the cold of
this ice cold heart of mine,
of your fine line of guilt, of my light love spilled

my heart on the floor, breaking up i needed more
these hands hold the past and rest assured it's my last hope
i've danced this same dance to a different song each time,
a different person every night but that's alright, that's always fine

i'm loosing tempo and a never-ending fight
in which i've lost most of my life after a final kiss goodnight
that leaves me empty every night that i can't sleep
and laying next to you i feel the home i never did before

mogoče pride enkrat dan, ko vidiš napake,
izbrane sam zate in iz mrtvašnce najne bo odmevalo zanj.
mogoče pride enkrat dan, ko noč bo končno pozna in moje ptice selivke dočakajo pomlad.

biting skin, leaving marks
hurting me, our bleeding hearts
come undone with undertone of
prettiest eyes and the words they told

this room will spin forever and never
again ill be this hand-sewn together
made for you doll with stitches in eyes that see
you're still so cold, please unloathe me