My world seemed perfect
so warm and full of harmony
I saw a future so constantly...

But I was blinded by the light
I did not see what was behind
I did not recognize the truth
Instead, I put my trust in you

I forgot that trust means pain
I forgot that nothing is forever
I forgot that life's an unfair game
Witch you can't win, never ever!

It's hard to push forward while everything I desire lies behind me...

I will not recure what went wrong
I will not be a fool anymore
I will not be as blind as before
Never again!

After all I'm alone in the rain
but I've learned to strangle the pain
To see my life in a different point of view
I no longer care about you!

Do you know the kind of feeling
Which says everything's alright
While you know it's not?

Do you sometimes take a look in the mirror
Asking yourself what's wrong
What is true and what's a lie?

I remember the day that changed my life forever
I remember the moment that opened my eyes
Since them I'm different, not the same anymore
Life showed me a better way, I just had to open the door

I hated myself for so many years
I fought, night by night, thousands of fucking tears
But I have learned that my point of view is the only thing that matters
I have learned to accept the fact that I'm just not like others!

Days in grey, senseless hours
There were so many, I stopped to count
To save my will to live

I did not see the beauty of flowers,
The green of woods, the smile of the sun
I was forlorn in agony

I hated myself for so many years
I fought, night by night, thousands of fucking tears
But I have learned that my point of view is the only thing that matters
I have learned to accept the fact that I'm just not like others!

I hated myself for so many years!
But the chance of a new life was always near!
I changed my life, walked a new line instead of an old one
But in the end I am as blind as before and I'm still not like others!

I can remember times of peace and of complacency
where fear was a fairy tale my parents narrated me
but my world turned fast into a desolate place in the dust of time
no one else around me, just their old forgotten signs!

When I close my eyes, I feel loneliness for beyond redemption
When I close my eyes, there is nothing left but isolation
so many people surrounded me, my whole life long
but like shadows fear the sun, they are all gone!

All this places where I have been for so many years are now just naked stones, they all lost their souls...
Cold winds invade the forsaken streets like no human being had ever walked the earth... is anyone left out there?

I am lost in my memories of colors and lights
I forgot all morality and I feel numb, night by night

Faint reflections of the past are watching me through broken glass and mirrors
hate and charges fill their empty eyes, icecold and motionless, trapped in eternity

More and more I fall into a trance, everything around me fades into grey!
Reality and ficition conflate into a world that shouldn't exist!
Paranoia - anxiety states... I feel haunted, there is no way out!
Step by step I'm losing my mind, insantiy prevails, takes over command!

My eyes wide open, my blood's running fast
I am caught in delirium, am I alive at last?
Is it air that fills my lungs, or was it all just a dream?
Is it all just in my head and not as real as it seems?

While the world is high on fire
And everything we are used to be
Is close to falling apart

We act like there is nothing,
Nothing that tempers delight,
Nothing concuss' our lives
And forces us to hell!

All around me people telling their stories
About how great and selfless they are!
But if you need help without reward
Nobody's there, no one cares!

They always said: 'become whatever you want!
Just catch your dreams, just think you are a special one!'
But you'll grow older and you'll see how real life is!
Broken dreams will haunt you through the nightside abyss!

I will live my life
Without these inner strife!
Just be a man of his word!
Among this perverted world!

Just a few out there will understand my vision
And not many of you deserve my trust!
But for those who always stood beside me
I will walk through fire and dust!

I didn't see the blue in the sky
Although I knew the sun was shining so bright
For such a long time I had no clue if I was alive
After years in darkness I step into the light? again.

And still I hear the call of my inner voice
I still see the shadows behind the lights

Again I'm running 25 hours a day
The sins of my past right next to me
Again I know that all this beauty I see
Soon melts away like dreams in the dawn of a new day!

The night falls apart
Colours return to life
Feelings, so long forgotten
Fulfil my soul again!

I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything

What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of shit
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here

What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end

You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way